Only to Love

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As I walk so freely on my path

I know in my heart

That I am guided by love

The faith I feel as each obstacle is unveiled

Surpasses the fear of the multiple unknowns

I look inside through different eyes

And there is a kaleidoscope of colors

That grow in their hue

And depth of meaning

What once was used to hurt

Now only shows in shadows

Weeds to be plucked

Origin to be noticed

I am growing my love

From the inside out

And the light that surrounds my being

Has an essence that I felt before

And I remember

When my soul

Was tethered

Only to love

Blessitude!

Lorrie ❤

05/07/17

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God’s Perfect Grace

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God’s Perfect Grace

Some of life’s best decisions

happen in an instant

that is stretched to eternity.

That moment when time slows

and swirls around your head,

distorting all,

and yet your thinking

never had such clarity!

In real time

you don’t skip a beat,

but in this disfigured warp-time

you sense all,

see all,

know all,

that ever was,

that ever is,

or ever will be.

And your soul knows the answer,

because IT IS THE ONLY ANSWER!

And any arguments to the contrary,

just fall to the wayside,

fall out of this other worldly,

time depressed,

image warped place.

And in that instant you know,

where you want to be,

where you were meant to go,

and how you are supposed to get there.

Yes, in that moment,

that is stretched to eternity,

the truth of your soul speaks

in the language of your mind.

And your heart,

your soul,

your body,

and your purpose,

are aligned to

God’s Perfect Grace.

Blessitude!

Lorrie ❤

3/29/17

I included the photograph of a man-o-war I found on the beach which I used to create the photo above.  What strange little creatures they are!!  The colors are so beautiful…we refer to them as ‘blue poppers’ because if you inadvertently step on one it makes a popping sound.  But be aware, if you inadvertently step on one you also run the risk of being stung!  Some days these fellas are everywhere!

Sweet blessings, my friends!  I know I am not blogging as consistently as I would like, but I will be over to visit as I am able.  You are all in my thoughts and I send light and love ❤

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A Relapse of Lyme Disease ~I Already Fought This War!

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I Can’t Admit It.

I have red flags popping up everywhere I turn.

And I just Can’t Admit It!

No.

I already fought this war

AND I WON!

I won, I tell you.

Do you not hear my words?

Can you not hear me cry in despair?

I already fought this war.

I already felt this pain.

I already lived in a vessel that feels foreign…

feels like it belongs to someone else.

And yet, it feels suspiciously familiar.

Not the kind of nice familiar

like arriving home after a long trip,

but the kind that creeps up on you

and touches nerves

and leaves a scent

that reminds you of a time

that you would never want to go back to

not in a million years

not ever…

Because I already fought this war.

Blessitude

Lorrie ❤

2/2/17

Thank you beautiful souls!!  I feel so overwhelmed with love and compassion by the incredible support you all freely extended.

This series depicts the journey through acceptance of the relapse.  I just want you to know that I have accepted it and I am working diligently on healing ❤

The links below are listed in order.  Thanks for taking the ride 🙂  Lorrie

THE LINKS WILL BE ACTIVE AFTER EACH POST IS PUBLISHED.  ACTIVE LINKS WILL APPEAR IN RED.
  1. And I Thought I Was Done With That!
  2. I Already Fought This War
  3. Like a Ton of Bricks
  4. I Was Positive It Would Never Return
  5. You Can’t Control Everything
  6. Failure
  7. The List
  8. The Treatment
  9. I’m in The Happiest Place on Earth
  10. She Asked Me What It Feels Like
  11. Game On!
  12. A Pep Talk From An Angel

CONSEQUENCES ~ I Am Not Completely Unscathed

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I am not completely unscathed

Try as I may to protect my heart

The pounding insults start to leave their mark

Is this a test to see how well I am doing?

Bring back to back assaults from the original abusers to see how I would fare?

And what exactly is it

That doesn’t allow me to just cut the ties

To just walk away

And not turn back

What is their hold on me that doesn’t let me not turn into it again?

I don’t have the answers in this moment

But I do know

That I didn’t cower in a corner

For either one of them!

