My mom’s 7th “Angelversary” just passed. It’s never an easy time, but as I continue to live life without her here on earth, it feels familiar. We talk every day, and she continues to send me rainbows.
She still has a sense of humor, and she is full of surprises. This year, I found a gift – one that she apparently sent last year on her Angelversary.
Imagine my surprise when I grabbed a work notebook the other day, and in the middle of it found four pages of writing. “What the heck is this,” I thought as I leafed through the pages. The writing was similar to mine, but way more beautiful (and The Momma had beautiful penmanship.)
I started to read it and it didn’t make sense. When I got to the point where it said, “I look back over 90 years…” I thought, The Momma was 90…and then it hit me…is this letter written by her????
The Momma always worked so hard to give us a beautiful Christmas. I know it wasn’t easy and I always attributed it to my sadness around the holidays. She hid it really well; in fact, I’m certain others didn’t know. But I was hard wired into her emotions, and I knew them just like they were my own.
I don’t know how she did it, but it was always perfect! I remember the time my sister and I were surprised to find wrapped presents in my parents’ bedroom. There was one for her, and one for me. A few carefully peeled pieces of tape and we revealed the surprise we would have had on Christmas morning. Or so we thought. Imagine our surprise when we opened our gifts and they were switched! She just sat there with a smile on her beautiful face and we said NOTHING! What could we say?
She got us good with that one. And she got me good with her four-page letter too. It wasn’t just the fact that she sent it, but that I found it right before Christmas this year (Did I say that the notebook fell on the floor and opened to the letter?) The depth of the message went right to my soul. I offer this personal gift in the hopes that maybe you will receive a message too.
THE MOMMA’S MESSAGE FROM BEYOND
My hand was cold so it felt really good when she walked in the room and gently took hold of it.
It’s been the same day, repeated over and over again. She arrives in the morning, and sits by my side. Never a missed day. I can count on her.
It’s a strange feeling because I was never really able to count on much. I look back over 90 years and I have to wonder – what do I have to show for it?
Maybe it sounds mean, but I tell her, “Look at you. You’ve done nothing with your life. You could have been someone – you should have done something.”
I can feel the pain hit her deep in her chest. I can’t explain it to her in a way that won’t hurt.
It’s like time is everywhere – all at once. The boundaries that used to be there…are gone.
I can’t put words together to say what I want to say, and it’s so important that I get this message to her.
It comes out like I am talking to her, but I’m really talking to myself. I should have done something. I should have been someone.
An old lady. I’m an old lady. I can tell by the wrinkles in my skin and my salt & pepper hair. But I feel like I am 32. Why is it the body ages but the mind tricks us into thinking we are still in our youth?
I see her and I want to tell her so much. But none of it comes out the way I want. It’s like the words start in a straight line and then some how they get put into a dryer and are tossed about. When they come out the order is gone, and they stack up like folded laundry.
I don’t mean to hurt her. I love her. I need her to live a better life than I did. I need her to follow her passion and do all the things she came here to do.
She is so talented. And I don’t think we cultivated that. We didn’t even notice it! We were all so busy just trying to survive. No one took the time to notice what she was up to.
But now, I can see it. I can see how talented she is and how she lights up a room just by walking into it.
Her heart was always good. She wanted to help every person, every animal, from the time she could walk and talk. And walk and talk she did! I think I hurt her again when I told her she was a pain in the ass because she asked so many questions as a child.
I love her. I don’t want to hurt her. I just need her to know that life moves so quickly – and before she knows it she will be an old lady confined to a bed as she awaits her final breath.
And she will have nothing but time, and not a lot of it, but if will feel interminable when she looks over her life and the only thing that looks back is regret.
So, there you have it. A Christmas Gift from The Momma. I hope her words touch you even a quarter of how they touched me.
Sending you all blessings during this holiday season. Whatever you celebrate, do it with love and joy. Follow your dreams and live a life that won’t stare back at you as regret!
Blessitude!
