A tear from my heart
Balanced so delicately
Spoke truth from my soul
How hard you’ve fought to win the war
To be able to just do the basic functions
Had to be like pulling mud through a straw
So many warning signs left ignored
So many aches and pains
That were easily attributed to a chronic illness
What if I had it all wrong?
What if one plays off the other
And a simple solution to this problem,
As in all of life
Is simply to replenish?
The crystal clear truth
Hangs from the petal of love
And quenches your thirst
Yes, of course I know what it means, and I know what it feels like…USUALLY!
Yesterday, I ended up in the ER because I was severely dehydrated. Who could have known that tachycardia (an abnormally rapid heart rate), dyspnea (difficulty breathing), and presyncope (lightheadedness, muscle weakness, and feelings of faint), were all symptoms of severe dehydration? It felt like something was severely wrong with my heart, and that was frightening.
And to be honest, I have felt like there is something wrong with my heart lately…no, not that kind of something. But life circumstances have me teetering off my baseline of love, compassion, and kindness and I find myself leaning towards angst, impatience, and fear.
So a quick (6 hours) trip to the ER, multiple tests, massive quantities of I.V. fluids, and the best nurse in the world (who made me promise to drink another half-gallon of water last night…UGH!) and here I am, I almost feel normal.
But what I’ve learned through the ordeal is that quite possibly I am (as is most of the world) in a chronic state of dehydration. Dealing with a chronic illness makes it easy to pass off whatever ails you as a symptom of the disease. What if it’s not the disease at all, but rather the symptoms of dehydration? (Ok…or what if the dehydration makes the disease symptoms worse?)
The second thing I learned is that when your heart wants to get your attention, it can be a very powerful (and frightening) event.
So I will take better care of my body and make sure it has all the hydration it needs. And I will be more mindful of living in the present moment and to have an attitude of faith no matter what circumstances I find in my life.
A giant thank you and much gratitude to my <3 I promise to listen!
And because I wouldn’t be me if I didn’t try to teach lessons I’ve learned…
DRINK MORE WATER!!!
AND LISTEN TO YOUR HEART!!!