LONELY CHAIRS
backdrop of summer
days gone by
the lonely heart grieves
days gone by
a man in a tie
we point and laugh
I gasp in disbelief
swim to the last barrel
a member of the club
fear the size of the surf
7th avenue
it WAS heaven
a slice of my life
times that were free
talked about everything
that ever meant anything
dry my eyes
the pain taken away
never looked back
saw you swimming
in a hurricane
destructive storm
tore the landscape of our past
destructive life
ripped the heart out of your chest
never been more sorry
than the pain I felt from you…
I did not know
too much to
bare your soul
drowning in the loss
swimming out to sea
wishing the current
would just take you
away
my heart
and soul
have never left you
endless hours crying
and wishing I could hold you
My Dear friend
Oh, how we could sit for hours, baking in the sun. Talking never got old.
Do you know that you were my best friend?
You helped me through such a dark time in my life. It was like you knew that if you didn’t make me talk, every single day, that I just might have left…gone on to different pastures.
And I don’t even know if I ever thanked you.
And then there was a time when I could have done the same for you…and I didn’t.
I have forgiven myself for a lot of things, but no…not that one.
And it seems to just say I’m sorry to you wouldn’t be enough.
But I am.
Our chairs are now empty, as are parts of our hearts.
But know that in the landscape of my life you have always been right up there at the top!
The one with no secrets…
The one with so many answers…
The one who tried to talk sense into me…
But I never listened!
I wonder now if you caught on and started to tell me what you thought I SHOULDN’T do…?
Yeah.
I have always loved you.
And I have always known that you love me.
I miss you <3
Blessitude!
Lorrie <3
8/5/16
This is a very poignant and heartfelt post Lorrie. It sounds like this person was a great help and support to you. I do hope you’ll be gentle with yourself. We do the best we can. It’s not fair to hold your past self to your present self’s skill and awareness level. You might have to remind me of this when I beat myself up for poor investment choices. 🙂
I hope you have a peaceful weekend. hugs and blessings.
Ah! Brad!! What an incredibly wonderful sentiment…you are so correct and I thank you for the nudge to be gentle. Yes…this person is very special to me and when we ran into each other yesterday so many memories came flooding back! Thank you for your kind words and I promise to return the love…and guidance to be gentle. You really have given me something to think about! ♡♡
I’m glad you can be gentle and compassionate with yourself. 🙂
You know Brad…I’ve gone the other way…and gentle and compassionate is so much nicer ♡ Blessings for a beautiful weekend!
Yay!
May time help us understand, heal the inconsistencies of our younger selves and help us to forgive. 🙏💕🙏
“The Momma” always said ‘time heals all wounds’ Val, and even as a small child I believed her. All the work I have done which facilitated the healing I have done so far is a good reminder that it CAN be done. I don’t have many regrets in life, because it all brought me where I am…and I am happy here. But this regret is real and I will have to find a way to reconcile it. Thanks, Val. I know your Saturdays are usually very busy…may it be a great one ♡
Keep listening to you heart .. Even when it wants to close because it feels the hurt. With love, we can all find the way.
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Happy Saturday to you 🙏
My heart to yours, Val. Thank you…♡
You won’t believe the synchronicity of your beautiful post for me! Thursday night I lost a dear friend and many of my feelings about her. Your eloquence really touches my heart! Thank you!
Oh, Carol, my heart reaches out with a giant hug. This is one more reminder of how connected we are…we all have very similar life experiences. I send lots of love and I am happy my words touched you…there is a whole lot of feeling in them. Much love ♡
Much love to you also!
May I ask, will MD read this, Lorrie? H <3
Hi Hariod 🙂 MD is no longer in our earthly plane…so my answer is ‘maybe!’ My friend, whom I ran into yesterday, will hopefully be able to find my little blog. So my answer is ‘I hope so!’
I stopped by your blog and read your latest post, Hariod. I have not read the comments yet, nor commented myself, but plan to devote the time necessary this weekend. Your posts and the conversation that follows, deserve a quiet niche of time and a nice cup of tea…oh…and my little puppy on my lap 😉 ♡
Well, let’s hope that both well-loved friends feel your sentiments. 🙂 Sending our thoughts out, if sufficiently heartfelt, and whether within earshot or eyesight, somehow has a tendency to find their mark in time, it seems.
