In the darkness
I sit alone
Quiet
No sounds
No movement
Just a direct connection to my spirit…to my soul
A time to take solace
A time to examine
Look hard at the questions
Sit still and wait for enlightenment
Realization
Actualization
*
I come away with the idea that the break was needed
That there wasn’t enough of a connection to the things that matter
That I was caught up in the wheel of life and I didn’t honor the path
The Way
The life that I am creating
The life that I want to live
*
So a self imposed exile was in order
A defined time out
A body that took control and said, “Hey, pay attention!”
With the little signs ignored
It had no choice but to make me sit up and take notice
*
No…it would not allow me to go back to old established patterns
Years of neglect
Unbelievable abuse
My body took the brunt of the emotional turmoil for years
It felt the pain that my mind couldn’t handle
It had its fill of silently suffering
Playing the martyr
Once strong and healthy it had a voice
A LOUD BOOMING BELLOW
One that could not be ignored
*
It has been a tough week
But I am starting my walk to the light that I see
Step by step
I cleanse my heart
My Mind
My Soul
My Body
I lay gratitude at my feet
I am filled with love and respect
I honor the relationship of mind, spirit, body
That even though tested
Will never be broken
Balanced
A triumvirate connected
Blessitude
Lorrie
10/12/14
I has been a very tough, painful week. A massive sinus infection persisted through two doctors and two medications and eventually landed me in the emergency room begging for relief from the pain.
A very dear friend…my Soul Mate…wrote to me and said, “Imagine it is a ‘test’ to verify your ‘inner’ sun is able to shine even when the weather is bad.”
The next morning I woke early and walked up to the ocean. I thought the morning birth of my outer sun would spark my inner rays to reach out and cover my heart. For once stimulated…gently nudged…the hearts vibrations can not be stopped.
The peaceful lapping of the waves reflecting the colors of the sky washed over my soul. I could feel my inner child being held safe in the arms of love.
I thought about life. I looked around, in fact did a complete turn to take the whole morning in. And to my surprise, standing behind me was the waning gibbous moon that had been full of blood just the day before.
And in that moment I connected to the moon, to the earth, to the ocean, to the tides. I felt the rhythm of life inside me and I wanted to dance.
Yes…and somehow in the daybreak, what was broken started to repair.
<3 Lorrie
Thank you my friends. Your well wishes and support during this painful time is appreciated more than I can possibly put into words. So I send you a message from my heart <3
Much love you you — <3
Hi Laurie….Thank you 🙂 Much love accepted!! I will slowly make my way back and get over to see what you have been up to. Much love back to you! <3
No hurry. I am being kind of quiet. <3 A little part of me is feeling sad.. so I am being quiet. I am finishing up my little book.. and there is some sadness that needs a little more honoring. <3 I found someone to help finish it up for me. So thankful. I know we are all working together as we continue to heal individually. It seems we are supporting each other the most by doing our own work. <3 Much love and thank you for the note <3
Laurie
I’m sorry you have a little sadness…but happy you are seeing your beautiful book to fruition! I know I tend to get a little sad when I am nearing to completing a project. You spend so much time with something and put your heart and soul into it…When it seems “finished” you can have a little sadness knowing that your time together is coming to an end. I have some major projects that I have not finished that I believe is for this reason. A good friend told me to be happy for the completion because the next project is on its way!! Much love to you Laurie! ! <3
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Dear Lorrie, I’m very moved by this poem (it is like a self-judgement) and by the personal comment that follow… you know that I’m worrying about your health. I’m so happy to know that you experienced such a blessed Peace thanks to the Ocean, the Light, the waves, and Life… yes, I think that everything we endure and enjoy is a test, pain, joys, ordeals, blessings… a “test”, because we must learn from them, to become stronger or, more precisely, “lighter”, as light as… light, it means almost nothing, something like what you felt while you were at the beach… as you know, I hope and pray to feel better soon, and relieved! Thank you for sharing with us such a profound look inside youself… I’m happy because I know all your followers, readers and friends are going to send to you a very “positive energy” that will help you! With much love & blessings 🙂 a triumvirate of black hearts ♥♥♥
My dear friend…Thank you so much!! I love your words…I love your outlook on life…I love your wonder…how you see beyond what is in front of your eyes!! I am grateful for you Fre’de’ric. You truly touch my heart in a way that is pure…that is joy!
