A Deep Seated Faith and Abiding Love

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  During this time of Thanksgiving, I sit alone and quiet and I think about the things in my life that are topsy-turvy right now. I have tried to figure out a reason for things that have no reason… and I realize that it is time to let go of trying to make sense out […]

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A Misguided Perception

A misguided perception that pain would protect her… that sickness made her off limits to the ones who would hurt her try to control her use her for their purposes and then leave her like a rag doll in the back of the closet alone in the dark hiding from predators It became ingrained it […]

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I’ve Got a New Look and a New Attitude!

Life is a series of ups and downs.  I’ve come to realize that it doesn’t really matter to which side the pendulum swings, as long as we stay aware of our energy and continue to walk forward in our purpose. I have recently experienced a barrage of events that were so painful I was at […]

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A Relapse of Lyme Disease ~ She Asked Me What it Feels Like

Blood that hurts and a mind that floats off into 71 directions at the same time with an inability to find even the simplest of words. Watching from a distance afraid to get too close for fear of a backlash of anger self driven drug motivated dead bacteria invading every cell a mind that notices […]

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A Relapse of Lyme Disease ~ Failure

The miles rack up. Plenty of time to think. To analyze. To try to lay blame. To punish myself. To promise to do better. Plenty of time to feel embarrassment and not want to tell anyone I have had a relapse And that I just wasn’t good enough to beat this disease. A failure. I […]

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A Relapse of Lyme Disease ~ You Can’t Control Everything

You can’t control everything… CAN YOU? I certainly tried through all these years. And what I eventually found was that I control NOTHING! Well, nothing but what I decide to think. So in essence, I can do exactly what I did last time… and we all know that insanity So I wouldn’t expect a different […]

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A Relapse of Lyme Disease ~ Like a Ton of Bricks

And the truth smacks me in the face… and the hip… and the elbow… and the foot… and the wrist… BUT THE HEART? Like a ton of bricks dropped on my chest all the pieces to the puzzle fell into place The AHA! moment… the Saturday morning that I said the words aloud, “I think […]

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