AND THEN LOVE ENTERED! Haiku ~ 1/6/16

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Stuck in my own mind

Everything came to a halt

And then love entered!

Nothing happens until something moves. ~ Albert Einstein

I have been involved in a struggle for the last two months.  I felt like things were happening “to” me and I have been paralyzed, unable to make a decision as to how I will handle this situation.

I have not experienced this many times in life.  I usually have strong opinions and a douse of intuition, the perfect recipe to make a decision and stick with it.

I have analyzed EVERYTHING from all directions.  I have said, “what if” and “I don’t know” more times than I can count (or care to remember.)

I would make a decision and then something inside would rumble, like aftershocks from an earthquake, and it didn’t feel right!  So I would not follow through and work hard to come up with a new solution.

I’ve been so confused…I didn’t know if my reticence was based in fear, or if my intuition was speaking so loud that it would be impossible for me to ignore it.

And I judged myself for being wishy washy….ewwww!

Dangerously close to a decision that could not be changed, I put the brakes on one more time yesterday.  I breathed a sigh of relief and I felt so much lighter.

And then love entered.  I felt the embrace of Angels and I knew that the chaos I felt inside was my beautiful self trying to stand up and be heard!  She was trying to prevent the old “self-abusive me” from making a decision that would ultimately hurt me in real and lasting ways.

Now I don’t know if that part of me will ever truly be gone, but I believe that the loving, kind, compassionate part of me is gaining the upper hand, for I would not have heard her in the past.  The struggle I have felt internally over the past two months has been so uncomfortable and it is not something that I wish to repeat…EVER!

So I pray to keep LOVE as the focal point, and I pray that I will know the difference between LOVE and FEAR if ever I feel this again. 

And I pray that the new solution to my problem will be THE CORRECT ONE!

I think the most important thing is to TRUST this new me because I know it is powered by Divine Love!!

Blessitude

Lorrie ❤

1/6/16

photo credit:  my girlfriend M

 

Two Hands ~ Limitless Minds

A collaboration with Harlon Davey at http://apatientvoice.com

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If I asked you to believe

Would you take my hand

And hold on tight

And let your mind be free?

 

If I asked you if you were certain

That you would stay with me

While we traveled through our minds and spirits

Would you still feel free?

 

If I asked you to walk to the place that light touches

Where Angel wings flutter

And I held your heart in the essence of Love

Would you be willing to meet your soul?

 

If I said to you

that I’ve been lost so long

Would you still hold on to my hand so I can feel safe

and together we will be found?

 

I will stay with you, and I will hold on to you

While we both let go

Searching forces truth

to slip through the cracks of our minds

 

And we will cross this threshold together 

 
 
Blessitude
Lorrie & Harlon
6/24/15
We had so much fun with this collaboration 🙂  If you have never visited Harlon at his site A Patient Voice, I urge you to do so.  He makes me laugh, he makes me cry, he makes me think!  Intimately familiar with the healthcare system, he is a huge advocate and “Voice” for patients everywhere.  I am grateful for our connection and I think you will be also. ❤
 

Fleeting Moments of Truth

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All that is here in this moment

Shapes my world into all that won’t be here tomorrow

It was never here, actually

It is only fleeting moments of truth

Bound to timeless Angel wings

Ether in the mist

Rise up from the valley of hope

Into the depths of the deepest ocean of compassion

I am here now

In this moment

And

I AM

Love

Blessitude

Lorrie ❤

4/15/15

Photo credit:  My girlfriend M

I Remember…An Odyssey ~ Broken Arrow

This post is a part of a series of writings during a time of deep healing and transformation.  The following are links to the other writings in the series in chronological order:  Introduction & Haiku, The Funny Thing About Truth, The Journey To…, He Said I Have Anger, The Long Sleepless Night, Broken Arrow, Safe, Alone, On The Verge, Shred, The Thread, Vindication, Another Inch…Perhaps a Mile, Emancipation, Forgiveness

*Disclaimer:  Some of this subject matter is sensitive in nature.  Please read and explore in safety.

