THE WHOLE OF HUMANITY

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THE WHOLE OF HUMANITY

 

There is a sadness in the air.  Even the birds can sense that humanity is hurting, suffering.

 

I look and I see mourning, and if not mourning I see fear disguised as anger and prejudice.

 

The coming together eases it a bit, but I wish in time the souls who are here at any given moment could look in another’s being and recognize we are not very different at all…

 

We all have a place and a right to live our lives while traveling here together.

 

The ride would be so much nicer if we were surrounded by love and respect.

 

Stand and offer your hand to your fellow being.  Recognize that they have pain and struggle and they are just trying to get by.

 

Recognize that “your way” is right for you, just as “their way” is right for them.  Neither right…neither wrong…just different.

 

If we could honor that the differences we see make up a WHOLE…they fill the missing pieces, and one is not better without the other…rather we are strengthened when we allow and join…

 

Then we create THE WHOLE OF HUMANITY, rather than the HOLE IN HUMANITY!

Peace.

Blessitude

Lorrie ❤

6/19/16 

“TRUSTING EVERYTHING”

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First, I’d like to say that it feels so good to be back amongst the loving energy you all bring here!

It was such a beautiful day yesterday. I wanted to take my little doggie on a beach walk…he loves to run in the waves and he is a very good swimmer.  My partner said, “No way!  It’s the weekend and the beach will be full of dogs.”

I was disappointed (so was he) but reluctantly agreed, mainly because even though he is the friendliest little guy other dogs love to bite him!

As soon as we walked out of the path onto the beach, two pit bulls were running wildly towards us, and everybody and their brother was there…with a giant dog!

We made our way south, navigating surf, ledges, and huge dogs.  One beautiful, well-behaved yellow lab decided we would be friends as he rubbed himself on our legs.  He never took his eyes off his Momma as she took his waste bag up to the garbage can (one of the few who cleaned up after their dog!)

A few minutes later I saw a woman with three giant German Shepards.   Only one dog was on a leash.  One was standing guard while the other was retrieving a ball.  Immediately, my preservation instincts warned me that there was danger ahead.  I even said, “This is not good.”

Amazingly, we kept walking.  Our friend, the yellow lab, nudged us again as he walked on ahead of us.  In a matter of seconds the dog who had been chasing the ball turned and charged our friend!

It was swift…it was ballistic…and it was frightening!!  Our poor friend didn’t stand a chance, and the owner was too busy trying to keep the other two dogs from joining in.

I started screaming, “NOOOOO!” at the top of my lungs…it’s supposed to work if you are being attacked by a bear.  Suddenly our friend’s Momma flew into the middle of the dogs…everything happened so fast.  I started to run in after her (not sure what I was thinking…actually I wasn’t “thinking.”)  Thankfully, the dogs stopped!

There were so many things that were disturbing about the whole event. Take your pick: the nicest dog being mauled, the woman having three dogs she couldn’t handle…off leashes, her cavalier attitude after the event and protesting that yellow was not hurt, his Momma running into the melee, my instinct to run in!

Perhaps the most disturbing thing is that I sensed a very clear and present danger, and I walked into it anyway.  And that made me think about life.  And it made me think about how I was involved in something with people who I never thought would hurt me.  And they did…

So my brain inescapably goes to the fact that, “You just never know.”  And while my first instinct is to not trust anything…I talk myself into “TRUSTING EVERYTHING!” And believing that every single event that takes place in our lives, is exactly as it should be.  It is up to us how we handle the pain and disappointment.

Poor Yellow did, in fact, get hurt.  He was limping off his left front leg.  I also got hurt…and I am nursing a broken heart. 

Deep in my broken heart I am TRUSTING EVERYTHING… and I know we will both be fine.

Blessitude

Lorrie ❤

5/23/16

 

 

 

Winds of Change

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It is hard to put into words, and I reason with myself…is it necessary to try to remember it so that I can document it?  Isn’t it enough that it was my reality and I had to hold on to the idea of light just to make it through?

I suspended life…I disconnected from my soul.  It was almost like I had to protect the most beautiful part of me from the ugliness and the sheer terror of the place I was thrust in to.  Was I wrong to try to protect myself by leaving?  Did I lose the life force because I voluntarily set it aside in the hope that I could step back into my skin and carry on business as usual?