Thankyou for your interest I’m own efforts, dear friend. 🙂 I’m only posting once every six or seven weeks nowadays, and this latest one is less oblique than many past efforts, I think (and hope) you’ll agree. Finding the balance between putting a philosophical(?) idea across whilst remaining readable and not too effort-inducing hasn’t always come easily to me, it must be said. It’s a learning process, and I’m only grateful to have a few kind folk such as yourself bear with me as I fumble my way along the dark. o_O
Love will move to heal as we learn to allow it to have its way. Peace!
Oh! Dennis…YES!!! So beautiful my friend…’as we learn to allow it to have its way’…just gave me chills! ♡♡
This was incredible Lorrie. I could relate to this on several levels. I appreciate your honesty.
Oh…Kim…thanks. I was so happy to see my friend. Even though I have regrets of not being there when needed most…we just have a bond that years can go by and it feels like we sat in those beach chairs yesterday. Hope your weekend is super ♡
Dear Lorrie, so beautiful to see this side of you; wistful. Another beautiful demension of your creativity. Love, Harlon
Thank you my beautiful friend ♡ I appreciate you!
I’ve had that thought that I wish I could have helped some one more who helped me so much. People, guides, come into our lives when we need them. Maybe someone else helped your guide earlier. Maybe you will help someone else with the wisdom you received back then. I bet you already have. <3 Beautiful writing, Lorrie.
Oh…JoAnna…thank you for your beautiful thoughts 🙂 We all play a role in someone else’s story…we don’t always realize it at the time. Maybe with increased awareness we will be able to be who and what we want to be for others. Blessings dear friend ♡
Our soul is the best reminder and timing of what we must do, painful and sad memories often bubble to the surface along with the happy. Timing of this is so important, I often ask why now and not before. Beautiful and always soulful words. Your memories of a beautiful soul. Whether here or in the Divine they will receive and see these words, thoughts and feelings. Blessings always with you.
Thank you for your heartfelt message that is full of compassion! Yes…I think you have something here about the timing…it is an important factor for understanding all that is being presented. And I also agree these words will he seen by those written for. Hope you have a beautiful day ♡
You have a beautiful day too thank you for your inspiration
My pleasure!! 🙂
What a beautiful post…touched me as I thought back through the people God has put into my life at specific times for specific reasons…embrace that aspect and as Brad said…be gentle to yourself!! Best to you!!
Yes…I will, Kirt. Thank you 🙂 It’s all about gratitude…for EVERYTHING that shows up…because it is all Divinely led…I believe it! Blessitude ♡
This was written from deep within your heart dear Lorrie.. I know how special a deep friendship is and how a broken one breaks our hearts.. Know too that it is also a two way experience.. And lessons are not always as we see them upon the surface..
We are all given the chance to heal from these second encounters.. ( reading more from your comments. ) And forgive me if I recount a personal experience here Lorrie… I know from my own experiences with my Mother who didn’t speak to me for 10 yrs.. In the months before her sudden death.. We bumped into each other around a corner in our Town.. I spoke, asking how she was, It was her choice to turn and almost run without speaking back in the opposite direction.. The Universe gave her that chance to heal wounds.. Sadly she turned away from it..
But it also showed me that the Universe was also telling me.. Nothing I could do would change her stubborn streak.. And that it had given me a chance in my own way to know I had tried my best throughout the whole 10 yrs of reaching out..
Knowing within ourselves the Love we have always held for our family and friends how ever Life twists us to part .. That Inner Knowing about doing our best, and you should not think any less of yourself for the emotional journey it took you through.
For all things are for purpose as we expand and grow from each experience we set ourselves to encounter..
And your friend will know on that Soul Level your true heart my friend..
Love and Healing thoughts dear Lorrie..
Sue xxx <3 <3 <3
First, dear Sue, please let me thank you for sharing something so personal and so poignant here on my blog. It is a very meaningful event in your life that has obviously caused great pain, but along with that – great healing. The fact that you share that kind of transformation helps all who read it. It is like a shining beacon that healing is possible for all! And you and I both know that that is TRUTH! The pain is an opening of our heart space that allows us blossom with LOVE!!
You are also correct that this post was written from a very deep place in my heart. It was not planned…it was something that happened that day and I did not rest until I got it out. I am hopeful that my friend found it, but as you stated it does not matter if these actual words were read. We both know our place in each other’s lives and as you said, at the soul level-all is known!!
Much love to you. Thank you for the beautiful energy you share. I am so very grateful for our connection <3 <3
Always my pleasure to be part of that Connection with you Lorrie.. And always sending you Love my friend <3
Love your coloured hearts Lorrie.. xxx Hugs and thank you x
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haha.. 🙂 <3