I Think My Head Might EXPLODE!

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CONGESTED

C-L-O-G-G-E-D

 BLOCKED

It can’t move

it is all stuck

the energy that once was flowing from an open heart

has become

STAGNANT

S-l-u-d-g-e-l-i-k-e

I can’t breathe

It hurts

my mind is confused and my body is tired

I try to remember what it felt like to thrive in love

to let the light of God flow through my veins

but my head feels like it is going to

***EXPLODE***

the pressure cooker

I need to release

my head has tripled in size

I know the answer comes from my heart

what is there?

what is missing?

what is going on?

I’ve been working so hard

and I’m tired

I know that my body is trying to show me something

for there is always an emotional reason

for any physical illness

I know my energy has been impacted

my mood not so…

ME

And then a light bulb goes off

and I wonder whose energy is this?

I ponder whether it is possible that I have allowed

another’s energy to invade my walls

allowed another’s energy to inflate a balloon in my head

to the point where it feels it might

E-X-P-L-O-D-E

and then I decide

YES

it’s very possible

and I get back down to the business of

Loving Me

of taking care of my needs

because I am no help to anyone

WITH AN EXPLODED HEAD!

Blessitude

Lorrie

10/4/14

 

* photo courtesy of free google images

 

58 thoughts on “I Think My Head Might EXPLODE!

  1. Oh, Lorrie, so many of us have been in this situation. I found myself nodding my “non-exploding” head in union with your words here. Even in the difficult things, it is so nice to see another experience the same, to have a friend in the moment. I wish you well.

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    1. Thank you Kim!! ❤ Yes, I agree with you wholeheartedly!! I think life is full of ebbs and flows…sometimes it just takes something physical for me to notice what I have to do!! Much love to you!!

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  2. I love the picture Lorrie. It reminds me of happy explosions. I totally relate as you describe how I live far too often. XD As I was reading this, I was reminded of Matt Kahn who teaches to love whatever arises in our experience. This practice has helped me when I remember to use it. I’m glad you found your way back to self care and love. Sending you big hugs, smiles and blessings. Love, Brad

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    1. Thank you so much Brad!! I really appreciate your support…you are a very good friend! I will beat this…I have a pounding sinus infection which makes me come from the giant head, instead of from my loving heart. I don’t want to take antibiotics…but I may have to. I tried to see a Dr. yesterday (which says a lot as I try to avoid them) and the nearest appointment I could get is Wednesday! So I am trying all home remedies…but most important I am using my heart. I beat a lot worse than this using that medicine!!! ❤ ❤ Hope you have a super sweet weekend!!

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  3. Lorrie dear, I think we all feel like this some times, don’t worry, I don’t think you have lost sight of your self-Love 🙂 I think, sometimes, when we are in the middle of our spiritual awakening we tend to forget that we are aslo human, that our human part is just as big as our soul-part, at least for as long as we are on earth, and the human part has emotions, needs, anger, sadness etc. We need to take care of that part also 🙂 Maybe you can ask little Lorrie what she needs? That is what I do in this situation, I ask little Trini what she needs to feel good again, and most of the time she has quite a clear voice, and either I can manage to give it to her myself, or I have to ask someone else. Most of the time she just needs comfort 🙂 And many times she needs comfort from someone else, like another human 🙂 We are social beings after all 🙂 I feel that perhaps this is a good opportunity for you to get to know yourself even better, and maybe you could dare to ask someone to come and take little bit care of you ? 🙂 Wouldn’t that be lovely 🙂 ❤ I wish I was super-rich, then I would come running right away!! 🙂 🙂 ❤

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    1. Thank you dear sweet Trini!!! Your words are very comforting…it is like you walked through the door and your love lingers!! I will get better…I think I just need to recharge and rethink what my goals are. I believe I go to fear immediately when I have a physical ailment now. You see, for many many years I did not deal with my emotional hurts…and that caused many physical ailments…some of which were so severe they almost killed me! So through all of my healing I am learning to deal with the emotions I feel…but see…and we have talked about this before….I don’t think this energy is mine. I have got to learn how to protect myself from other’s energy. Anyway…my head hurts really bad…and when my head hurts it is hard for me to think clearly. :)But instead of going to fear (which is an ingrained habit I’m afraid…even my words speak fear) I need to stay in love!! Thank you dear friend!! The first step to anything is to recognize….and I have this recognition…so I will be fine. Much love to you dear one ❤ ❤

