What is it that lurks in the shadows – do I fear what is not known
How do you reach the darkness if everything you’ve ever done is to suppress it – push it down – bury it under layers of memories that will never reach the light of your mind
Is it okay to remember? Will I be safe or will I once again go to that place where there is no time – no sound – no color – no love – no thought – no feeling…
I walk and I climb and I want to reach the summit
I feel it there and I have faith that I am fully prepared to reach beyond the shadows of my mind
I want to see colors – I want to bath in the rainbow painted in the sky and watch as flowers bloom bursting colors from a palette made by God
I want to hear birds sing in harmony – an orchestra play a symphony of sounds that create oneness with each other and the silence stands alone
I want to be a part of my life – I want to grow old gracefully having lived in each moment knowing the precious gift that it is
I want to love – Everything! I want the depths of that ever abundant, ever truthful faith in human emotion to show through the raw pain of humanity
I want to think in layers that create a web that reaches to every living soul and comes back to me with collective knowledge. I want to reach the limits of all conscious mind to the awakening of one.
I want to feel. I want to feel with my body and delight in the touch of a whisper from God. I want to feel with my hands the earth that crumbles leaving the footprints of my ancestors with their longing desires. I want to feel with my heart in a way that could never be described with words. A way that engulfs the sine waves of creation and extends to the end of infinity.
These are the things that have been missing because my fear of the darkness has cemented a cavern that exists between the realm of what is real and the walls of my heart.
I feel the possibilities and I live to touch them – to be a part of the miraculous system of creation from a place of design.
I am sure of this moment and I am sure that it is ever more than safe to walk out from behind the shadow that once hid my life and that I will flourish in this dimension of mind.