A Relapse of Lyme Disease ~ The Treatment

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THE TREATMENT

That empty space is me contemplating the treatment

HOT TOPIC!

The treatment can make the symptoms worse than the disease

Plus the idea of the treatment…

thinking about the effects of long-term

ANTIBIOTIC USE

can absolutely freak me out

If I let even one brain cell contemplate it…

SO I DON’T

I refuse to think about it

And I just wish I could forget it.

Why can I so easily forget things I want to remember

and yet

when I WANT to forget

this ONE THING…

Just one little thing…

it sits there

in the back of my mind

like a boulder

and even if ten men were to try to move it…

they couldn’t

Yeah…

It sits there…

Just like that

Blessitude

Lorrie ❤

2/19/17

Hello my friends!  I hope this beautiful Sunday finds you all living from your soul!

I am just over a month into treatment, and I won’t lie and say that it has been easy.  But I am constantly aware of how I am THINKING, and for the most part I have been in whatever moment I am in!  And in those moments things can change swiftly.

The FEAR I feel from thinking about the treatment can be overwhelming at times, but the alternative is to allow the bacteria to completely take over my body.  So I think positive thoughts, and I treat myself with love and kindness (a new paradigm I wish I knew about sooner 😉 )

I am BLESSITUDE!  I thank each and every one of you for the love and support that you so freely extend.  May you all live in a place of truth and love ❤

Lorrie

THE LINKS WILL BE ACTIVE AFTER EACH POST IS PUBLISHED.  ACTIVE LINKS WILL APPEAR IN RED.
  1. And I Thought I Was Done With That!
  2. I Already Fought This War
  3. Like a Ton of Bricks
  4. I Was Positive It Would Never Return
  5. You Can’t Control Everything
  6. Failure
  7. The List
  8. The Treatment
  9. I’m in The Happiest Place on Earth
  10. She Asked Me What It Feels Like
  11. Game On!
  12. A Pep Talk From An Angel

EXQUISITE ~ Word Challenge from Brad

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The time you spend in my heart

Sends shivers down my spine

Your exquisite beauty

Sends love through my pores

And I am grateful for this

The connection of love

And I wish to become a

A worker of light

A worker of beauty

To continue to send this energy out to the world

My mind becomes clear

My heart beats stronger

I walk through life on sturdy legs

Connected to the beauty of love

The most exquisite love

The most exquisite feeling

I am honored to pay this forward

I shall not disappoint

 

95 words

Blessitude

Lorrie ❤

7/3/15

 

My very dear friend, Brad, from writing to freedom invited me to play along in this word challenge.  Somehow, it took me over a week to see his post!!  His word gave me inspiration and I set my timer for 5 minutes.  My word was ‘exquisite’ and the above is what came out, unedited, uncut.  Thanks Brad!  Nothing moves me more than words flying from my pen 🙂

I am supposed to invite (it doesn’t say how many) others to join in the fun.  This is the part of challenges and awards that I find I don’t like very much.  So I am going to be a rule breaker…I send this word challenge out to every single person who reads this post…Yes…YOU!  If it speaks to your heart…TAG, YOU’RE IT!!! ❤

 

Here are the rules:

1) Open an MS word document (or any other editor).
2) Set a timer for 5-10 minutes.
3) Your word is at the bottom of this post.  DO NOT SCROLL DOWN TO SEE IT UNTIL YOU ARE READY WITH A TIMER.
4) Fill the word document with as many words as you want, once you start writing, don’t stop.
5) DO NOT go back and correcting spellings and grammar with spell check (this is only meant for you to reflect on your control over sensible thought flow).
6) You may or may not pay attention to punctuation and capitals.
7) At the end of your post write down the number of words.
8) Do not forget to copy and paste the entire passage to your blog post with a new word for your invitees.

 

YOUR WORD IS:

RELEASE

 

Two Hands ~ Limitless Minds

A collaboration with Harlon Davey at http://apatientvoice.com

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If I asked you to believe

Would you take my hand

And hold on tight

And let your mind be free?

 

If I asked you if you were certain

That you would stay with me

While we traveled through our minds and spirits

Would you still feel free?

 

If I asked you to walk to the place that light touches

Where Angel wings flutter

And I held your heart in the essence of Love

Would you be willing to meet your soul?

 

If I said to you

that I’ve been lost so long

Would you still hold on to my hand so I can feel safe

and together we will be found?