“To become stronger or, more precisely, “lighter”, as light as…light, it means almost nothing”….WOW! WOW! Yes…it is “enlightenment” explained as beautifully as I’ve ever seen!! You are an amazing soul, dear Fre’de’ric. Thank you for everything…for all the everythings of every life time!!! I feel so comforted by your love! <3 <3
Oh!!! and a triumvirate of black hearts!!!!!! You topped off my day 🙂 🙂
I think I will go try to walk on the beach for a little while at least. I have not moved much over the past few days…but I do feel better. Those drugs were so powerful….I don't like to take them but they were necessary. I hope the rest of your Sunday is beautiful!!!! <3
Ah Lorrie I’m glad my poor words (always remember I don’t use my first language, and I often feel like a maimed child (but maybe I like to feel like that…))… were able to make you smile and feel happy… I’m so happy to know the beautiful Nature that surrounds you is so helpful… take care my friend 🙂 ♥♥♥
That my dear is why it is even more amazing. ..the comfort you give from your non – native language!!! But see, I believe that you speak from your heart and soul and therefore…it is your native language…no matter what language it is translated to! (I hope that made sense! 🙂 ) <3 <3
I am so sorry Lorrie that you’ve been hurting. Unfortunately, it’s through our pain that we learn our planet needs healing. And when we heal ourselves we participate in healing the planet. It’s our pain that gives us the courage to reach out and when we reach out we touch many lives. For example, your beautiful blog has touched my life and many others. I hope this helps. I’m sending you a great big cyber healing hug. Lorlinda
Oh, Lorlinda….your words are so beautiful….so true! Thank you for sending comfort…I so readily accept all that is good into my life. That is the part that started to close off again…believing that I “deserve” love and good things. I agree with you, that when we heal we help others….we help the planet. And our planet needs so much help right now. Thank you for your beautiful spirit….I am very grateful for you comment! <3 <3
May your burdens and pain be eased…as a zephyr of tranquillity envelops your soul into a state through His mercy and protection. I am catching up your wonderful pieces of poetry dear Lorrie. Your thoughts are always so beautiful and dear to my heart to read…I hope you are having a blessed day filled with much love and light.
With much love
Zara <3<3
Hello Zara! As always, your words leave the mark of highest love on my soul!! Thank you for your compassionate soul…for your beautiful words. And thank you for reading my words and commenting about them with such praise…I am honored that you feel them! I am doing much better 🙂 I hope your Sunday is full of love <3
Hi Lorrie,
We all have times of renewal (I’ve been in a rugged month myself). Certainly nature is one of the very best healers. Beneath the sun, moon, and sky, we filter out all of the baggage that seeks to disillusion us….and simply focus on the moment. Purity, radiance, love. May Truth fill your soul with a peace that passes understanding, my friend.
Thank you! Thank you so much. Your words are like a beautiful prayer and I accept it…I hear it…and I will honor it!! I know that sometimes the best lessons are learned through pain and adversity. The coming out of the darkness and understanding far surpasses the circumstance. I will say a quiet prayer for you…that you too will have understanding in your time of struggle! Much love!! <3 <3
What a beautiful poem and sharing of your heart and journey.<3 Thank you Lorrie. Your courage and wisdom are most touching and inspiring. I love your triumvirate of body, mind and soul. Reclaiming your light, aligning your will and caring for your inner child. Maybe I'm projecting on the inner child part! 🙂 I'm sorry that you have had these physical challenges, but happy that you found the courage, will and wisdom to realign your being. I am working on the same lesson while challenged with finances, learning that I'm tired of letting fear, money and circumstances run my life. It's time to be a more proactive creator, starting with self love and alignment with my heart.. I choose to live, to love, to play and to align with my heart and divine self.
Thanks for sharing the journey. I honor and appreciate you. blessings and hugs my friend. <3 🙂
Oh Brad!! What a gift you just gave to me!! Your words validate that we are all connected. ..that if I hurt you can feel that hurt…and when I heal you can also heal!!! I know you have been hurting in your way so to hear you talk about being a more proactive creator and to get there with self love and alignment with your divine self…Ah! I am so amazingly blessed by your heartfelt words…they magnify the love in my heart!!! Blessitude Brad!!! <3 <3
Thanks dear friend. 🙂 We walk in oneness.
