Into the Eye of the Storm

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Tossed about from side to side

Listing 15 degrees

The waves of pain smash over my beaten bow

And my heart cries out for Mercy

Into the storm

Into the night

Darkness surrounds

No matter the time

Visibility is hampered by chaotic winds of change

Venture into the dark

for at the center is

The Eye

The all knowing

Eye of the Storm

If you are able to reach it

You will experience the most incredible peace

The magnified lack of turbulence

Made stronger by the destructive force that was before it

Into the Eye of the Storm

Where clarity exists

And there is safety in the passage

Where what was obscured

Is suddenly clear

And you can see right to the bottom of the earth

Blessitude

Lorrie ❤

10/16/15

I stood with my feet in the Atlantic Ocean this morning, looking out to the horizon and my thoughts were with the 33 souls who were aboard the “El Faro.”  She was a 790 Foot freight/cargo ship that left Jacksonville, Florida on 9/29/15 and headed to Puerto Rico.

Hurricane Joachim was a very strong category 4.  The El Faro was on a heading that took her directly into the path of this violent hurricane.  The huge ship lost propulsion and radio contact ceased.  When the coast guard was able to start looking, it found a human soul in a survival suit, a torn and battered life boat, and other debris.  The ship is thought to have sunk in over 15,000 feet of water.

I can’t stop thinking about why a ship with modern technology would make a course to head directly into a hurricane. I thought maybe they were trying to get to the eye of the storm because they would be safe there.

It made me think of the time I stayed at home on my barrier island in south Florida for Hurricane Wilma, against the advisement that I am in a “mandatory” evacuation zone.  The eye of the storm passed directly over us, and it was the most incredible feeling in the world!

The fear and anger of the storm suddenly abated and it became the most beautiful summer day.  It was so quiet and still.  The air was clear and the brilliant blue sky had nary a cloud and never looked more blue.  I felt so safe and so in tune with nature.  What was raging and angry and frightening just moments before became the silent peace that we seek in our connection to the universe.

I’m not likely to ever stay home for a hurricane again.  As beautiful and peaceful as the eye of the storm was, the backend of Hurricane Wilma was absolutely terrifying.  I can’t imagine the horror of being on a ship without propulsion, and being tossed around by the angry sea.

Mother Nature has a power, the likes of which are hard to comprehend.  And yet in the middle of that power there is the most serene peace I have ever experienced.  The same power and peace exist inside each and every one of us.

I wish for you all to know there is a place inside you where, no matter how chaotic or turbulent the storm that surrounds you, you can go to and experience peace, serenity and love…The Eye of the Storm!

I send loving, healing energy to all those who are grieving for their lost ones, and a prayer of peace to the souls who were lost.

Blessitude ❤

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I Remember…An Odyssey ~ Vindication

This post is a part of a series of writings during a time of deep healing and transformation.  The following are links to the other writings in the series in chronological order:  Introduction & Haiku, The Funny Thing About Truth, The Journey To…, He Said I Have Anger, The Long Sleepless Night, Broken Arrow, Safe, Alone, On The Verge, Shred, The Thread, Vindication, Another Inch…Perhaps a Mile, Emancipation, Forgiveness

*Disclaimer:  Some of this subject matter is sensitive in nature.  Please read and explore in safety.

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It was there all along

Funny how the mind thinks that it can protect you by not allowing the pieces of a puzzle to be seen as a whole

Once connected it almost seems incredulous that one could not see it before

It was all there

For many years

It was not hidden from thought as one might suppose

No

It was hidden from meaning

Events seen separately for years

Each creating their own brand of misery

Were a smokescreen

A haze….fog in my brain

To disconnect truth

To prevent

The thinking mind

The feeling heart

The bleeding soul

From feeling the betrayal

The worst kind of betrayal

Blessitude

Lorrie ❤

4/2/15

I Remember…An Odyssey ~ The Funny Thing About Truth

This post is a part of a series of writings during a time of deep healing and transformation.  The following are links to the other writings in the series in chronological order:  Introduction & Haiku, The Funny Thing About Truth, The Journey to …, He Said I Have Anger, The Long Sleepless Night, Broken Arrow, Safe, Alone, On The Verge, Shred, The Thread, Vindication, Another Inch…Perhaps a Mile, Emancipation, Forgiveness

*Disclaimer…Some of this subject matter is sensitive in nature.  Please read and explore in safety.

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What is at the base of the fear?

Why would it be so terrible to know what kept me locked

in a prison of denial at best

oblivion at worst

I pride myself with knowing truth

Honoring it

So why would I be content to set a portion of it aside

To delegate one truth as more important than another

To send one truth so far away from my wounded psyche

It may as well have belonged to someone else

The funny thing about truth is

I think it only belongs to the person who is willing to

Look at it

Dissect it

Question it

Live it

Honor it

And most important

Accept it!!

Blessitude

Lorrie ❤

3/23/15

If Only…I Would

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If only I could reach through the clouds and touch you

I would wrap my arms around you

And tell you I love you

I would tell you that you are going to be okay

I would tell you that your heart will heal and that you will learn so much more about yourself.  I would tell you that you stretched your heart and that has given it the capacity to grow.  I know it hurts but it will enable you to go just as far in the other direction.  I would tell you that your little reindeer nose is cute, but that it doesn’t suit you. 🙂

If only I could reach across the miles and touch you

I would wrap my arms around you

And tell you I love you

I would tell you that you are going to be okay

I would tell you that God has chosen you – you worker of light – you wonder of love.  And through your struggles you will become stronger.  You will reach new heights and fly through the galaxies of newborn truth and understanding.  I know you are hurting now but you are so strong.

If only I could reach across your mind and touch you

I would wrap my arms around you

And tell you I love you

I would tell you that you are going to be okay

I would tell you that your need to be loved and noticed is already fulfilled from those on the outside and from our heavenly Father.  The only person missing from this list is the one who peers out from behind your eyes.   When that heart softens it’s judgment, the truth will be seen and you can relax and get back to doing good deeds.

If only I could drive 50 miles and touch you

I would wrap my arms around you

And tell you I love you

I would tell you that you are going to be okay

I would offer the meaning of a life that was wracked with struggle and I would soften the heart that feels persecuted.  I would hold your hand and gently walk into the truth…walk towards the light…and watch as your soul reached full understanding and accepted the love it was missing for eons.

Yes, if only I could reach you all

If only I could take away all the pain and put a smile on your faces

If only…

I would

Blessitude

Lorrie

11/17/14