A Relapse of Lyme Disease ~ A Pep Talk From an Angel

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The light of healing surrounds my aching body

An Angel whispers to me on soft breezes

as the touch of love caresses my face

“There is no pain in God’s World.

Remember who you are and where you came from.

Live from the center of your soul

and listen as your body tells you secrets.

You are safe and you are loved.

You are part of the Divine Whole

and your essence here serves a great purpose.

Learn.

Learn all you can.

Keep your heart wide open

and accept all the gifts,

even when they don’t appear to be

the gifts you would like.

Do not make judgments.

Know that every single event in your life,

from what you consider the mundane

to the truly tragic,

is orchestrated with your highest good in mind.

Walk through the darkness,

and ease the pain with your mind.

Believe in the power that lives inside.

Know that you have the ability to do,

to create,

to become,

whatever you truly set your mind to.

You have created everything.

Once you understand this,

you will stand in your power,

and your creations will no longer reflect

a broken, separated, being,

but will reflect

the true light

of God’s Love.”

Blessitude

Lorrie ❤

2/26/17

Ya gotta love Angels!!

Is it any wonder I can handle this relapse as well as I am when you read this Pep Talk from an Angel?  I honestly believe this, coupled with the help you have all given to me, is the reason that I am as grounded, and loving to myself through this very painful time.  So a big whopping THANK YOU is in order!!! 

I know prayer works.  I also know that our prayers are not always answered the way we would like, or heck, for that matter they may not be answered at all…But that reminds me of a song by Garth Brooks…”Sometimes I Thank God, For Unanswered Prayers.”

We think we know best, but that’s just not always true.  We think we can fight something and always be the victor.  I am learning that life can, and will, throw us curveballs.  The true lesson is that I have the power and the control, and perhaps it’s the ONLY control I do have, to the way I respond.  And my new mantra is, “Respond thoughtfully, never react.”

Thank you all for sharing this journey with me.  I am Blessitude ❤  And to all of you who are walking through your own dark nights, I send you beautiful while healing light tinged with the colors of the rainbow to put a smile on your face.  YOU CAN DO ANYTHING!!!

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I had to include the ‘original’ photograph I used and manipulated for all the photos in the series (except this final one of the Angels over the ocean.)  It was in a flower arrangement at Disney’s Yacht & Beach Club Resort.  I have to say this ‘flower’ creeped me out!!  I had just started the medicine and the bacteria were going crazy in my body, and when I looked at this creepy flower it reminded me of this icky disease.  I never met a flower I didn’t like…I won’t say I don’t like this one but it’s hairy!! 🙂  I’m not positive, but I think it might be “Leucospermum.”

This is the final post in the series:  A Relapse of Lyme Disease

The other posts in the series are in order and can be accessed by clicking on the title that is highlighted in red.  Thank you so much for visiting ❤

  1. And I Thought I Was Done With That!
  2. I Already Fought This War
  3. Like a Ton of Bricks
  4. I Was Positive It Would Never Return
  5. You Can’t Control Everything
  6. Failure
  7. The List
  8. The Treatment
  9. I’m in The Happiest Place on Earth
  10. She Asked Me What It Feels Like
  11. Game On!
  12. A Pep Talk From An Angel

 

Meditation Dream ~ 8/21/15

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Old habits die hard.  Or so I’ve been told.  I shrugged and tried to let it roll off my back…pain bubbles that can’t penetrate…

But it was more of the same. The same kind of hurt…the same kind of duck maneuver, and I thought of Albert Einstein and I knew it was insanity.

Time to move on.  Once and for all.  Octopus…invading my mind tells a story.  ‘Detach a limb at will to distract a predator,’  hmmmm….

A meditation bath…a limb removed and buried…cleansing…clearing…

And the resulting poem paints its own picture:

Pain.

It’s always the same

Hard as I try to change it

It remains

Excluded.

like before

doesn’t matter how I crave it

I’m still ignored

Time.

for a change

I can’t keep repeating the same things

I’ll go insane

Coffin.

lowered to the ground

bury the limb that holds it all

never to be found

Cry.

I can barely breathe

each shovel of dirt may as well

be placed on top of me

Sad.

to see them go

I bade farewell and bless them all

viewed as friend and foe

Thank.

them for their role

the molten lava poured on my heart

did not deter my soul

Rain.

begins to fall

sprinkles the softened earth with life

beginning to heed the call

Sun.

begins to shine

flowers bloom a songbird sings

step in to what is mine

Power.

