I Remember…An Odyssey ~ The Long Sleepless Night

This post is a part of a series of writings during a time of deep healing and transformation.  The following are links to the other writings in the series in chronological order:  Introduction & Haiku, The Funny Thing About Truth, The Journey to…, He Said I Have Anger

*Disclaimer: Some of this subject matter is sensitive in nature.  Please read and explore in safety.

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I ponder what is there in the dark

That prevents my beautiful soul from resting

I wonder what is in my mind that does not allow me to have peaceful sleep

It does not surface and perhaps the idea that there must be something

And my searching for what it is makes me stay awake longer!

So I say a little prayer

Dear Lord

As I lay my head down at the end of the day

May my heart feel free

And ready to express the love that lives inside

May my mind be clear

Because when I examine the day

I know that I hurt none

Helped many

And did the best I could

May I have compassion for all

And withhold judgment in all cases

May the fruits of my labor

Produce all that is good

May I lay my body down to rest

And to repair

And may healing restore my weary bones

Yes, Lord,

May you restore all that is good

All that you have given me

And may my sweet dreams of slumber

Bring a smile to my face.

Blessitude

Lorrie <3

3/26/15

I Remember…An Odyssey ~ He Said I Have Anger

This post is a part of a series of writings during a time of deep healing and transformation.  The following are links to the other writings in the series in chronological order:  Introduction & Haiku, The Funny Thing About Truth, The Journey to…

*Disclaimersome of this subject matter is sensitive in nature.  Please read and explore in safety.

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He said I have anger

But how could that be?

That was before

I took care of all that

I went to the depths

(ok…maybe not ALL of them!)

But I went very deep

And I looked them in the eyes

And I told them I was angry

And they didn’t apologize

NO

They laughed

They made my existence a joke

So I walked away

And I knew what had to be done

I had to forgive them!

FORGIVE THEM?  THEY JUST LAUGHED AT YOU!

Oh…how I despise being laughed at when I am not funny

There…I said it

I despise it!

My body tightens

My fists clench

My thoughts go bad

And I become rigid

And I get angry!

Yes..very angry!

Ah!

He was correct

I am angry

I didn’t fix it all

I didn’t go to the depths of my essence

To the bottom of my soul

There is more work

Yes

Much more work to be done

And I’ve a feeling that forgiveness is indeed involved

Blessitude

Lorrie <3

3/25/15

I Remember…An Odyssey ~ The Journey To…

This post is a part of a series of writings during a time of deep healing and transformation.  The following are links to the other writings in the series in chronological order:  Introduction & Haiku, The Funny Thing About Truth

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And sometimes you have to see with your soul

Look beyond what’s in your eyes

Forget what’s in your mind

Rely on the love that comes from The Source

From The Divine

Yes…sometimes you have to trust

Forget about your fears

Turn off the what ifs that plaque your worried mind

And live inside your heart

Believe that life will offer you the keys to unlock the path

…the way

Freedom to explore the gifts that you’ve been given

The lives you’re meant to touch

The souls that you complete

The odyssey that blossoms

The journey to…

          YOU!

Blessitude

Lorrie <3

3/24/15

 

 

I Remember…An Odyssey ~ The Funny Thing About Truth

This post is a part of a series of writings during a time of deep healing and transformation.  The following are links to the other writings in the series in chronological order:  Introduction & Haiku, The Funny Thing About Truth, The Journey to …

*Disclaimer…Some of this subject matter is sensitive in nature.  Please read and explore in safety.

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What is at the base of the fear?

Why would it be so terrible to know what kept me locked

in a prison of denial at best

oblivion at worst

I pride myself with knowing truth

Honoring it

So why would I be content to set a portion of it aside

To delegate one truth as more important than another

To send one truth so far away from my wounded psyche

It may as well have belonged to someone else

The funny thing about truth is

I think it only belongs to the person who is willing to

Look at it

Dissect it

Question it

Live it

Honor it

And most important

Accept it!!

Blessitude

Lorrie <3

3/23/15

I Remember…An Odyssey ~ Introduction & Haiku

This post is a part of a series of writings during a time of deep healing and transformation.  The following are links to the other writings in the series in chronological order:  Introduction & Haiku, The Funny Thing About Truth, The Journey to …

*Disclaimer:  Some of this subject matter is sensitive in nature.  Please read and explore in safety.

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The poems/writings you are about to read all took place within the last month.  You will see that it was a time of great emotion and transformation.  I could feel it happening and though at times I was wrought with fear, I prayed, and I had hope and faith that I would not only SURVIVE the memories…but I would THRIVE with the memories.

I AM a 53 year old woman.  I AM brave…I can face this.  I AM strong…I can handle it.  I AM safe…no one can hurt me.  I AM ready…to see the truth, to tell my story, and to get on with the business of living my life.

 

A journey to truth

It has taken many years

And I remember

 

I have titled this series, “I Remember…An Odyssey.”  I will post every day until all of the writings have been shown.  The posts will be titled “I Remember…An Odyssey ~ ” with the title of each writing to follow.  I will include links to all prior writings in the series to make it easy to access them chronologically.

I have never done anything like this before, and to be honest it feels a little daunting.  To be able to post every day and not allow life to interfere, as it so often does, I will schedule the whole series in advance.  I usually post what intuitively feels “right” on any given day, so this is the biggest departure from normal and creates the most stress for me

In the spirit of staying true to the truth of this experience, I will only post this series until it is finished.  I will schedule them for the same time each day, and I will try to be available at that time for comments.

I hear all these “what ifs” in my mind and I hear doubt, but I will listen to my soul which directs me to post this.  I thank you all, my friends, for you give me the courage to be able to do this project.  I am so grateful for each and every one of you.  Every time you post YOUR truth you strengthen my heart.  Every time you are vulnerable you strengthen our bond.  And every time we connect we strengthen humanity!  I am so blessed and full of gratitude…Blessitude!!

Lorrie <3

3/22/15

 

Poetic Challenge ~ “Love in Ten Sentences”

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My dear friend over at Psychopathsgetbored28 tagged me in a challenge about LOVE!  Almost impossible to resist…yes?  Please check out Psychopathsgetbored’s poem…it is fantastic (in fact check out the WHOLE blog while you are there…you won’t be disappointed!) :)

The challenge is to write a poem about love and title it “Love in Ten Sentences.” It must have 10 lines, each 4 words long. Every line must contain the word “love.” At the end of the poem, you must include a favorite quote about love. Then challenge ten other bloggers.

“Love in Ten Sentences”

In ‘love’s‘ tender moment

my soul vibrated ‘love

love‘ for all people

love‘ for all things

love‘ so deeply ingrained

love‘ so all encompassing

love‘ that radiates out

I know this ‘love

I need this ‘love

I AM this ‘love‘!

Blessitude

Lorrie

3/18/15

As forgiveness allows love to return to my awareness, I will see a world of peace, safety and joy.  ~ A Course in Miracles

And my nominees for the challenge are:

https://joannesilvia.wordpress.com

https://writingtofreedom.wordpress.com

https://forgottenmeadows.wordpress.com

https://kimgosselinblog.com

https://darknesswarmth.wordpress.com

https://apatientvoice.com

https://richardankers.com

https://aheartafire.wordpress.com

Should you decide to take on the challenge…have fun!!  If not…no worries :)  Have an awesome Wednesday full of love….Blessitude!

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