This post is a part of a series of writings during a time of deep healing and transformation. The following are links to the other writings in the series in chronological order: Introduction & Haiku, The Funny Thing About Truth, The Journey To…, He Said I Have Anger, The Long Sleepless Night, Broken Arrow, Safe, Alone, On The Verge, Shred, The Thread, Vindication, Another Inch…Perhaps a Mile, Emancipation, Forgiveness
*Disclaimer: Some of this subject matter is sensitive in nature. Please read and explore in safety.
Is it really so important for everything to fit into a nice label
Into a category
Is it really possible to make myself feel better treating my life
Like an extreme filing system
Everything in its proper folder
Every folder filed away alphabetically
So as to be able to access it immediately when needed
Am I not the first person to say if everything has a place
And you always put it in its proper place
It will never get lost
You will always be able to find it
That’s all well and good
If you know WHERE to file it
What happens with the things and events
That don’t fit into your filing system?
The things that don’t have an intuitive label
The things that are left
Unfiled
With no proper place to be
And I begin to wonder
If they have no proper place to be filed
And that means they would not easily be found
Could it be true that they are things
That are not necessary?
That there’s no good reason to have to access them again
No good reason to remember them at all?
I wonder
Then I remember the paper shredder
Things that aren’t necessary to keep any longer
Go zip and no longer exist as what it was before
Unnecessary
Destroyed
Maybe I can add an internal shredder
And destroy the things that can’t be filed
Destroy the things that shouldn’t be filed
Shouldn’t be remembered
Shouldn’t be accessed
And maybe
Just maybe
I should rethink the whole filing system
And just let it be
Blessitude
Lorrie <3
3/31/15
Profound thoughts here dear Lorrie. Perhaps I need to look at my internal filing system and see what needs to be shredded as well, yes, I think I will definitely do just that! Blessings 🙂
I love you got the “visual,” Andy! Some things just no longer serve us 😉 This particular time I think I was starting to act like a chicken….and run away from what was slowly being revealed. But I didn’t shred it…I dealt (am dealing) with it. Thanks my friend ♡
You are welcome dear friend. Glad we can help each other out here 🙂
the truest ways are found when we have no preconceptions or preconditions,
the flow and the gut are the most real
Lovely post Lorrie – Thank You
Big Hugs
john
Thanks so much John!! Love your words…you always speak directly to my heart and your words help me so much 🙂 I take it I should can all my “what ifs!” 🙂 ♡♡
What ifs – I like that
Beautiful thoughts this morning, Lorrie! Sometimes it is hard to let go of things, memories, thoughts…love the image of a paper shredder 🙂 Much love to you!!
Hi Julie! Thanks for being here 🙂 Hope all is super in your world ♡♡
Love these thoughts Lorrie. Remember, the filing system is the creation of our mind. Its a way we make sense of the world around us and our experiences in life. As everything changes, its okay to change the filing system too. It isn’t a part of us, just a tool we use.
hugs
xo
Yes, Val!! Perfect point to bring up. And it is funny how our perceptions can change. It is good to have the proper tool for each job…and sometimes the shredder is helpful! Thank you so much…I really appreciate your support more than I can say!! ♡♡
Reading this made me long for that shredder… I knew you weren’t going to leave it there though. Love to you , Laurie and may all of us find places within for those things that feel like are breaking us… And somehow transform them to strengthen us
That’s so beautiful Cynthia! Yes, it does sometimes feel as though we are breaking…doesn’t it? I suppose we should really pay attention at those times and put all of our faith in the fact that we will not only get through but will be stronger when we come out the other side!! Thank you my friend ♡ Have a beautiful week!
Beautiful thoughts this morning and I too have some refiling or organizing with my internal file system. Thank you for sharing ~
Hi Mary 🙂 Thanks! It is time for spring cleaning 😉 Clean out the closets….clear out old files! Hope your world is wonderful!! ♡
I love your analogy and insights in this one Lorrie. To wise sorting and joyful shredding! XD hugs!