Lorrie <3
12/21/2025
What a beautiful letter and a wonderful surprise! The words touched my heart too. Our mothers will always hold a special place in our hearts. Sending a hug your way!
I was just thinking of you this morning 😊 Look out for an email soon! 💐🙏💖
So, so good to see you, Val!
Yes…our moms! I do miss her, there’s no doubt. But this gift was right what I needed…and when I needed it! A beautiful Christmas Miracle.
I will look forward to seeing your email. And send you all good wishes and hope that you are super wonderful! Well…I know that you are wonderful…I hope that all is wonderful in your world too! <3
Thank you sweet heart ❤️
Oh wow Lorrie, that is truly an incredible message from her. Its depth is amazing, saying so much in just those few lines. That would change ‘you’ in understanding probably many things between you both as life has gone by. I’ve got goosebumps, that is a treasure beyond words. To be touched…now…a gift, truly a very profound gift. My heart is with you Lorrie, celebrating something that I can feel so deeply…but to you…almost a life changing event.
Marry Christmas Lorrie, may the gift of those words from her…now…and after the last few years I’ve known you…be that hug, that praise, that beauty of acceptance of being very loved by a mom who may have struggled with sharing it, now be that beauty of truly opening her heart to you 🤗🎄🎅🎶🎁🕊️🦌☃️❤️🙏
Oh, Mark! Your words touch me deeply and I am grateful for our connection. It is such a gift. I thought to not share it, because it is so very personal, but then I knew that I wanted to share it for oh, so many reasons. Like the way you responded…I can feel your heartfelt words and KNOW that you truly get the deeper meaning of the message.
My mom was an incredible woman. She did not understand the power of thought…she just kept rolling with whatever she thought life threw at her. And it threw much! She walked in grace through it all. Boy, it’s times like this…talking about her…remembering her beauty…that the depth of missing her hits me right in the heart. Towards the end of her life I asked her how she would describe herself. She thought a moment and then said, “I am a sturdy, steady woman.”
Thank you for helping me celebrate this most auspicious gift. I feel a blanket of love covering me.
Sure hope you are well. And wishing you the best holiday season as we also gear up for a new year. And boy did this one go fast!!
All good things, Mark <3
Thank you Lorrie for sharing something that was so powerful, thoughtful, and caring simply because of that depth you speak. It was an amazing gift and the timing was just unbelievable. I think its purpose was indeed that blanket of love kind lady, a touch that nothing else could ever achieve ❤️
Merry Christmas my friend, and thank you for sharing its beauty. May it signal the start of a wonderful New Year. Love and light to you 🤗❤️🙏
Yes, Mark! Here’s to BLANKETS OF LOVE for everyone!! Couldn’t the world use it!
Thanks for understanding just how powerful this moment was for me. And thanks for the love that you spread throughout the world! My life got brighter, and I have more understanding since meeting you <3
Thank you Lorrie. Love is a power all its own. We can step on board or wait a little while, but it will always touch us. Glad it did for you so beautifully 🤗🎄🎅🎶🎁🕊️🦌☃️❤️🙏
I really want to “step on board!” Always!! I want to lead with love, Mark. I want to live in that space where the FIRST thought that comes is all from love. I am a work in progress. And I notice more and more that when the first response is anything but love…it usually has something to do with fear! And I know the more we TRY to push something away…the closer it comes to us. So, I am spending much time being in a space of neutrality…noticing but not judging. I am a beginner 🙂
All good thing, Mark. Sending warm wishes for the holidays. And even though it is hard to believe that a new year is on the horizon…I hope that love is always in the forefront!!