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      1. 🙂 I know you will be okay 🙂 And if you need someone to remind you of how wonderful you are, or just someone to let out all those negative emotions to, I am right here 🙂 Just an email away 🙂 I dont think negative emotions are someothing bad or dark, just some very vaulable lessons about ourselves 🙂 And once we learn them we become even more beautiful! :-)You take care of the emotions and let a doctor take care of the pysical 🙂 I know you will be fine 🙂 ❤

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        1. Thank you Trini!! Your beautiful spirit is like medicine to me! I will be fine…I know it. And I am grateful for anything…and everything…along the way that brings me closer to truth. Thank you for your love!! ❤ ❤

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  4. “…but my head feels like it is going to explode the pressure cooker”… ah Lorrie, I wish you felt better and relieved very soon! I’m so sorry to read you have “a pounding sinus infection” (your reply to Brad’s comment). I’m sure eucalyptus could help you. When I was sick I used an inhalation bath. Aromatherapy is very useful:
    http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Aromatherapy
    Of course, you must also see a doctor as soon as possible.
    Take care my dear friend! Try to rest.
    Much love to you :-)♥♥♥♥

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    1. Hi my dearest!! Thank you so much…I can feel your love and care coming through your words!! I just remembered today that I have eucalyptus oil and I have been using it this morning with a little relief. Thanks for the link Fre’de’ric! I will look it up. I think I must have had this for a while…and ignored minor symptoms. Now they have become large symptoms so I can’t ignore. I will continue with my holistic treatments, and I will probably keep my appointment on Wednesday. And until then I will examine my fears and try to understand what is really bothering me. I thought that I had conquered my propensity to manifest emotional imbalance as physical ailments…but I see that I require more work!! And if I don’t make any sense at all…I blame it on my “cement head!” Thanks for listening to me ramble on 🙂 I will be better soon…no worries!!

      I hope you have a super awesome weekend, Fre’de’ric Georges!! Much love ❤ ❤ ❤

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  5. Lorrie, this happens to all of us.. You understand that it is only us who can release the pressure and change our ways of being.. Once we alter our minds, learning to let go… we then begin to heal.. 🙂 You have an amazing blog.. I will be back to read more of your wisdom.. 🙂
    Blessings Sue..
    xxxx

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    1. Hi Sue…Thank you! I so appreciate your comments. You are so correct…I know that I slipped a little and for me…I wear my transgressions in a very physical way. I am back on track…With a little more knowledge. ..and I broke down and went to a medical place and got a few prescriptions because I waited so long I need a little help clearing it put. Thank you for your support and your very kind words 🙂 ❤

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  6. So it’s like, well, kinda means that you’re maybe almost out of words to like write? NEVER! Not Lorrie! Come on, girl. Get yourself going, you can think of somethin’…

    TTL

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    1. Hahaha!! Never!! The infection may have caused the words to be a little suspect…but they are still there…just waiting! 🙂 I had a bit of a laugh when I thought that I actually wrote a post titled that my head might EXPLODE!!! I owe you an email…but I’m going to wait till the meds kick in a little 🙂 ❤

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      1. Yes you do owe me an email, lady! Now don’t let the “head games” get to you…the meds will help!

        I’ll be out of here in a few minutes, but back for Monday and I’ll be looking for that “mail” from you…

        Have u super rest of the weekend, Lorrie…feel better!

        TTL 🙂

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  7. Ohhhhh nooooooo. Not the dreadful cold. I hope you get better soon Lorrie. Lots of rest and fluids. And don’t be afraid to say no to others so that you can give your all for them once you get better. I made my husband a concoction of onion, garlic, lime juice and honey once. All you do is take a whole onion, a couple cloves of garlic, the juice from one lime (or lemon) and process (like in a magic bullet or blender). Take 2 Tbsp every hour. It’s horrid stuff, but he was much better then next day.
    Big smiles, my friend and lots of hugs.
    🙂 ❤

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    1. Oh Staci…Thank you so much for your well wishes…and for your delectable treat 😉 HaHa! It does sound like it might taste good on pasta!! I did go to a walk in medical place and started some meds last night…and I do feel better this morning 🙂 Thank you for your care…I so appreciate you 🙂 Hope your weekend is wonderful! ! 🙂 ❤

