A Relapse of Lyme Disease ~ Like a Ton of Bricks

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And the truth smacks me in the face…

and the hip…

and the elbow…

and the foot…

and the wrist…

BUT THE HEART?

Like a ton of bricks dropped on my chest

all the pieces to the puzzle fell into place

The AHA! moment…

the Saturday morning that I said the words aloud,

“I think my Lyme Disease is back,”

caused such self-reproach

I could hardly breathe

Blessitude

Lorrie ❤

2/6/17

Oh…that moment when realization sets in and you feel like a complete idiot for not getting there sooner!

I’ve had lots of symptoms over the years, but when it felt like I was having a heart attack I panicked (which probably explains things 😉 )

My spleen was very enlarged as it was working so hard to fight the infection.  I’ve had an enlarged spleen before but never one this large.  It caused many new symptoms, which I guess is a good thing because that is what eventually led to my AHA! moment.

I am being much kinder to myself than when I originally penned this poem.  Thanks again to you beautiful souls, I just know your thoughts and prayers are helping!

THE LINKS WILL BE ACTIVE AFTER EACH POST IS PUBLISHED.  ACTIVE LINKS WILL APPEAR IN RED.
  1. And I Thought I Was Done With That!
  2. I Already Fought This War
  3. Like a Ton of Bricks
  4. I Was Positive It Would Never Return
  5. You Can’t Control Everything
  6. Failure
  7. The List
  8. The Treatment
  9. I’m in The Happiest Place on Earth
  10. She Asked Me What It Feels Like
  11. Game On!
  12. A Pep Talk From An Angel

Perfection

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“Thus we end this Course with love given and love received in truth.  You are the learner here until you realize that you are love.  You then become the teacher of what you are.  Your mind and heart join in the wholeheartedness in the embrace.  You are home, and there you will stay forever.”  ~ A Course of Love   32.2

I Am not perfect

No…No

Far from it

The life I led is full of guilt and shame

I Am not perfect

No…No

Far from it

Looking to the world to place the blame

I Am not perfect

No…No

Far from it

Hid my gifts so well I couldn’t see

I Am not perfect

No…No

Far from it

Had no idea what lived inside of me

I Am the student

Hmmm…Hmmm

I’m learning

My heart is open and I know its pain

I Am the student

Hmmm…Hmmm

I’m learning

What is lost makes room for all I gain

I Am the teacher

Ah Ha!

I said it

All I need is right in front of me

I Am the teacher

Ah Ha!

I said it

Honoring the love inside is key

I Am perfection

Yes…Yes

I own it

The things I do make sense inside each place

I Am perfection

Yes…Yes

I own it

I walk in love and always feel His grace

I Am so thankful

Oh…how

I feel it

If I ever have the urge to roam

I Am so thankful

Oh…how

I feel it

I know that I will never leave my home!

Blessitude!

Lorrie ❤

10/30/16

Blessings on this beautiful Sunday morning!  May you walk in your truth surrounded by light and love ❤

I Remember…An Odyssey ~ The Journey To…

This post is a part of a series of writings during a time of deep healing and transformation.  The following are links to the other writings in the series in chronological order:  Introduction & Haiku, The Funny Thing About Truth, The Journey To…, He Said I Have Anger, The Long Sleepless Night, Broken Arrow, Safe, Alone, On The Verge, Shred, The Thread, Vindication, Another Inch…Perhaps a Mile, Emancipation, Forgiveness

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And sometimes you have to see with your soul

Look beyond what’s in your eyes

Forget what’s in your mind

Rely on the love that comes from The Source

From The Divine

Yes…sometimes you have to trust

Forget about your fears

Turn off the what ifs that plaque your worried mind

And live inside your heart

Believe that life will offer you the keys to unlock the path

…the way

Freedom to explore the gifts that you’ve been given

The lives you’re meant to touch

The souls that you complete

The odyssey that blossoms

The journey to…

          YOU!

Blessitude

Lorrie ❤

3/24/15

 

 

Merry Go Round

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Merry go round

Until we go down

Spinning top

Boring a hole in the ground

Throwing pieces

Pieces that were me

But I’m not sure if they fit anymore

Ripped to the side

The side of reality

The side that was a dream

Or a nightmare

Merry go round

Until we go down

Spinning top

Boring a hole in my heart

Rip away the façade

The shell I used to protect me

But in reality

It only hid me from what’s good

Truth

Shoot me straight up

Catapult

Burst into the stars

Orbit

Flying free

Being me

Serenity

Merry go round

Forever I’m bound

To the truth of my soul

To the beauty of my journey

To the peace in my heart

Free

Eternity

Blessitude

Lorrie

11/14/14

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