Peace.
Quiet Stillness.
Gray sky.
Slight wind.
Thoughts project to a time when life was harder.
A time when the path was lost.
When the leader was not evident.
I am happy that those days are gone.
Poof!
Disintegrated.
Melted away.
The truly worthless events they were.
Well – not exactly worthless.
It has all been a journey.
I am grateful for every last destination along the way.
A small raindrop.
No worry.
I am sitting under an umbrella.
The same umbrella that allowed me to weather every storm along the way.
Hurricanes,
Earthquakes,
Floods,
Beatings.
No pain.
I can turn off the switch that allows me to feel it.
Go ahead –
Hit me harder.
I won’t feel it.
Not now anyway.
Maybe later.
Maybe 30 years later.
What’s that?
You say maybe you would prefer not to remember?
It is okay.
It is time to remember.
All you did by burying the pain was create the depth of it.
Embedded it.
Now is the time to take the keys to the safe.
Unlock it.
Feel it.
You are safe.
You can once and for all, be done with the lot of it!
You are safe.
Oh so safe.
So protected.
No need for worry.
There is nothing you can’t handle.
I promise I will be there for you.
I will be there for you.
I will hold you while you cry.
While you purge the ugliness from every cell of your body.
It is okay.
It is time.
Blessitude
Lorrie
Poem written 8/15/12
I apologize for the dark nature of my writings today. I hope you can see the good that exists with the bad. Life is balance, yin – yang, love – hate, pain – healing. I have been very in tune with nature lately and feel that there are answers presented to us every day if we are willing to look.
This poem was written about one year into the deep healing I experienced (and continue to experience.) I could relate my journey with the storms that occurred in nature. A few months later, Hurricane/Superstorm Sandy struck the northeast corridor and created massive devastation to my beloved shore.
Unleashed Fury, is a poem I wrote about a week after that storm. (I will be posting it just after this one) It seems the power of the storm that was brewing inside me somehow mirrored that of the storm that destroyed much of the coastline. I did not see the parallel between these two poems, or the events until today…
I am very far away from the scary part of this healing, it feels a distant dream. Blessitude
<3 Lorrie
Jump ahead 6+ years and read, “Thanks For All Things.” This feels like confirmation that life will always have ups and downs, but it is the way we walk through the peaks and valleys that determines our quality of life. Sweet Blessings, Lorrie.
Thanks, Lorrie, your words really resonate for me, as you’ll know from my own blog. Love to you, Gorgeous xxx
Hi Mo. I hope there is something bright that comes out of the darkness. I have not visited yet to see if you posted … but I will be there soon. My love to you…I send you comfort! <3
I think this poem is powerful and emotional and strong!! 🙂 You are showing so much of strenght and self-love in this poem! Like you are a warrior! 🙂 I love that power you are feeling!! 🙂 Empowering oneself is, I think, one of the most important components of any healing process 🙂 I think that is what takes you out of the victim-role ane enables you to stand up for yourself and to be strong against the storm 🙂 <3 <3 <3
Oh Trini. Thank you for your beautiful words…and understanding. You brought tears to my eyes…but they are good tears. I have empowered myself and I do not stand in the role of victim any longer. I played that role for a very long time. It was hard to understand that I “allowed” that. This is perhaps the hardest part of healing a hurt soul…recognizing the control that we have…that we always had but gave away. I can post these poems now because I see them for what they were …. a step in the process of healing. I am not finished…I’m not sure how much more I need to heal…but I am a willing participant in the healing. And I try every day to be conscious. Love to you dearest…and I hated to put darkness for you to read…because I see you in such light… <3
🙂 I did not feel that this was darkness, I felt it was light, it was like a brilliant light coming out of a dark night, expanding and expanding until it lit up the entire night, so there was no longer darkness at all 🙂 And that Light is you Lorrie!! You are an expanding Light! 🙂 <3 <3 <3
I can’t tell you how humbled I feel by your beautiful words. A few years ago I would not have been able to begin to see what you have written here Trini. Now I want to believe everything your said…because I can “FEEL” the light. Thank you for making me want to be more! Much love to you!! 🙂
“While you purge the ugliness from every cell of your body.” — Trying so hard to do this myself….
