CONSEQUENCES ~ Choices

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It is a choice

There is no other way that you can state it

Calling it a choice

Implies fault and condemnation

For it truly is in your hands

Whether you stay and take the hit

Or if you keep yourself so far out of the inner circle of abusive energy

That there would be no way for it to touch you

I know deep in my heart

That the only thing that exists for me in these “pseudo” relationships

Is fear, pain, and then guilt and shame

So one has to stop and wonder why

I would allow myself to be in this cycle of dysfunction

And the only possible answer is

That I crave what these relationships

COULD BE

What they are

SUPPOSED TO BE

What I

WANT THEM TO BE

And so I banish any notion that things could never change

And I believe that because I have changed

That there is the possibility that they have too

And every damn time I go in

Like a puppy dog wagging my tail

And I get kicked!

And every time

I nurse my wounds

and say,

“I’m never going back in there!”

And then I always do!

I hope this time is different…

Blessitude!

Lorrie ❤

11/23/16

POSTS IN THE SERIES

(Links will become active after each writing is posted)

1). Consequences ~ The Fishing Expedition

2). Consequences ~ The Fallout

3). Consequences ~ The Bottom Line

4). Consequences ~ The Continuum of Light

5). Consequences ~ I Am Not Completely Unscathed

6). Consequences ~ Choices

7). Consequences ~ THANKSGIVING

CONSEQUENCES ~ The Continuum of Light

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If indeed there is a piece of softness that I can find

A piece of softness that can foster movement of my thoughts

To a place inside my soul

Where perfect love resides

It would be that I honor the rights of all people

To be

And think

And act

The way they need to

Just because what they do appears to affect me and the way I think and act and feel

Doesn’t negate their rights as an individual in this world

I can only control my little piece of real estate in the cosmic Universe

And if I find it too difficult to control my thoughts, feelings, and actions

Then all I need to do is to stay away from those

That I could NEVER come to a place of compromise

Because the way we think

And the things we believe

And the actions we take

Are at complete opposite ends

Of the Continuum of Light

Blessitude!

Lorrie ❤

11/18/16

POSTS IN THE SERIES

(Links will become active after each writing is posted)

1). Consequences ~ The Fishing Expedition

2). Consequences ~ The Fallout

3). Consequences ~ The Bottom Line

4). Consequences ~ The Continuum of Light

5). Consequences ~ I Am Not Completely Unscathed

6). Consequences ~ Choices

7). Consequences ~ THANKSGIVING

Perfection

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“Thus we end this Course with love given and love received in truth.  You are the learner here until you realize that you are love.  You then become the teacher of what you are.  Your mind and heart join in the wholeheartedness in the embrace.  You are home, and there you will stay forever.”  ~ A Course of Love   32.2

I Am not perfect

No…No

Far from it

The life I led is full of guilt and shame

I Am not perfect

No…No

Far from it

Looking to the world to place the blame

I Am not perfect

No…No

Far from it

Hid my gifts so well I couldn’t see

I Am not perfect

No…No

Far from it

Had no idea what lived inside of me

I Am the student

Hmmm…Hmmm

I’m learning

My heart is open and I know its pain

I Am the student

Hmmm…Hmmm

I’m learning

What is lost makes room for all I gain

I Am the teacher

Ah Ha!

I said it

All I need is right in front of me

I Am the teacher

Ah Ha!

I said it

Honoring the love inside is key

I Am perfection

Yes…Yes

I own it

The things I do make sense inside each place

I Am perfection

Yes…Yes

I own it

I walk in love and always feel His grace

I Am so thankful

Oh…how

I feel it

If I ever have the urge to roam

I Am so thankful

Oh…how

I feel it

I know that I will never leave my home!

Blessitude!

Lorrie ❤

10/30/16

Blessings on this beautiful Sunday morning!  May you walk in your truth surrounded by light and love ❤

Providence…and Hurricane Matthew

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I’ve felt this fear before.

It’s hard to tell if it is the fear of the people,

or the voice of my soul forewarning of impending disaster.

The force of the storm grows in intensity

and the level of fear rises right along with it.

Cars stacked along the highway waiting for pumps…

that no longer pump.

