A Misguided Perception

A misguided perception that pain would protect her… that sickness made her off limits to the ones who would hurt her try to control her use her for their purposes and then leave her like a rag doll in the back of the closet alone in the dark hiding from predators It became ingrained it […]

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I’ve Got a New Look and a New Attitude!

Life is a series of ups and downs.Β  I’ve come to realize that it doesn’t really matter to which side the pendulum swings, as long as we stay aware of our energy and continue to walk forward in our purpose. I have recently experienced a barrage of events that were so painful I was at […]

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A Relapse of Lyme Disease ~ She Asked Me What it Feels Like

Blood that hurts and a mind that floats off into 71 directions at the same time with an inability to find even the simplest of words. Watching from a distance afraid to get too close for fear of a backlash of anger self driven drug motivated dead bacteria invading every cell a mind that notices […]

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A Relapse of Lyme Disease ~ Failure

The miles rack up. Plenty of time to think. To analyze. To try to lay blame. To punish myself. To promise to do better. Plenty of time to feel embarrassment and not want to tell anyone I have had a relapse And that I just wasn’t good enough to beat this disease. A failure. I […]

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A Relapse of Lyme Disease ~ You Can’t Control Everything

You can’t control everything… CAN YOU? I certainly tried through all these years. And what I eventually found was that I control NOTHING! Well, nothing but what I decide to think. So in essence, I can do exactly what I did last time… and we all know that insanity So I wouldn’t expect a different […]

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A Relapse of Lyme Disease ~ Like a Ton of Bricks

And the truth smacks me in the face… and the hip… and the elbow… and the foot… and the wrist… BUT THE HEART? Like a ton of bricks dropped on my chest all the pieces to the puzzle fell into place The AHA! moment… the Saturday morning that I said the words aloud, “I think […]

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CONSEQUENCES ~ Choices

It is a choice There is no other way that you can state it Calling it a choice Implies fault and condemnation For it truly is in your hands Whether you stay and take the hit Or if you keep yourself so far out of the inner circle of abusive energy That there would be […]

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CONSEQUENCES ~ The Bottom Line

What is at the bottom of these feelings When the layers are pulled back what is it that exists at the core that is causing so much pain So much anger and animosity The bottom line is I spent forever ignoring this truth – laying the guilt, blame, and shame on every place except for […]

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CONSEQUENCES ~ The Fallout

The dust settles Unmoving over mountains of hurt And the sun did indeed rise as you knew it would The war has ended, not with a peaceful solution, but the incessant battering has abated long enough for you to catch your breath and realize that the pain in your body has lodged itself because you […]

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CONSEQUENCES ~ The Fishing Expedition

This past week has been a very trying time for Americans as we all must come to terms with the results of our Presidential Election. The energy created by this event is volatile and has far-reaching tentacles, I suspect.Β  People come down hard on one side or the other and the chasm that is created […]

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