Brad , I pictured your avatar smile when I read “joyful shredding!” Yes, your photo is one of pure joy…so real! I hope that you wear that smile today my friend!! 🙂 ♡
I’ll wear it for a while thanks to your wonderful comment. riding joy! XD
Very clever post, my friend. And for the record, I don’t believe everything has it’s specific file folder either. Some things just don’t fit. Whether I like it or not. I think you agree, yes?
🙂 <3
Oh, Staci!! For sure!!! Try as we may, there are some things that couldn’t possibly fit…no matter how hard we try! So from now on I will quietly sit and shred that”stuff!” Much love to you my friend ♡♡♡
Shred away, my friend. And much love to you too.
🙂 <3
I understand this so well! You said it so well, too.
Then there is the clutter factor. The things that do not fit easily; that are so difficult to label might hold some measure of interest or merit, but the measure is not really that large, and they create piles that cover the files that you really need to access. They might even act like one of those annoying “pop ups” that we have to close, and then go scrolling to find the place where you were trying to read
I really appreciate the way you write. I wrote something a few years ago titled “defining moments”. I will stick it to the front of my blog in case you might like to read it. <3
Blessings,
Theresa
I would LOVE to read it Theresa!! And I appreciate that you not only get me, but you take it even further!! Brilliant! Yes, what we need to access is buried under the piles that have no place to go. And the idea of the annoying pop ups…yes!!! Thank you so much for your friendship. It is a wonderful feeling to have our connection ♡♡
I love this very much Lorrie. <3 I continue to send you Love and Angels. <3 I feel your heart in these posts <3 You are so loved by me <3
Oh my sweet Angel…THANK YOU!!! I know you are close and I can feel your love. You are so very important to me, little sister. I am grateful for our connection and thank you so much….I find so much comfort when I feel your prayers <3. Take care of yourself…I send you so much love ♡♡♡♡♡
<3 <3 <3 !!!
I love the image of the shredder. Lots of food for thought here. I try to file the good, save the lessons, shred the dark and paste up the creative. Great Post!
Yes!!! I love it 🙂 Especially “paste up the creative!” Thank you so much for walking this journey with me ♡♡♡
I’m going to try mentally shredding my unwanted thoughts as they come. Even if they come back and I have to shred them again, it will be fun to imagine the thoughts or images going through a shredder.
Hi JoAnne!! Great!! Yes…try it. And you are correct…if they come back…throw them through the machine again…and again 🙂 Thanks for being here. The series will end soon and I was so right to post them on a schedule, as my life has blown up while this series has been in progress. I am so grateful that we have connected and I wish you happy shredding!!! 🙂 ♡♡
That internal shredder makes for a great healing mediation, I love it! With all the changes in technology…a good purge of those files is definitely a sage decision😉 hugs, love and blessings sweet thing🌸🌸🌸
I LOVE LOVE LOVE your little flowers 🙂 Thanks, Lisa. Yes…a good meditation with the shredder and then the ice cold water can wash it all away and energize the chakras!! Thanks for being here my friend. Sending you good energy!! ♡♡
Very insightful, Lorrie. I was reminded of a passage in A Course of Love where Jesus speaks of precisely these experiences, the ones we don’t know how to process that get caught in our gears and gum up the works. He uses a little different analogy, but it means very much if not exactly what you describe here. He says when we don’t understand something, we cling to it or dissect it, and hold onto it, rather then letting it pass through… into the filing system of the Great Beyond… 🙂
Michael
“Get caught in our gears and gum up the works!” Yes, Michael, that is precisely what it feels like!! And it created a sludge that prevented other good things from passing through! I must admit that I have not completely read ACIM, but I was directed to this material by my soul. I was seeing a holistic counselor and asked her about the book because it kept coming up for me. She didn’t give it a huge endorsement, but my soul wouldn’t stop thinking about it so I got it. I always find the time I spend with it to feel very sacred…and that time is always directed by a “feeling” to pick it up 🙂 The basic tenet that love and fear can not coexist has created a peaceful place for me in times of confusion. I am grateful for your words and I know that the words I write come from a place deep in my soul. Many blessings to you my friend <3. Thank you 🙂