Wow! Lorrie. What a journey you take us on in this posting. The poem was excellent but I love the comments at the end- the sense of piecing one’s self back together was so prevalent. I wish you well.
Thanks Kim! I knew I wanted to include the photos…the words just came while uploading the photos…remembering the moments. I’m glad you could feel the healing! <3
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Ah! Mino…Thank you my dear friend! I appreciate you so! <3
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Thank you so much Carladawn!!! I so appreciate your support! 🙂
You are very welcome. I resonated with your post personally. I appreciated it’s depth. Beautiful.
Sounds like you’ve turned the corner with your illness, with the help of a gibbous moon, a good friend, time alone and a glorious sunrise. Wonderful. May the healing continue.
Yes!! It sounds like a wonderful prescription for wellness 🙂 Thank you for your care. Hope everything is super in your world!! 🙂
Lovely piece!
Thank you so much! I’m happy you stopped by…and thanks for commenting 🙂
When we allow ourselves to embrace it all, we find a new kind of freedom… And appreciation for what is before us at each moment.
May gratitude fill your soul and be part of the healing Lorrie <3
Yes, Val! Thank you! Your words always speak directly to the part of me that is so ready to listen!! I appreciate you so much and I hope that your world is full of beautiful blessings! ! <3
<3 <3 <3 More than words can say.
Isn’t it amazing how sometimes you don’t need the words? I can feel the energy here from you! Thank you 🙂 <3
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First of all, I love the title of this one. Second, I’m so glad that you have left that other world behind and are willing to walk into a new life in search of happiness and peace. Third, I’m so sorry you have been so sick and pray that you are on the mend. Fourth, I’m so envious tha you can walk from where you are to a beach. Long, long ago I could do that and oh what peace I found there. This is a great post Lorrie and you wrote it in spite of feeling as bad as you have. That’s impressive in and of itself. I pray that the Lord restore your health and wholeness, both physical and emotional and spiritual! Hugs and blessings, Natalie 🙂 <3
Hi Natalie! Thank you for all of the above 🙂 I am also thankful for all of it…the good…the pain…the stupendously beautiful place that I get to feel renewed by! I am so aware of all my blessings and I am so grateful for every one of them. This is what grace feels like…I think! Much love to you…Thank you for heartfelt support! <3 <3
Glad you are well. blessings. vw
I am sooooooo much better…Thank you!!! It is so hard for me when the pain is in my head. Hope your world is fantastic! ! <3
Sounds like you are being looked after fabulously. God is still in control. vw
Thank GOODNESS for that 😉
Our ocean often heals our Jersey Gal souls…so happy that you are feeling better dear Lorrie! ♥
🙂 Yes!! I know you KNOW! And I know how blessed I am to be able to renew with that energy….and from the love of beautiful souls…like yours!!! <3 <3
Dearest Lorrie, I am so so happy that you are starting to heal, I feel that in this poem, that you are healing. My cold has really blown out in s full storm now, so I am resting today. But you know that I am thinking about you and sending you lots and lots of Love. I feel so happy to be a part of your journey and to see and feel you blossoming into your beautiful self! 🙂 <3 I am so proud of you dearest sister <3 <3 <3
Oh…dear Trini!! Thank you so much…I’m so happy you can feel the healing! ! Now….we need to work on you!!! I’m so sorry you are under the weather and I am sending as much beautiful light healing energy as I can…across the many miles…but so close in heart and soul!!! Feel better dear one…and thank you for all of your love, healing, and support! ! 🙂 <3 <3
Oh no…I know how much of a bad news sinus can be as I too suffer from it – not sure what triggered it but maybe it’s the changing weather? You MUST pay more and more attention to your health Lorrie and I am so happy to see you recover from it and give us this beautiful gift of poetry, how you’ve connected the dots and learnt from everything that happened, and how it happened for a reason. Our body does indeed need more attention than we often give it. When I get the sinus problem – I can’t talk to people cause every ‘vibration’ in the facial tissue can be a pain. Please, please take care of your health. <3
I absolutely love the pictures..so calming and serene, only a person who can perceive beauty can take such lovely pictures, my friend. <3
Giant clouds of love and many warm hugs for you. Also some tea, if you fancy it! 😀
Take care. 🙂
Cheers!
