Who Am I?

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I have been many things,

held many jobs,

answered many questions,

and asked a million or two.

I have felt many feelings,

and tried not to feel,

made myself numb in ways I care to forget!

But through it all,

every step of the journey,

there has been a constant thread,

one discerning element that defines me…

I am an artist!

There…I said it…

and I mean it.

I am an artist!

I am a creator!!

As I contemplate the full power of this statement, I can feel a blossoming of beauty surge from the core of my being.  The years I spent wondering what I was supposed to be doing, I now realize I have been doing all along.

I have always been happiest when I am making things.  I scoffed at calling myself an artist, thinking that term was reserved for those who specialized in a medium.

I am attending a couple of glass art classes and they ask you introduce yourself in the beginning.  This introduction has been hard for me as my background has been a smorgasbord of artistic expression.

I don’t know if my reluctance to call myself an artist was a self-esteem issue or rather a lack of commitment on my part.  Possibly it was both.  Or maybe there were so many things I tried not to see, not to remember, that I lost my ability to see myself!

Either way, as I lift the veils that shroud my eyes I feel a certain power emanating, flowing, rising to the surface of my world.  I embrace it with open arms and welcome a lost lamb home.

Two very dear friends gave me the gift of their words recently.  One, an incredible artist, said, “You need to know your talent.”  And Dennis, from Merging Traffic, wrote, “Peace, graced artist/storyteller.”

And I said, “Ahhhhh!”  I took her advice and I slipped on his words like a new pair of shoes, dispelling any fear, and understanding there can be humility in the proclamation.  And I do feel “GRACED!’  And to be graced and not honor the gift would be a shame, indeed.

So many of you left me such heart warming comments on my last post where I displayed my first hand cut fused decorative glass plate.  I thank you all, for each and every comment washed over me and gave me understanding, and confidence to be able to say,

I am an Artist

I am a Creator

I am BLESSITUDE!

Lorrie ❤

2/10/16

I Feel the Need to Create!!!

 

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I feel the need to create!

A wave so strong

my every waking moment

recognizes and understands

the capabilities that lie within.

My hands and heart and mind and soul are connected.

Connected in Peace

to the one eternal flame

the very thing that we came from

the thing we all go back to

the thing that we ARE…

The Magnificence of Creation!

And I create…

It seems there are not enough hours in the day to do all the things I want to do!!  I am full of Blessitude that I am alive in this energy, and that I am able to engage my creative spirit.

I have started working in glass as art.  It is exciting and a little scary at the same time.  I am very focused and I have a healthy respect for the dangers of the medium as I turn my fears over to the Love of Creation!

I am showing you my second decorative plate in various stages of completion.  The first plate I made, I used mostly pre-cut glass pieces.  However, “Sunflower Salutation,” is all hand cut by me.  When I say ‘hand cut’ I mean either cut with a hand tool, or the power wet cutting tile saw pictured below.

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I started with a design and then systematically cut each piece of glass and placed them, like a puzzle, on the two 12 inch round base pieces I cut. The bottom round is white, the top one is clear with blue streaks.

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 (I just realized I fibbed a little…I did not cut the little Millefiori glass I used for the center of the flower 😉  )

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Being new to the art form, the project was not without a few problems.  The most obvious is I did not know that the lighter of the yellow glass I used for the petals was a ‘stryker’ glass…that means that the color of the glass changes when fired in the kiln and the resulting color can be very different.  It almost took my breath away when I saw it turned orange!

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This is the plate after fusing in the kiln.  A bubble appeared and I am not sure why.  I should have the answer to that question this week.  Apparently, I have also found of late, sometimes there are no answers as to ‘why’ something happens.

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And that is the plate after ‘slumping’ it into a mold.  I love this process…I love this art form…bubbles and all 😉

Thanks for looking.  Wish you all a week filled with eyes that see beauty!!

Blessitude!

Lorrie ❤

2/7/16