In the form of knowing

takes me by the hand

it’s always showing

Love.

from deep within

send it out to everyone

it’s a beautiful place to begin

Trust.

that it will come back

as long as you give you will receive

and never experience lack

Peace.

from all your woes

feel it from the top of your head

to the very tip of your toes

Hope.

for all mankind

that you know the strength you’re made of

and that you’ll always find

You.

direct the show

I wish you love and kindness

and that you’ll always know

that its all

up to you

have presence of mind

and come from love

in everything you do!

Blessitude

Lorrie ❤

8/23/15

On My Way to Oz

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As I walk along this road

I am reminded of Dorothy

and how she met her perfect companions

on her way to the

Wonderful Land of Oz

.

I think of the people

and the circumstances that appear in my life

and there is a comfort in knowing

that they all arrive exactly when they are supposed to

and they all carry a message that is

unwrapped as a gift

unraveled as a mystery

unknown as an entity

.

I walk and I gather the knowing

the things that determine the steps that I take

I walk and I pick up things and inspect them

to see if they will be useful along the way

I walk and I strategically lighten my load

by placing things that are no longer needed

no longer necessary parts of my journey

just so

on the side of the road

with the hope

that the person who needs the trinket most

will see it sparkle and pick it up

.

I meet strangers I have known my whole life

I meet blood relatives I don’t know at all

I commune with animals in nature

and they all reveal little parts of me

like a kaleidoscope that is turned

and the pieces meet and marry

and reveal a beautiful whole

.

Yes, this walk that seems haphazard

is choreographed perfectly

I meet my companions just so

and I experience events in Divine timing

On my way to

The Wonderful Land of Oz!

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Blessitude

Lorrie ❤

8/12/15

*Photos were taken of a wonderful scrapbook paper product by:  Paper House Productions.com

 

Fleeting Moments of Truth

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All that is here in this moment

Shapes my world into all that won’t be here tomorrow

It was never here, actually

It is only fleeting moments of truth

Bound to timeless Angel wings

Ether in the mist

Rise up from the valley of hope

Into the depths of the deepest ocean of compassion

I am here now

In this moment

And

I AM

Love

Blessitude

Lorrie ❤

4/15/15

Photo credit:  My girlfriend M

Connected in Silence

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I’m not sure I have ever

heard that kind of silence before

I stood and I looked over

God’s creations

And I felt love

the purest kind of love

And the sounds

of

NOTHING

entered my ears

And it reached into my soul

And it pulled on strings

that were attached to my heart

And I knew

EVERYTHING

Every wonder

Every person

Every thought

Every hope

Every dream

I felt creation move in my soul

And I knew

we all come from one

And I felt connected

at the base of my very being

And I felt

LOVE

Blessitude

Lorrie ❤

3/1/15

Sometimes, we don’t know what we are missing until we don’t hear it!  I am beginning to understand the importance of silence in my life right now. A deafening silence spoke to my heart on a recent trip to Arizona.  It seemed so loud…if that is possible.  I am exploring with this silence.  It seems when I turn down the noise from the outside world, my insides…my heart…my soul…are easier to hear.

I wish you all much love and many blessings on this beautiful Sunday morning.  ~Blessitude

This Pain

 

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“You are and will always be much more than your pain.”

~ Dennis Ference

A dear friend (Dennis Ference…click here to see the poem he wrote for me) said this to me and I knew immediately that I would need to think about theses words.

For I have lived many…

        many years

feeling this pain

knowing this pain

remembering this pain

        even during the times that I thought

                I had forgotten this pain

 

If something has been true for a lifetime…

        does that mean that it is truth?

Have I defined myself by my pain?

Does my pain somehow make me special?

 

Or does my pain reflect the child who wished upon a star

Who begged the animals who were her only friends

Who acted out wishing someone would notice

Someone would swoop in and save her

Save the others

But no one did

No…

No one saved her

 

In fact there were those who could sense the despair

        And they took advantage

        And they betrayed her

        And they hurt her

and caused more pain

NO.

I see the pain I have worn like a comfy old coat.

It is nice and worn in…

        a trusted friend

Something I can count on…

Something I expect…

Something that feels…

   Safe

How strange.

NO.

Yes, Dennis, you are correct…

I am more than my pain

And I don’t need to hide behind it any longer

I shed the cloak…

     Release the harness…

          Drop the worn pieces in a bucket.

YES.

And I choose love.

The love that exists in the realm of the divine…

The love that exists in my soul.

     Thank you dear Dennis…

          I am more than my pain

               And I am so blessed and full of gratitude…

                    Blessitude!

Lorrie ❤

2/27/15