I Have a Question…

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Do you ever find that when you are “in the zone” spiritually, riding so high that you are connected to EVERYTHING and the love from your soul is shining, that you are suddenly attacked verbally for no good reason?

I know that my actions and reactions are the only thing I can control, but I have a really hard time controlling this.

This seems to contradict all I have learned about energy!

I am trying not to beat myself up for allowing my energy to go DOWN to match the attack, and trying not to be angry at the person who didn’t stop until I did.

I still have a lot to learn.

 

Hope that your energy is flying high and filled with LOVE!

Blessitude

Lorrie ❤

5/21/17

 

CONSEQUENCES ~ Choices

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It is a choice

There is no other way that you can state it

Calling it a choice

Implies fault and condemnation

For it truly is in your hands

Whether you stay and take the hit

Or if you keep yourself so far out of the inner circle of abusive energy

That there would be no way for it to touch you

I know deep in my heart

That the only thing that exists for me in these “pseudo” relationships

Is fear, pain, and then guilt and shame

So one has to stop and wonder why

I would allow myself to be in this cycle of dysfunction

And the only possible answer is

That I crave what these relationships

COULD BE

What they are

SUPPOSED TO BE

What I

WANT THEM TO BE

And so I banish any notion that things could never change

And I believe that because I have changed

That there is the possibility that they have too

And every damn time I go in

Like a puppy dog wagging my tail

And I get kicked!

And every time

I nurse my wounds

and say,

“I’m never going back in there!”

And then I always do!

I hope this time is different…

Blessitude!

Lorrie ❤

11/23/16

POSTS IN THE SERIES

(Links will become active after each writing is posted)

1). Consequences ~ The Fishing Expedition

2). Consequences ~ The Fallout

3). Consequences ~ The Bottom Line

4). Consequences ~ The Continuum of Light

5). Consequences ~ I Am Not Completely Unscathed

6). Consequences ~ Choices

7). Consequences ~ THANKSGIVING

CONSEQUENCES ~ I Am Not Completely Unscathed

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I am not completely unscathed

Try as I may to protect my heart

The pounding insults start to leave their mark

Is this a test to see how well I am doing?

Bring back to back assaults from the original abusers to see how I would fare?

And what exactly is it

That doesn’t allow me to just cut the ties

To just walk away

And not turn back

What is their hold on me that doesn’t let me not turn into it again?

I don’t have the answers in this moment

But I do know

That I didn’t cower in a corner

For either one of them!

I lost my cool with the first

But that made me better able to deal with the second

A tag team of abuse

It is not fun

There’s a distant smell of fear

No.  I’m not completely unscathed

But I’m not a victim either!

Blessitude!

Lorrie ❤

11/20/16

POSTS IN THE SERIES

(Links will become active after each writing is posted)

1). Consequences ~ The Fishing Expedition

2). Consequences ~ The Fallout

3). Consequences ~ The Bottom Line

4). Consequences ~ The Continuum of Light

5). Consequences ~ I Am Not Completely Unscathed

6). Consequences ~ Choices

7). Consequences ~ THANKSGIVING

“It Was Time For That To End”

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He said.

She said.

They said.

Everybody scrambles to put together their memories of how it all went down.

Did I remember it all correctly?

If you listen to the other version you wonder if you both shared the same time and space at all!

And then there is a voice of reason.

“It sounds like it was time for that to end.”

Period.

Not an exclamation.

Just a statement.

A statement of truth.

And as my mind tends to wander back into history to sort things out,

to gain clarity,

to understand…

The only thing that requires understanding is…

“It Was Time For That To End.”

Blessitude!

Lorrie ❤

10/24/16

Attached By Hope

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For you are my brother,

my sister,

my friend

And we walk through this life

attached by hope

That we shall recognize a radiating life force

that was created by ONE!

We hold this power

in the palm of hands that long to grasp it,

but we gently release a grip of death

so that we can find the truth of the power,

the power of Creation,

extended to all,

through all,

inside us all!