You are so wonderful! Thank you so much for your support. ..your encouragement. ..and your praise! 🙂 Yes…I have had sinus issues most of my life…but I never had anything like this before!! It was so incredibly painful…just like you said…even talking hurt. Then to not get any relief from visiting two doctors was a little unbelievable. The worst part was the specialist saying over and over “this is not normal…keep taking the meds and see me in 7 days!” I don’t know any patient who would feel good hearing the doctor say that!!
I understand the connection between my health and my awareness…I have worked so hard…so hard to take that kind of care with myself. I have learned a lot…and I am grateful for that learning! I will get through this…stronger than ever!!! Much love to you…I so appreciate you! <3 <3
Oh Lorrie, I’m so sorry to hear about your trials with health and spirit. I’m so glad you decided to take a step back to take care of yourself, and in doing so, you actually took a step forward. I have to confess, I am truly jealous that you live so close to the beach. I love the wide open space of the beach and ocean. And how wonderful that you go to see the early morning sun and the end of the moon. Just lovely.
Please, please, please take good care of yourself.
Many blessings.
🙂 <3
Thank you sweet Staci!! I know how blessed I am to live here…it is such a beautiful place and I am so filled with spirit in this kind of nature 🙂 I vow to never take it for granted…in fact that is how I want to live my life every moment of every day…be so aware and grateful for everything that is in it!!! I love how you said I took a step back but it was actually a step forward! So correct!! Thank you so much <3. I hope everything is super in your world 🙂
Everything is just great Lorrie. Thank you so much.
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Lorrie, sometimes we just need the stillness with ourselves, with the Spirit, to rejuvenate, to see the bigger picture and the small gifts that make up the steps that got us here. Allow yourself to surrender to the embrace of the ocean, the sun, a favorite blanket, and the overwhelming love. Take care. <3
Hi Susan! 🙂 Yes…to everything you said! I am so blessed….so many people have extended such love and compassion I am truly humbled. I had great fear about going to the ER…and there’s nothing I love more than when we change our fear to love…the power of the love that comes back to us is a hundredfold!! Every person I saw and have dealt with since couldn’t be kinder or more caring! Thank you so for your beautiful words 🙂 <3
A beautiful reflective post Lorrie, that we all need to do at times. When we lose our connection in life, this is a perfect way to find our way home. I hope this had helped with your healing.
Karen
Thank you Karen! Yes…it has helped tremendously….I can feel the power of nature…really connect to it. I am much better but still healing physically. My spirit has been bathed in healing light and I am so grateful!! Thank you for your caring support! <3
A wonderful and touching post Lorrie. Nature is the place where we can find healing for both body and soul in the experience of oneness with everything. Sending you warm thoughts.
Thank you so much Tiny! I truly wish I could bottle up the feeling and give it to every single person on the planet!!! I’m really happy you stopped by and commented. Have a super blessed day. 🙂
Lorrie, I have only known you such a short space of time. But in that space we call time.. I see a wonderful Soul.. who is connecting ever more in her Moments… this sent goose bumps down my spine.. You are well on your way to discovering who you are and healing from within.. Its a privilege to know you And I know you will only grow and gain more strength as you listen to your Higher Self.. Who is always embracing your heart to nurture yourself more..