 

I will stay with you, and I will hold on to you

While we both let go

Searching forces truth

to slip through the cracks of our minds

 

And we will cross this threshold together 

 
 
Blessitude
Lorrie & Harlon
6/24/15
We had so much fun with this collaboration 🙂  If you have never visited Harlon at his site A Patient Voice, I urge you to do so.  He makes me laugh, he makes me cry, he makes me think!  Intimately familiar with the healthcare system, he is a huge advocate and “Voice” for patients everywhere.  I am grateful for our connection and I think you will be also. ❤
 

I Remember…An Odyssey ~ Emancipation

This post is a part of a series of writings during a time of deep healing and transformation.  The following are links to the other writings in the series in chronological order:  Introduction & Haiku, The Funny Thing About Truth, The Journey To…, He Said I Have Anger, The Long Sleepless Night, Broken Arrow, Safe, Alone, On The Verge, Shred, The Thread, Vindication, Another Inch…Perhaps a Mile, Emancipation, Forgiveness

*Disclaimer:  Some of this subject matter is sensitive in nature.  Please read and explore in safety.

 

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When all the pieces are there and the dust has settled

I am able to separate

FACT from FICTION

DARK from LIGHT

TRUTH from FANTASY

LOVE from FEAR

Yes, I am able to extract the layer of lies

That were told to me

And came from me

And I see the woman who thought it was better to hide

Who felt shame and guilt for something that was not her fault

No…not her fault at all

She was caught up in someone else’s sickness

In a mind that spent many years

KNOWING but not REMEMBERING

LOVING but not fully COMMITTING

ACCEPTING but not fully FORGIVING

I feel that I have connected

I have connected

MEANING to EVENTS

FEELINGS to THOUGHTS

HEART and SOUL to MIND

Like a lightning bolt

It all connected

From the pull

Of a tiny

THREAD

Understanding

And the fear that kept me in the dark for so long has dissipated

Into thin air

The child who couldn’t handle the memories

Doesn’t have to

Because the adult she’s become

Loves her

And will take all of the memories from here

And while I couldn’t be there to protect her THEN

I am here NOW

And I AM strong

And truth dispels fear when surrounded by love

Blessitude

Lorrie

4/4/15

I Remember…An Odyssey ~ Introduction & Haiku

This post is a part of a series of writings during a time of deep healing and transformation.  The following are links to the other writings in the series in chronological order:  Introduction & Haiku, The Funny Thing About Truth, The Journey to …, He Said I Have Anger, The Long Sleepless Night, Broken Arrow, Safe, Alone, On The Verge, Shred, The Thread,  Vindication, Another Inch…Perhaps a Mile, Emancipation, Forgiveness

*Disclaimer:  Some of this subject matter is sensitive in nature.  Please read and explore in safety.

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The poems/writings you are about to read all took place within the last month.  You will see that it was a time of great emotion and transformation.  I could feel it happening and though at times I was wrought with fear, I prayed, and I had hope and faith that I would not only SURVIVE the memories…but I would THRIVE with the memories.

I AM a 53 year old woman.  I AM brave…I can face this.  I AM strong…I can handle it.  I AM safe…no one can hurt me.  I AM ready…to see the truth, to tell my story, and to get on with the business of living my life.

 

A journey to truth

It has taken many years

And I remember

 

I have titled this series, “I Remember…An Odyssey.”  I will post every day until all of the writings have been shown.  The posts will be titled “I Remember…An Odyssey ~ ” with the title of each writing to follow.  I will include links to all prior writings in the series to make it easy to access them chronologically.

I have never done anything like this before, and to be honest it feels a little daunting.  To be able to post every day and not allow life to interfere, as it so often does, I will schedule the whole series in advance.  I usually post what intuitively feels “right” on any given day, so this is the biggest departure from normal and creates the most stress for me

In the spirit of staying true to the truth of this experience, I will only post this series until it is finished.  I will schedule them for the same time each day, and I will try to be available at that time for comments.

I hear all these “what ifs” in my mind and I hear doubt, but I will listen to my soul which directs me to post this.  I thank you all, my friends, for you give me the courage to be able to do this project.  I am so grateful for each and every one of you.  Every time you post YOUR truth you strengthen my heart.  Every time you are vulnerable you strengthen our bond.  And every time we connect we strengthen humanity!  I am so blessed and full of gratitude…Blessitude!!

Lorrie ❤

3/22/15