I reach out my hand to touch you

I reach out my mind to connect to your beauty

and the colors of love wash through my being

And I know…

I know the Glory of Spirit

that courses through veins,

connected

Powered by Love…

Held together by Faith

that we vibrate

in the energy of Creation…

Together…

We Are One!

Blessitude

Lorrie ❤

12/7/15

 

Meditation Dream ~ 8/21/15

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Old habits die hard.  Or so I’ve been told.  I shrugged and tried to let it roll off my back…pain bubbles that can’t penetrate…

But it was more of the same. The same kind of hurt…the same kind of duck maneuver, and I thought of Albert Einstein and I knew it was insanity.

Time to move on.  Once and for all.  Octopus…invading my mind tells a story.  ‘Detach a limb at will to distract a predator,’  hmmmm….

A meditation bath…a limb removed and buried…cleansing…clearing…

And the resulting poem paints its own picture:

Pain.

It’s always the same

Hard as I try to change it

It remains

Excluded.

like before

doesn’t matter how I crave it

I’m still ignored

Time.

for a change

I can’t keep repeating the same things

I’ll go insane

Coffin.

lowered to the ground

bury the limb that holds it all

never to be found

Cry.

I can barely breathe

each shovel of dirt may as well

be placed on top of me

Sad.

to see them go

I bade farewell and bless them all

viewed as friend and foe

Thank.

them for their role

the molten lava poured on my heart

did not deter my soul

Rain.

begins to fall

sprinkles the softened earth with life

beginning to heed the call

Sun.

begins to shine

flowers bloom a songbird sings

step in to what is mine

Power.

In the form of knowing

takes me by the hand

it’s always showing

Love.

from deep within

send it out to everyone

it’s a beautiful place to begin

Trust.

that it will come back

as long as you give you will receive

and never experience lack

Peace.

from all your woes

feel it from the top of your head

to the very tip of your toes

Hope.

for all mankind

that you know the strength you’re made of

and that you’ll always find

You.

direct the show

I wish you love and kindness

and that you’ll always know

that its all

up to you

have presence of mind

and come from love

in everything you do!

Blessitude

Lorrie ❤

8/23/15

EXQUISITE ~ Word Challenge from Brad

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The time you spend in my heart

Sends shivers down my spine

Your exquisite beauty

Sends love through my pores

And I am grateful for this

The connection of love

And I wish to become a

A worker of light

A worker of beauty

To continue to send this energy out to the world

My mind becomes clear

My heart beats stronger

I walk through life on sturdy legs

Connected to the beauty of love

The most exquisite love

The most exquisite feeling

I am honored to pay this forward

I shall not disappoint

 

95 words

Blessitude

Lorrie ❤

7/3/15

 

My very dear friend, Brad, from writing to freedom invited me to play along in this word challenge.  Somehow, it took me over a week to see his post!!  His word gave me inspiration and I set my timer for 5 minutes.  My word was ‘exquisite’ and the above is what came out, unedited, uncut.  Thanks Brad!  Nothing moves me more than words flying from my pen 🙂

I am supposed to invite (it doesn’t say how many) others to join in the fun.  This is the part of challenges and awards that I find I don’t like very much.  So I am going to be a rule breaker…I send this word challenge out to every single person who reads this post…Yes…YOU!  If it speaks to your heart…TAG, YOU’RE IT!!! ❤

 

Here are the rules:

1) Open an MS word document (or any other editor).
2) Set a timer for 5-10 minutes.
3) Your word is at the bottom of this post.  DO NOT SCROLL DOWN TO SEE IT UNTIL YOU ARE READY WITH A TIMER.
4) Fill the word document with as many words as you want, once you start writing, don’t stop.
5) DO NOT go back and correcting spellings and grammar with spell check (this is only meant for you to reflect on your control over sensible thought flow).
6) You may or may not pay attention to punctuation and capitals.
7) At the end of your post write down the number of words.
8) Do not forget to copy and paste the entire passage to your blog post with a new word for your invitees.

 

YOUR WORD IS:

RELEASE