Love and Healing thoughts.. Sue xxx
Oh…Sue…you just brought tears to my eyes! Thank you! Thank you for your beautiful words….your beautiful soul <3 I know it has only been a short time as well…but I feel such a kinship with you. I know every day my purpose….which is simply to live…really live ….and learn….really learn …is being fulfilled. And I know that every connection we make along way advances that beauty!! Thank you so much for being you…for connecting with me 🙂 I truly am Blessitude! <3
<3 <3 <3 🙂 with love in return.. 🙂
Lorrie, I was unaware that you were not feeling well. I send my Love along with so many here, and pray that you return to full health very soon. It seems some of us have stepped into very challenging phases of our journey, and when we step through to the other side, the Light and the Relief and the Flow, all are enhanced, replacing the Pain and Numbness of Spirit with one of Love and Peace. I am here for you, my friend. Peace to you as well as health. Love, Amy
Amy…Thank you so much! I feel such a great loving energy reading this response. I am much much better. ..and I continue to learn through life’s adversities. I’m trying to catch up here…the photos I have seen from you are so so beautiful! ! Much love to you…Thank you for your caring support! ! <3 <3
Lorrie, Life has thrown me into a busy phase. I have so many comments to get through, and I have not been able to blog as I normally do. I have posted on Petals my newest “addiction” that which is called iPad-ography. GRIN. I’m on a huge learning curve, which I duck in, weave in, while my Life churns busy. I am so glad you are feeling better. Sinus problems have been rearing lately. I too have had my share of one. (((HUGS))) Amy
I hope you are feeling better real soon! It sure looks like spirit is guiding your new art form…Amy you are so talented…always believe that!! <3
Bless you, Lorrie. As it is obvious to all, what is being created by me is miraculous. I look at my own work and ask ME? I did THAT? Yes, Spirit is guiding me, always does, yet I am still very much in the um dark as to where I am going. LOL Thank you so much for your kindness, Lorrie. Love, Amy
🙂 I love it Amy!! Just remember to enjoy the journey no matter where you are going!! Much love! <3
A gorgeous happening to share, Lorrie! I knew you were feeling better, but I was looking back in your posts and found this as something I had missed. Glad I read it. It’s very life-affirming and shows a natural connection between our emotional make-up and the wondrous earth and all the things God has put in it for us to enjoy!
Have a great day…
TTL
🙂 Thank you so much! I respect your opinion and I am thankful for your praise! Hope all is super 🙂 all is great here 🙂
Glad to hear from you as always, Lorrie! Hope you will have some time to write soon. Enjoy your sister’s visit and the rest of your day!
God’s love and comfort to you and yours,
TTL 🙂
Thank you!! It’s a beautiful thing. Write soon 🙂
I will! Guess you can see my internet is back up and running…I have such trouble with it some days.
Talk to you soon,
TTL
Hi Lorrie: I’ve just nominated you for the “One Lovely Blog Award.” No rules! Please visit my site to see.
Hi Kim….the fact that you thought of me makes me so happy!! Because I have less time to devote to my blog that I love….I have decided not to participate in awards any longer 🙁 But I thank you so much for nominating me!! 🙂 <3
No problem, Lorrie. Understand, completely. No rules here so if you change your mind to just accept and post, feel free. Love to you.
Thank you so much! I love your generous spirit! It shines through here on WP! <3 <3
Always so generous, Lorrie. God’s Blessings to you.
😉 Thank you so much Kim! I hope your week is going beautifully. ..and that you have adjusted after you vacation (it can be so hard to come back from sometimes! ) <3
I hope you have recovered now from the worst. Well, I’m not that poetic with medical matters since I have to deal with medical histories of different patients very often, and whatever you do, please pay attention to signs your body gives you. While pain is a big suffering and we are seeing it as such, it’s also one of the strongest protective mechanisms of our body. Any pain indicates you should pay attention because it contains message for further action. I believe you are out of the worst stage, it is time to strengthen the immune system more than ever not to get some recurrent condition. If you were taking strong antibiotics you could consider some probiotics at the moment, like fermented milk, etc. Simple herbal tea is very good, too, especially the old chamomile, rose hips, dried apples and things like echinacea tincture. Your writing is always thoughtful, and in order to keep writing like that you probably have to pamper and take better care of your body since it is a house for our souls.
Hi Inese…Thank you so much for your thoughtful suggestions. ..and for your advice about listening to my body! Yes…everything you said is true and I need to “listen” better. 🙂 I am working on my immune system…taking probiotics…and love your suggestion of echinacea ticture. I loved seeing your latest posts…and do wish we lived near each other…I would love to go to your studio!! Much love <3
I just got a chance to see your journey:: inner sea of love embracing all that is. The cleansing of awakening! Heart to Heart Robyn Robyn
Thank you Heart to Heart Robyn!! I am happy you landed here 🙂 <3