It is a process…a journey that is not for the faint of heart I think. But, the rewards are incredible!! I believe you can do it…we all can do it. Nobody escapes being human and the trials and tribulations that come with that. Some of us suffer more tragically than others…but there is hope! I just got the strongest energy about your pain…it’s like I can feel it. I wish peace for you…and I will be your cheerleader…friend…or confidant…whatever you need. You are love! Blessitude
Thank you so much, Lorrie! *hugs* I think going through this process we all need a cheerleader, friend AND confidant, lol….a support system is essential. Unfortunately, I do not have that at all. I do the best I can, but the process sometimes seems incredibly drawn-out, doesn’t it? I wish peace and much love for you as well! ♥
Oh yes…As one used to looking for the finish line I have come to realize there may not be one here. If you ever need someone to listen ..go to my contact page and write me 5here. No one should have to be alone! Love right back 🙂
As Trini said your like a warrior, don’t apologize for the “dark nature of your writing” for it is not dark, it is on the contrary light that needs shadow to emerge…, a process as you said in your last reply. Anyway future GA need ordeals while they are on Earth for their Director wants to test and verify their ability. It is obvious that you have passed the test and that the GA’ Director will enroll you 😉 much love to you dearest Lorrie. ♥♥♥
You’re the best my dearest Magnificent Fre’de’ric! I wonder if GA’s get to have partnerships…or training partners? I love what you said so much … for who wouldn’t want to be a Guardian Angel? My love to you in the land you love. Thank you for being my dear friend!!! <3
You’re very welcome. I think duets of GA are possible but I’ve still to improve 🙂 I’m not still as good as my soulmate & schoolmate Mrs Bowden 😉 take care & love (and knock on wood I hope Germany will win the world cup!)
My fingers are crossed…and all good energy for your team!!! (and dearest I’ve many many more lessons in the school of earth!!) <3 <3
Wow Lorrie, This poem is even more powerful in its honest truth, depth of feeling and wisdom. You have learned much, blossomed and are definitely helping others as we weather the storms and challenges of life. Please keep sharing all of you. My path is to embrace the dark, painful feelings and use them to become more loving and more compassionate to myself and others. Thanks for the great example. I believe it’s important to own our dark stuff. <3 Then we transform it into love and light. 🙂
Oh Brad!!! Yes! Yes! Yes! I think I have learned a very valuable lesson here today. You stated it so beautifully and I understand what you are saying to my very soul. Thank you for your beautiful wisdom…your words are so profound and I know that any one who reads them will be inspired…I hope people who really need to see this …do. Much love to you Brad…enjoy this beautiful gift of Sunday. <3 Lorrie
Thanks again Lorrie. I love how we bond, learn and grow from sharing all of ourselves; our dreams, aspirations, challenges and pains. It makes us more human and approachable. We don’t need to be perfect.
I am enjoying my Sunday, mostly connecting online! XD
🙂 Love you Brad!
Thanks Lorrie 🙂 🙂
Sometimes it is the darkness that propels us the most swiftly toward the light. I completely relate to the violent explosion of pent up emotion and the devastation it can wreak on those inadvertently, and purposely in that path. The calm after the storm can be soothing as the body, spirit, and mind come back into balance and restoration from the release of the pressure, and toxins of anger. Thanks for your candid transparency, and beautiful expression. Very inspiring. W
Thank you Wendy! Your words are so touching…and they mean a lot to me. This has been a very cathartic morning…I wondered whether I should post these poems and I couldn’t be more grateful that I did. For I am so grateful, and thankful for the way my heart has been touched by all the wonderful people in this forum. Thank you Wendy…Have a super day!
Well said. You have a lot of talent. Hugs, Barbra
You are so sweet Barbara…Thank you! Hugs back to you 🙂
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I’m guessing, but truly sorry to hear you had to go through the kind of past that keeps a hold of you, or can.
For sure, it sounds like you’re on your way, and the angst has gone its way — far away, I hope.
Uncle Tree sees a man dressed in a white cowboy suit, with white hat and boots,
on a white horse, trying to play tennis with a florescent green racquet and ball. .;)
How did you and your partner do yesterday, anyway?
Haha…good laugh Uncle Tree! It was a very good competitive match…but we won all three sets. We are so mean…it was our girlfriend’s birthday…she would never have wanted us to “throw” it though. Tough competitors! And yes…I am very far away from those very dark times…Thank you for your words of comfort 🙂
These 2 poems resonate with me as well. I just wrote something about it being okay to hold it all. These are beautiful. <3
Hi Laurie…if they resonate then I pray you are also so far away from the dark times! Much love and healing to you <3
Yes, I am far from that place. But I am also able to hold what is here. <3 Love back
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It’s Okay to Remember
Hi Lorrie! It’s been a while, hope all is going well with you. Thanks for sharing this and for the visit to my page. Have a great weekend and tell me how you’re doing when you get the chance. Enjoy your weekend…
Steve
Hi Steve…thanks for all of your support. All is well…fantastically busy…it seems there is more to do than I can fit into a day lately…but that is good. Hope all is super in your world 😉
Well as you may be able to see, I don’t think I’ll ever catch up on all the comments/replies that came in while I was on my vacation!
I’m going to go through and reply to the comments but I’ll have to “dump” the “liked comments” and “liked your posts.” I hate to do that because it seems rude, but I’ll never catch up otherwise…
BTW, it is good to hear you are so busy yourself and doing well Lorrie. I’ll check in for new posts with you as I have some time…Steve 🙂