No fuel for those who waited,

no bottled water to be found for miles.

Hard to prepare when

everybody prepares at once.

I know better now how to handle my energy

so I stay calm and plan to weather the storm

holed up in my little condo,

knowing the sounds

and the windows breathing…

in and out…

will wear down my patience

to the point that I just can’t take

one minute longer!

But before that can happen

Matthew jogs west

and the order for

a mandatory evacuation

is issued.

But where can we go?

Fear rises in my throat

and I immediately question

my decision to stay calm for so long!

Did my newfound sense of peace and love

leave me stranded and completely

unprepared

in the face of

a Cat 4 Hurricane?

PROVIDENCE

Hello my friends.  It’s hard for me to write this as I watch the news and see how Haiti was obliterated by Hurricane Matthew.  He is moving up the coast and destroying all he comes in contact with.  I don’t know how these things are decided, a little jog to the east or west and some are spared…and some are not!

I have many feeling to deal with.  We waited so long to evacuate, it was almost too late.  You stay glued to the television watching a monster of a storm slowly get closer.  You look outside and it seems surreal because “The calm before the storm” doesn’t give you any indication of the fury that is about to be unleashed.

I am full of BLESSITUDE.  My family and friends all survived with minimal damage.  The storm took a little turn to the east which kept the eye wall from making landfall on us.  So many others were not as blessed and it makes me cry, huge tears from my heart.  It hurts so much I don’t know where to place these feelings.

Friday was a fog.  My body moved as I put my home back together.  When you evacuate and you look at what to pack you get a better sense of what is important to you.  The rest you leave behind and your mind works overtime as you try to secure them in ways that they might be protected, all the while trying to ignore the thought that a Cat 4 making a direct hit this close to the ocean I love, could mean there would be NOTHING LEFT!

I gently returned each belonging to its proper place as tears full of prayers dropped for those who did not have the same outcome.

Blessitude!

Lorrie ❤

10/09/16

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My Sea, My Passion!

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I look out to sea and the smells of the fine mist stimulate that place in my heart where truth is seen.

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This sea I love, full of raw emotion, stokes the fires of the sleeping embers in my soul.

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I need this place.  It reminds me of my passion.  I feel it in my DNA.  I feel it deep inside every cell that makes up my body.

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Her mood changes, just like mine.  One moment smooth, calm, a glass-like structure.

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Other times she unleashes the burning energy with incredible force!

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Her passion on display, she knows where she is going…and she is connected to all of life!

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I wish you all the blessings of hearing your passion ❤ ❤

Blessitude

Lorrie ❤

1/25/16

 

 

Native Winds

This is utterly beautiful Brad!! I can feel your magnificent energy move through this poem as it moved through me. I send this out to my readers and know that they will feel this peace also. <3. Thank you, Brad!

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Native Windspoetry, Native American, wind

the six directions

east, south, west, north, sky and earth

blowing through my heart

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Image from Robin G on Pinterest.

Native American teachings resonate deeply with me, especially their reverence for life. May we listen with our hearts and celebrate all life.

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621. Color is a power which directly influences the soul. ~Wassily Kandinsky

My dear friend Natalie puts beautiful thoughts and words together with incredible photographs of stunning flowers! This post spoke to my heart and I felt the need to share!! Enjoy ❤

Sacred Touches

In the house of words was a table of colors.
They offered themselves in great fountains,
and each poet took the color he needed:
lemon yellow or sun yellow
ocean blue or smoke blue,
crimson red, blood red, or wine red.
~Eduardo Galeano

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There is not one blade of grass,
there is no color in this world
that is not intended to make us rejoice.
~John Calvin

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Joy is the sweet voice, joy the luminous cloud–
We in ourselves rejoice!
And thence flows all that charms our ear or sight
all melodies the echoes of that voice,
all colours a suffusion from that light.
~Samuel Taylor Coleridge

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In nature, light creates the color.
In the picture, color creates the light.
~Hans Hoffman

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Color! Ah, the fabulous, mystic realm of color! Just look at these flowers I photographed in my greenhouse yesterday! What a sacred voice is the song of their…

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