It’s been days since the terror ended…and I am changed.  The fear that exists inside is the same one I have always had.  I am alone…at a time when I needed to be the full expression of the power of my soul, I sought to separate and go it alone.  I reverted to a life that had been ingrained in my DNA for eons…out of what…?  Habit?

And now I am left in the aftermath with broken pieces.  I lift them up from the ground and it sifts through my fingertips like the sand on the beach that I love.  I know they all belong to me, but I am having trouble putting them back where they belong.  And then I am frozen with fear as I wonder whether all the pieces are, in fact, there!  What if I lost something along the way…what if, in trying to protect my splintered world, I lost a piece – a most valuable piece of me – and I can never be the same?

For now I gather the grains and I hold them tight and I pat myself down to keep the parts that are there – intact.  I look out from eyes that are changed and the winds of time whisper the question, “Have you learned nothing at all?”

And a tear slides down my cheek and drops to the ground and the sound that reverberates is deafening.

Blessitude

Lorrie ❤

3/7/16

Hello my friends!  I have missed you all so much!  I was riding so high and then I was knocked off my horse and it is taking time for me to dust myself off…and get back on.

I could feel the winds of change blowing but I had no idea the extent to which they would blow.  I had a drama that brought up many old icky patterns and before I could sort that out I got the flu for the first time in over 20 years!  And it hurt!  The fever must have been terribly high as I was thrust into dreams/hallucinations that were both terrifying and frightening.  I used to wonder why they said the flu could kill the very young and the very old.  That was because my only other bout with it had been mild.  Now I understand and, though I don’t fit in either of those categories, I feel very fortunate that it didn’t kill me.

I have been so disconnected and I have not had the desire to do…ANYTHING!  I don’t feel like me and quite frankly, it is very scary.  It is a huge step for me to even post this.  But deep in my heart I know that it is the connection that I need.  Bless you dear souls…I am sorry I have missed what is going on in your worlds.  I will be over soon to catch up.

Lorrie ❤

Photo: Silk painting “The party” by Jan Janas

Into the Eye of the Storm

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Tossed about from side to side

Listing 15 degrees

The waves of pain smash over my beaten bow

And my heart cries out for Mercy

Into the storm

Into the night

Darkness surrounds

No matter the time

Visibility is hampered by chaotic winds of change

Venture into the dark

for at the center is

The Eye

The all knowing

Eye of the Storm

If you are able to reach it

You will experience the most incredible peace

The magnified lack of turbulence

Made stronger by the destructive force that was before it

Into the Eye of the Storm

Where clarity exists

And there is safety in the passage

Where what was obscured

Is suddenly clear

And you can see right to the bottom of the earth

Blessitude

Lorrie ❤

10/16/15

I stood with my feet in the Atlantic Ocean this morning, looking out to the horizon and my thoughts were with the 33 souls who were aboard the “El Faro.”  She was a 790 Foot freight/cargo ship that left Jacksonville, Florida on 9/29/15 and headed to Puerto Rico.

Hurricane Joachim was a very strong category 4.  The El Faro was on a heading that took her directly into the path of this violent hurricane.  The huge ship lost propulsion and radio contact ceased.  When the coast guard was able to start looking, it found a human soul in a survival suit, a torn and battered life boat, and other debris.  The ship is thought to have sunk in over 15,000 feet of water.

I can’t stop thinking about why a ship with modern technology would make a course to head directly into a hurricane. I thought maybe they were trying to get to the eye of the storm because they would be safe there.

It made me think of the time I stayed at home on my barrier island in south Florida for Hurricane Wilma, against the advisement that I am in a “mandatory” evacuation zone.  The eye of the storm passed directly over us, and it was the most incredible feeling in the world!

The fear and anger of the storm suddenly abated and it became the most beautiful summer day.  It was so quiet and still.  The air was clear and the brilliant blue sky had nary a cloud and never looked more blue.  I felt so safe and so in tune with nature.  What was raging and angry and frightening just moments before became the silent peace that we seek in our connection to the universe.

