A Misguided Perception

A misguided perception that pain would protect her… that sickness made her off limits to the ones who would hurt her try to control her use her for their purposes and then leave her like a rag doll in the back of the closet alone in the dark hiding from predators It became ingrained it […]

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A Relapse of Lyme Disease ~ She Asked Me What it Feels Like

Blood that hurts and a mind that floats off into 71 directions at the same time with an inability to find even the simplest of words. Watching from a distance afraid to get too close for fear of a backlash of anger self driven drug motivated dead bacteria invading every cell a mind that notices […]

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A Relapse of Lyme Disease ~ I’m in the Happiest Place on Earth

I’m in the “Happiest Place on Earth” and that fake smile is painted on my face.  Yes…look at me… I am HAPPY. Nobody wants to see a scowl at Disney World. Just writing this, holding the pencil in my hand and pressing on the page causes such pain.  But I won’t stop.  I refuse to […]

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A Relapse of Lyme Disease ~ The Treatment

THE TREATMENT That empty space is me contemplating the treatment HOT TOPIC! The treatment can make the symptoms worse than the disease Plus the idea of the treatment… thinking about the effects of long-term ANTIBIOTIC USE can absolutely freak me out If I let even one brain cell contemplate it… SO I DON’T I refuse […]

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CONSEQUENCES ~ I Am Not Completely Unscathed

I am not completely unscathed Try as I may to protect my heart The pounding insults start to leave their mark Is this a test to see how well I am doing? Bring back to back assaults from the original abusers to see how I would fare? And what exactly is it That doesn’t allow […]

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CONSEQUENCES ~ The Fallout

The dust settles Unmoving over mountains of hurt And the sun did indeed rise as you knew it would The war has ended, not with a peaceful solution, but the incessant battering has abated long enough for you to catch your breath and realize that the pain in your body has lodged itself because you […]

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Providence…and Hurricane Matthew

I’ve felt this fear before. It’s hard to tell if it is the fear of the people, or the voice of my soul forewarning of impending disaster. The force of the storm grows in intensity and the level of fear rises right along with it. Cars stacked along the highway waiting for pumps… that no […]

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THE WHOLE OF HUMANITY

    THE WHOLE OF HUMANITY   There is a sadness in the air.  Even the birds can sense that humanity is hurting, suffering.   I look and I see mourning, and if not mourning I see fear disguised as anger and prejudice.   The coming together eases it a bit, but I wish in […]

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“TRUSTING EVERYTHING”

First, I’d like to say that it feels so good to be back amongst the loving energy you all bring here! It was such a beautiful day yesterday. I wanted to take my little doggie on a beach walk…he loves to run in the waves and he is a very good swimmer.  My partner said, […]

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AND THEN LOVE ENTERED! Haiku ~ 1/6/16

Stuck in my own mind Everything came to a halt And then love entered! Nothing happens until something moves. ~ Albert Einstein I have been involved in a struggle for the last two months.  I felt like things were happening “to” me and I have been paralyzed, unable to make a decision as to how […]

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