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  8. Bonjour Miss Lorrie! saddned to read you suffer and you’re in pain… 😦 the verb “to explode” dominates this post, hummm… try to take care of your HEALTH, our most precious treasure… btw, we are all made of biodegradable matter… 🙂
    * * *
    “what is missing? what is going on?…” – I guess you’re the ONLY one to answer these (rhetorical) questions…
    * * *
    everything is relative(temporary), so I do hope and wish you’ll feel better asap… meanwhile: my very best, stay healthy and optimistic, babe! 🙂

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    1. Hi Me’lanie! !! Thank you so so much!! I appreciate that you care and that you express it to me. You are correct. ..I am the only one who can do the work on “me!” I am eternally grateful that what I need to work on is made available to me…and if I have to suffer a little…then so be it! Maybe one day I will evolve to the point that I won’t need physical pain to show me the way! And your pointing out “to explode” is duly noted!!

      Much love to you…I hope your weekend was filled with love and adventure! ! ❤ ❤

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  9. Lorrie, So sorry you are feeling poorly. Its a good thing when we recognize our mind body connection! Please don’t add negative thinking to your pain!
    It may be energetic, or psychosomatic or a painful sinus infection. No matter what, it is painful and is real. I find half a sinutab along with using menthol and eucalyptus will bring relief until I get to the doctor. My sinuses are my weak spot in my body and will flare us when there is something amiss in my emotional life as well as change of seasons and barometric pressure!
    May you feel better soon my friend.
    Sending you healing positive energy to counteract any negative energy around you right now!
    Val xoxo

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    1. Thanks dear Val! I have to laugh a little at my post…I can handle a lot of pain…in many different places. But pain in my head is my Achilles heel…I tend to become a bit of a whiner!! I am not completely sure yet what is going on…I’m sure there is an emotional component…with me there usually is. I am thankful for the nudge to get back on track. And thanks for the reminder to stop the negative thinking and talk. 🙂 Thanks again, Val ❤

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  10. That’s not good condition, and it has to be treated for sure since infections from sinuses are able to spread out, that’s why they need to be stopped right there. Not sure whether your sinuses require antibiotics (you know you have to take antibiotics when you feel like hammer hits in the front of the forehead, really strong pain if you look down or tilt head towards the chest or make eye movements). We always need to strengthen the immune system in such cases, and the herbal medicine which is really good for this condition is echinacea. There are even special formulations for cold and/or sinuses. Available as tinctures, herbal tea helps in milder cases. Feel good soon and hopefully your head will stop giving you hard times!

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    1. Hi Inese…thank you so much for the information. Yes…I started antibiotics and it seems the pain has gotten worse…maybe it is a get worse before it gets better kind of thing…? I have an appointment with an ENT on Wednesday…which I believe I will keep even if I start to feel better. I will look into the tincture of Echinacea. I believe in using natural “medicines” as I really do not like prescription drugs…but I know there are times when you have to use them (like now!) I really appreciate your caring and commenting here! I am positive I will feel much better very soon. I hope all is super in your world, Inese!! ❤ ❤

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  11. Dear Lorrie: A perfect post for me. How often I feel like this. My head “exploding” worrying about everyone else instead of my own peace. So hard for me to let go of others, especially family who seem to need my care or insight nearly on a daily basis. My husband often tugs at me to get me ‘away,’ and indeed we soon are taking a bit of a vacation. Surely, it will be good for my soul, to reconnect with my inner-self together with the Lord around me. Thank you, Lorrie.

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    1. Oh, Kim! Yes! I cherish your words because there are so many times that I am so busy tending to others that I end up not taking care of me! I’m not sure if that is what happened here…I still need to reflect on this a little. I say bravo to your husband…listen to him…he sounds like a smart man!!! (if you tell him I said that he will probably love it!!) I know you have had a lot going on lately too…so my best advice is to make sure you nurture your own soul…and then you will be good to go to help everyone else!!! ❤ ❤

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      1. So right you are, Lorrie! We are do to leave for a vacation this Saturday, and already I’m feeling ‘guilty.’ My husband would be kissing you on the cheek right now to read your words. He’ll be dragging me out of the house one way or another. 🙂

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