I’m not likely to ever stay home for a hurricane again.  As beautiful and peaceful as the eye of the storm was, the backend of Hurricane Wilma was absolutely terrifying.  I can’t imagine the horror of being on a ship without propulsion, and being tossed around by the angry sea.

Mother Nature has a power, the likes of which are hard to comprehend.  And yet in the middle of that power there is the most serene peace I have ever experienced.  The same power and peace exist inside each and every one of us.

I wish for you all to know there is a place inside you where, no matter how chaotic or turbulent the storm that surrounds you, you can go to and experience peace, serenity and love…The Eye of the Storm!

I send loving, healing energy to all those who are grieving for their lost ones, and a prayer of peace to the souls who were lost.

Blessitude ❤

photo credit:  https://upload.wikimedia.org

Standing Naked ~ And It Feels Good!

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I was asked if this was a seminal moment.  Asked if I was truly over it, once and for all.  And I felt a tug at my heart.  Am I really ready to be done with the hurt?  Is my constant companion, my partner in pain, the legacy that I have built over all these years REALLY ready to be buried…?

For what will I be without this pain?

What would my life look like?

What would it feel like?

Has it become a security blanket, an excuse for not facing reality?  For running in the lane of all that HAPPENS to me versus all that I have created?  All that I have allowed to be?

There is a feeling of nakedness…of standing in the middle with nothing to hide behind…

Is my pain my cloak that has provided me a safe, albeit painful existence in this journey of a thousand miles?

What if I am truly able to bury the pain of feeling excluded in the family I was born into?  What if I realize that I was born into that family to learn the lesson that there is no such thing as exclusion.  It is made up by me and my mind.  The pain I have created is what causes the distance and every step I take back keeps the pain further ensconced in my mind, in my heart, in my cells memory.

Am I truly done?  Can I have a sweet burial of this illusion, of this pain?  Can I see that standing naked in the middle, with no false protection not only allows the illusion of pain to melt and drip to puddles on the ground, but opens my heart, opens my soul to the wondrous beauty of the love from creation?

The light enters my heart and it expands out until my naked soul is exposed and my being is caressed by the most authentic love.  A love so brilliant it heals all the wounds and it leaves a beautiful energy behind and changes the cells perception of pain into love.

Yes, dear Hariod, I AM!

Blessitude

Lorrie ❤

8/28/15

Meditation Dream ~ 8/21/15

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Old habits die hard.  Or so I’ve been told.  I shrugged and tried to let it roll off my back…pain bubbles that can’t penetrate…

But it was more of the same. The same kind of hurt…the same kind of duck maneuver, and I thought of Albert Einstein and I knew it was insanity.

Time to move on.  Once and for all.  Octopus…invading my mind tells a story.  ‘Detach a limb at will to distract a predator,’  hmmmm….

A meditation bath…a limb removed and buried…cleansing…clearing…

And the resulting poem paints its own picture:

Pain.

It’s always the same

Hard as I try to change it

It remains

Excluded.

like before

doesn’t matter how I crave it

I’m still ignored

Time.

for a change

I can’t keep repeating the same things

I’ll go insane

Coffin.

lowered to the ground

bury the limb that holds it all

never to be found

Cry.

I can barely breathe

each shovel of dirt may as well

be placed on top of me

Sad.

to see them go

I bade farewell and bless them all

viewed as friend and foe

Thank.

them for their role

the molten lava poured on my heart

did not deter my soul

Rain.

begins to fall

sprinkles the softened earth with life

beginning to heed the call

Sun.

begins to shine

flowers bloom a songbird sings

step in to what is mine

Power.

In the form of knowing

takes me by the hand

it’s always showing

Love.

from deep within

send it out to everyone

it’s a beautiful place to begin

Trust.

that it will come back

as long as you give you will receive

and never experience lack

Peace.

from all your woes

feel it from the top of your head

to the very tip of your toes

Hope.

for all mankind

that you know the strength you’re made of

and that you’ll always find

You.

direct the show

I wish you love and kindness

and that you’ll always know

that its all

up to you

have presence of mind

and come from love

in everything you do!

Blessitude

Lorrie ❤

8/23/15