I lost my cool with the first

But that made me better able to deal with the second

A tag team of abuse

It is not fun

There’s a distant smell of fear

No.  I’m not completely unscathed

But I’m not a victim either!

Blessitude!

Lorrie ❤

11/20/16

POSTS IN THE SERIES

(Links will become active after each writing is posted)

1). Consequences ~ The Fishing Expedition

2). Consequences ~ The Fallout

3). Consequences ~ The Bottom Line

4). Consequences ~ The Continuum of Light

5). Consequences ~ I Am Not Completely Unscathed

6). Consequences ~ Choices

7). Consequences ~ THANKSGIVING

CONSEQUENCES ~ The Fallout

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The dust settles

Unmoving over mountains of hurt

And the sun did indeed rise as you knew it would

The war has ended, not with a peaceful solution, but the incessant battering has abated long enough for you to catch your breath and realize that the pain in your body has lodged itself because you allowed anger and fear to take up residence again

It edges out the love and the old feelings of anger and impatience have been creeping up on you

Yes.  Old habits are hard to break completely

There are ties that stay

Possibly a tiny string

But that energy mends quickly and suddenly there it is…the blood which gives it life is flowing freely and you wake up when the screaming you hear is coming from you

And you behaved exactly as he taught you to behave

And shame starts to shine from the depths of the bottomless hole where your soul used to be

Your son tries to console you and says, “But…that’s the person he made you.”

And I respond with, “But it’s not the person I MADE ME!”

And then Joel Osteen said, “You were listening to the wrong Father!”

And I said, “YES!”

Blessitude!

Lorrie ❤

11/14/16

POSTS IN THE SERIES

(Links will become active after each writing is posted)

1). Consequences ~ The Fishing Expedition

2). Consequences ~ The Fallout

3). Consequences ~ The Bottom Line

4). Consequences ~ The Continuum of Light

5). Consequences ~ I Am Not Completely Unscathed

6). Consequences ~ Choices

7). Consequences ~ THANKSGIVING

“It Was Time For That To End”

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He said.

She said.

They said.

Everybody scrambles to put together their memories of how it all went down.

Did I remember it all correctly?

If you listen to the other version you wonder if you both shared the same time and space at all!

And then there is a voice of reason.

“It sounds like it was time for that to end.”

Period.

Not an exclamation.

Just a statement.

A statement of truth.

And as my mind tends to wander back into history to sort things out,

to gain clarity,

to understand…

The only thing that requires understanding is…

“It Was Time For That To End.”

Blessitude!

Lorrie ❤

10/24/16

MY FIVE (5) NEW YEAR’S CONCENTRATIONS!

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In two days’ time we get a fresh new year, a chance to wipe the slate clean, a chance to make changes. It is a time of renewal, a time to shake off what does not work, a time to step into new possibilities.

I decided many years ago to not make RESOLUTIONS. I decided instead to let the year prior run through my head, and to pick areas of concentration about things I would like to be different.

There are so many things to choose from! I have narrowed the field and the following are my “TOP FIVE NEW YEAR’S CONCENTRATIONS!”

I will be more AM AWARE.  I want to “be” in every moment and honor that time for what it is not what it could have or should have been.

I will BANISH JUDGMENT.  I will view things just as they are without labeling events as good or bad.  My new mantra is: It just “is!”

I will LISTEN to the voice of my soul.  I will allow that voice to be heard over all the other sounds and feelings that run interference to what is truth.

I will SURRENDER my false need to control and allow the beautiful flow of life to peacefully caress my soul.

I will continue my journey learning how to LOVE MYSELF.  I want to feel for myself the way God/Spirit feels for me.

In the face of so much change on our planet earth and with so much chaos erupting around us, I truly believe that we balance that energy with the love, compassion, kindness and empathy we extend to the world.

I thank you, my brothers and sisters, and I stand united in love with each and every one of you. Believe we make a difference because I know we do!

I wish you all every good thought for a NEW YEAR, a 2016 filled with LOVE, PEACE, AND PROSPERITY.

I AM BLESSITUDE!

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HAPPY NEW YEAR!!

Blessitude

Lorrie ❤

12/30/15