A Relapse of Lyme Disease ~ Failure

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The miles rack up.

Plenty of time to think.

To analyze.

To try to lay blame.

To punish myself.

To promise to do better.

Plenty of time

to feel embarrassment

and not want to tell anyone

I have had a relapse

And that I just wasn’t good enough

to beat this disease.

A failure.

I feel like a complete failure.

What did I do to allow this

opportunistic infection to

invade my body again?

To take over my body again?

Blessitude

Lorrie ❤

2/12/17

I won’t lie.  My first thought was that I would not tell anyone because I was so embarrassed.  I am so grateful that I did not follow that route because I am no longer ashamed and realize there should be no blame.  And I should not beat myself up. 😉  And we are much better off when we are in a place where we can ask for help.  Thank you my friends, for helping ❤

THE LINKS WILL BE ACTIVE AFTER EACH POST IS PUBLISHED.  ACTIVE LINKS WILL APPEAR IN RED.
  1. And I Thought I Was Done With That!
  2. I Already Fought This War
  3. Like a Ton of Bricks
  4. I Was Positive It Would Never Return
  5. You Can’t Control Everything
  6. Failure
  7. The List
  8. The Treatment
  9. I’m in The Happiest Place on Earth
  10. She Asked Me What It Feels Like
  11. Game On!
  12. A Pep Talk From An Angel

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My healing journey on the continuum of "It's all wrong" to "It's all right!" I love art and the creative process, reading, writing, and playing tennis.

46 thoughts on “A Relapse of Lyme Disease ~ Failure

  1. Dear Lorrie, I hope for you that this writing process is therapeutic, I know it can be a great way to push things out that are sometimes hard to let go. I feel blessed that I can share a slice of your experience, in it I find something relateable and something truly elegantly authentic. With you, as I can be, every step of the way, Harlon

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    1. Thank you my dear friend, Harlon 🙂 I have found that sharing here has been incredibly uplifting! I am grateful for the connection and the true compassion that I feel. I know you have gone through so much of your own…I believe that we all prosper when we share our difficulties, as well as our triumphs! Sending you lots of good thoughts and feelings ♡♡

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  2. Hi Lorrie your not a failure and nothing to be ashamed of either for having a relapse. This was due to something which was missed in the last healing. You are more connected than you were last time. Some of your heightened sensory experiences now are what I call normal feeling, seeing, hearing what others cannot it is my soul expand and increasing my perception. I would not have included it as part of an illness but doctors would because they do not understand this part of life. Blessing as always to you.

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    1. Wow!!! You know that is exactly the message I felt from my doctor …that something was missed…and his wheels were turning I could see them! And I think I need to embrace this heightened sensory experience…as you stated. I have the feeling it is important in the times to come!!! Thank you, friend…beautiful blessings to you ♡

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        1. Wow…I didn’t think of it that way. It is difficult sometimes to ‘live’ with. I have been very ‘aware’ in my sleep as well…and I used to sleep like a rock…a bomb could go off and I would have stayed sleeping.
          You seem to understand this…is there anything I should do with this…or anyway to chill sometimes??

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