<3
Indeed Lorrie. A Merry Christmas to you and yours, and a Happy New Year kind lady 🤗🥰🤣😂😀😎🦋🎄🎅🎶🎁🕊️🦌☃️❤️🙏
Wow! Goosebumps Lorrie. What a gift, a miracle that you were meant to find, right before Christmas. Isn’t it amazing, miraculous really, how things just happen or appear just as we need them. She obviously wanted you to find this personal heartfelt letter, to let you know what you meant to her. And how life is so incredibly precious and fleeting. Thank you for sharing this with us Lorrie. Let it nurture you and keep you warm in the knowing how much she loved you. Sending you big hugs and warm wishes of joy, peace and happiness during this holiday season my friend. ❤️
Miriam, your beautiful heart shines through your message…and I thank you! I know you get the synchronicities…the way we “find” what we need exactly when we need it. It was astounding really. The note-book fell off my desk and when I bent over to pick it up, the writing was exposed in the middle of the book!
I totally feel the connection with her and I always knew she loved me…well…it was harder to know once the dementia took over. But this feels like her apologizing for the words that were said in that state. Anyway, it was an incredible gift that I will always treasure. And I am so happy to share it with you!
I send you all kinds of love and good energy and wishes for the best holiday season ever!
And wow…another NEW YEAR! Incredible how fast this one passed.
All good things, Miriam <3
Oh my God, Lorrie, your mother‘s words are incredibly spiritual and inspiring!!
What a gift and so beautiful that you’re sharing it with us.
Just in time for the holidays. I’m sending you so much love, my friend. Keep feeling your mother‘s love surrounding you. She’s right there!!
HI Judy! Thank you!! You have traveled a long time on this journey with me, so I know you fully understand just how important this Christmas miracle is! Thanks for reaching out and for all of your encouragement, not just here today, but for all the times you were there with a smile and heartfelt hug!
Sending you the best wishes for a beautiful holiday season, Judy. Sure hope that things are going super for you! Many Sweet Blessings <3
Lorrie, I am sat here with tears… and a huge lump in my throat.. What a beautiful poignant message that you shared… And of course you were meant to read it from beyond… I can only imagine how it touched you…
Is it really that long Lorrie, goodness how time has flown…
Know dear friend I send you lots of love and hugs, as we hold time in our hearts…
Love and well wishes for this Christmas, and for 2026 and beyond my friend…
Love Sue 💖🙏💖
Dear Sue! Thank you so much for your heartfelt message. It touched me so deeply I still have not sat down and really contemplated the whole scenario. Yes, it is hard to believe that it’s been 7 years. And The Momma really does make herself known just about every day. I love the little synchronicities…but this letter…Wow! Just WOW!! The hand-writing was so perfect! (and trust me…mine is somewhat artful…but usually all over the place. This was like a beautiful font was used. I don’t have any recollection of writing it. It was in a notebook that I have used throughout the year but never noticed it. And then it falls…and opens to the handwritten pages!
I hope you are well…busy creating life…creating art! I send you so much love and beautiful wishes for a wonderful Christmas with loved ones. And may this new year be filled with incredible moments…that are noticed!!
<3 <3
Thank you Lorrie, your message from your Mum, is so precious 💖.
And a gift only Spirit could orchestrate.
Pure Magic.. ✨️✨️✨️
Im sure your Mum is often by your side. As you were beside her in life. Especially in those latter years..
Sending lots of love, we may not correspond as often, but we both share heart centred love when we do.
Much-love. Sue 💕 🥰 💕
A beautiful wise message for all of us to honour and remember in ourselves Lorrie! Merry Christmas and many blessings to you, your angel Mum and your family 💚🎄💚🤶🎅🎄
Thanks so much, Karen 🙂 The most amazing part is I really needed to hear this exact message at this time in my life! I am Blessitude!
Sending you wishes for a wonderful Christmas, Karen. All good things, my friend <3
Such a lovely post and a magical healing gift, Lorrie. Wishing you a wonder-filled holiday and new year. 💜
Hello my now distant (I ended up in Ohio – and not happily) beautiful, dear friend. My most heartfelt love sent to you a few months late (I’ve not been on WP at all until now, or near anywhere else online). It was 12 years for me a month before your 7, I just felt your post, both in sorrow and joy.
Much love Lorrie. <3
Kimberly
Hi Kimba! Sending lots of love and support to you friend!
It is a tough time…no doubt! And…OHIO?
<3