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Broken arrow

Frozen dream

Inertia

Walking blindly

Lost my way

Not sure which way I am supposed to go

Once so clear

The arrow pointed

To a life that was full of promise

To a life that honored God

To a life that showcased the best parts of humanity as a whole

Perdition

Wasteland

Swirling in the dark abyss

No light

This is not the dream

This is not the life I imagined

This is not what I agreed to

My frozen dream

The hands of God rest on my spine

Lift me up to heavenly realms

Angel wings borrowed

Placed just so

I think I can fly

My heart is COLD but BEATING

My soul is LOST but MOVING

My dream is SEEN but FROZEN

My mind is WRONG but CHANGING

Feel the ether from a kiss

That is blown through the universe

It melts the ice

And explodes the myths

It propagates truth

Transcends the lighted brilliance

          BANG!!!

An arrow to the heart

Cupid’s playground

Walk amongst the flowers

Fragrance rises

Plays with the senses

Vision restored

Clear focus

Birds sing a song

It’s impossible not to dance to

Light pervades the landscape

And my heart sends out a signal

That connects to the sacred vessel of time

And my arrow is fixed

And my dream is displayed in glory

And my soul rejoices

Blessitude

Lorrie

3/27/15

 

The Angels Swooped In & Haiku 12/28/14

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Drowning in chaos

And then the Angels swoop in

Order is restored

They say that drowning is a peaceful way to die

But I’m not sure that could be true

Because I’ve felt like I was drowning before

And I felt like it recently

And I couldn’t breathe

And the tears slid down my face

And I gasped for air

And I had no idea how I could possibly complete the task before me

It wasn’t that I didn’t believe

Because I did

I read recently to always let your faith be larger than your fear

And I have faith

And I have fear

And I believed that I could do it all

But then there was a deadline

And it required help from someone else

And it looked daunting

And it felt heavy

And I was suffocating

And I wondered if I was in over my head

And then the Angels swooped in

Yes

The Angels swooped in

And they took care of everything

And my load seemed lighter

Like thousands of pounds were lifted off my shoulders

And I could breathe

I wasn’t drowning

I was saved

And I was happy

And I felt loved and protected

And I couldn’t be more grateful

Sometimes…even though the fear starts to grow

Faith prevails…yes faith prevails

Thank you…beautiful swooping Angels!

Blessitude

Lorrie

12/28/14

 

My dear, dear friends!  I have missed you all so much!  Merry Christmas…I hope the holiday found you all in peaceful bliss and surrounded by love.  Life has been a bit hectic, and very emotional.  I am doing the best I can given the circumstances.  And I have truly been helped by Angels!!

The Momma is better.  She will be moving to “Assisted” living within her own community.  It has been a difficult decision, but after much evaluation I believe it to be the best thing for all of us.  But it is sad 😦

I am in the process of going through all of her belongings and downsizing.  There are many items, photographs, memories…some of them good…some of them not.

But this is the week of the New Year…2015…it seems impossible.  Y2K was just a bit ago…right?

A friend asked me last night if I had any New Year resolutions.  I have a few ideas floating around in my head.  Hopefully soon I will get around to the commitment phase 🙂  Who knows…maybe I will share them in a post here.  (That is if I truly pull off this move before the first!!)

Much love to you all.  Thank you for opening up a whole world of beauty to me here.  I value the friendships I have found and I pray that I will be back on a more consistent schedule in 2015!

❤ Lorrie

 

 

 

 

 

Double Helix

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I see a double helix

rising higher and higher

reaching to the sky

riding on Angels wings

the perfect protection

the perfect inspiration

speak to me now

as my heart is so open

I have been plied

with beautiful gifts

and they have opened

my soul

I see you

I feel your beating heart

the heart we share with

all

Everything

is

I want to be a messenger

of truth

I want to bring the ideas

to the light of day

bring them to the forefront

of society’s mind

Fly on

Sweet Angels

I am so grateful

I am so receptive

I AM

LOVE

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Blessitude

Lorrie

Written 8/23/14

 

When Love Walked In

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When love walked in

I felt its presence

I heard its voice

And I wanted to be like it

When love walked in

My heart grew larger

My ego got smaller

And I felt happier than I ever had

When love walked in

I felt fear walk out

The constricting hands released my throat

And I drew a sigh of relief

When love walked in

I embraced it with open arms

I held it with sacred hands

And I offered it up to the Saintliest Angel

Thank you for lifting me higher

Than I’ve ever been lifted

Thank you for the abundance of Spirit

the likes of which I had not known

When love walked in

I got really comfortable living in my own skin

 

Blessitude

Lorrie

8/31/14