There’s the truth
It was sitting there the whole time
I chose to ignore it
I chose not to see it
Not to hear it
Not to feel it
Not to deal with it
THERE’S THE TRUTH! BAM!!
Standing in its nakedness
Nowhere to hide
Sometimes it is hard to pull back the layer of disguises we use
To ease our thinking mind
To assuage our conscience
To ignore our responsibility
And to stay deep in the energies of the EGO
Which makes all things about US!
There’s the Truth
BAM! IT’S NOT ABOUT ME!!
Do you ever find yourself so wrapped up in something, so involved with a situation that you lose all ability to be objective and only view it from your point of view and how it affects you? No problems were ever solved in this energy, that’s for sure.
I have been involved in a situation that has been an enormous struggle. And each day I seemed to go lower and lower into the selfish view of how the events affected ME!
I signed up voluntarily to do this job. And, I had a very specific view of how it would (read~should!) be. When things didn’t look the way I wanted them to look, each day became more stressful and I fantasized about bailing and I watched as I became the self-centered, ego driven part of myself that I had hoped was no longer available.
Fear obscurred the untainted, unconditional love from my soul, and I realized that my original motivation for taking this on WAS NOT FOR ME! It, therefore, IS NOT ABOUT ME!
And when I wrapped my head around the idea that my heart was already holding in a giant bear hug, all of the negative energy drained out of my body. I felt like I could breathe again. All of my muscles and my jaw, which felt like they were in a perpetual state of tetanus…rock hard…ready to fight (or take flight) unrelenting engagement, let go. And I felt like a normal person with a “sensible body,” and I felt LOVE.
I felt love for myself, I felt love for her, and I felt love for the original motivation which was to honor the end of her life.
I clearly see now what my job is, and while I anticipate there will be difficulty, I will do the right thing, and all the while I will remember…
IT IS NOT ABOUT ME!