Standing Naked ~ And It Feels Good!

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I was asked if this was a seminal moment.  Asked if I was truly over it, once and for all.  And I felt a tug at my heart.  Am I really ready to be done with the hurt?  Is my constant companion, my partner in pain, the legacy that I have built over all these years REALLY ready to be buried…?

For what will I be without this pain?

What would my life look like?

What would it feel like?

Has it become a security blanket, an excuse for not facing reality?  For running in the lane of all that HAPPENS to me versus all that I have created?  All that I have allowed to be?

There is a feeling of nakedness…of standing in the middle with nothing to hide behind…

Is my pain my cloak that has provided me a safe, albeit painful existence in this journey of a thousand miles?

What if I am truly able to bury the pain of feeling excluded in the family I was born into?  What if I realize that I was born into that family to learn the lesson that there is no such thing as exclusion.  It is made up by me and my mind.  The pain I have created is what causes the distance and every step I take back keeps the pain further ensconced in my mind, in my heart, in my cells memory.

Am I truly done?  Can I have a sweet burial of this illusion, of this pain?  Can I see that standing naked in the middle, with no false protection not only allows the illusion of pain to melt and drip to puddles on the ground, but opens my heart, opens my soul to the wondrous beauty of the love from creation?

The light enters my heart and it expands out until my naked soul is exposed and my being is caressed by the most authentic love.  A love so brilliant it heals all the wounds and it leaves a beautiful energy behind and changes the cells perception of pain into love.

Yes, dear Hariod, I AM!

Blessitude

Lorrie <3

8/28/15

Meditation Dream ~ 8/21/15

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Old habits die hard.  Or so I’ve been told.  I shrugged and tried to let it roll off my back…pain bubbles that can’t penetrate…

But it was more of the same. The same kind of hurt…the same kind of duck maneuver, and I thought of Albert Einstein and I knew it was insanity.

Time to move on.  Once and for all.  Octopus…invading my mind tells a story.  ‘Detach a limb at will to distract a predator,’  hmmmm….

A meditation bath…a limb removed and buried…cleansing…clearing…

And the resulting poem paints its own picture:

Pain.

It’s always the same

Hard as I try to change it

It remains

Excluded.

like before

doesn’t matter how I crave it

I’m still ignored

Time.

for a change

I can’t keep repeating the same things

I’ll go insane

Coffin.

lowered to the ground

bury the limb that holds it all

never to be found

Cry.

I can barely breathe

each shovel of dirt may as well

be placed on top of me

Sad.

to see them go

I bade farewell and bless them all

viewed as friend and foe

Thank.

them for their role

the molten lava poured on my heart

did not deter my soul

Rain.

begins to fall

sprinkles the softened earth with life

beginning to heed the call

Sun.

begins to shine

flowers bloom a songbird sings

step in to what is mine

Power.

In the form of knowing

takes me by the hand

it’s always showing

Love.

from deep within

send it out to everyone

it’s a beautiful place to begin

Trust.

that it will come back

as long as you give you will receive

and never experience lack

Peace.

from all your woes

feel it from the top of your head

to the very tip of your toes

Hope.

for all mankind

that you know the strength you’re made of

and that you’ll always find

You.

direct the show

I wish you love and kindness

and that you’ll always know

that its all

up to you

have presence of mind

and come from love

in everything you do!

Blessitude

Lorrie <3

8/23/15

Haiku ~ 8/21/15 ~ Octy

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There are times I wish

I had more than just two hands

Oh! What I’d get done!!

Blessitude

Lorrie <3

8/21/15

Then I think of the mental ability it would take to coordinate 8 arms and hands…ugh!  I’m good with the two beautiful hands I have!  I’m good with EVERYTHING I have :)

I’ve been a little obsessed with octopi lately…so I decided to draw one.  I may not be done with them in the form of art…

Hope you all are vibrating in the energy of love <3

On My Way to Oz

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As I walk along this road

I am reminded of Dorothy

and how she met her perfect companions

on her way to the

Wonderful Land of Oz

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I think of the people

and the circumstances that appear in my life

and there is a comfort in knowing

that they all arrive exactly when they are supposed to

and they all carry a message that is

unwrapped as a gift

unraveled as a mystery

unknown as an entity

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I walk and I gather the knowing

the things that determine the steps that I take

I walk and I pick up things and inspect them

to see if they will be useful along the way

I walk and I strategically lighten my load

by placing things that are no longer needed

no longer necessary parts of my journey

just so

on the side of the road

with the hope

that the person who needs the trinket most

will see it sparkle and pick it up

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I meet strangers I have known my whole life

I meet blood relatives I don’t know at all

I commune with animals in nature

and they all reveal little parts of me

like a kaleidoscope that is turned

and the pieces meet and marry

and reveal a beautiful whole

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Yes, this walk that seems haphazard

is choreographed perfectly

I meet my companions just so

and I experience events in Divine timing

On my way to

The Wonderful Land of Oz!

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Blessitude

Lorrie <3

8/12/15

*Photos were taken of a wonderful scrapbook paper product by:  Paper House Productions.com

 

A Stroll on the Beach

This post is a long time coming!  I promised my dear friend, Staci, from a God Colored Girl in a Grey World, a post with my beloved Atlantic Ocean as the star….well, I can’t even admit how long ago!

If you don’t know Staci I highly recommend you stop by and visit.  Her beautiful soul shines through her words and her incredible new creations of mixed media art!

So Staci, this one’s for you (and I am sure she won’t mind if ya’ll take a peek!  :)

When I walk up the hill

to sneak my first peek

I’m reminded of Forrest Gump

‘Cuz I never know what I’m gonna get’

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A cloudy day could make you say, “Eh, maybe it won’t be so pretty.”

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But then you remember…

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It’s ALWAYS pretty!

And there’s always someone

taking advantage

of the beauty

and serenity

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Maybe

A couple of

somebodies

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I breathe in nature

and feel the earth

beneath my feet

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And look to the sky

and wink

at the

Angel cloud…

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And say a silent prayer

of thanks

for all the beauty

in my life

Blessitude

Lorrie <3

8/5/15

 

L’ETOILE DU BERGER (Shepherd’s Star)

Collaboration with my dear SoulMate, Fre’de’ric
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L’ETOILE DU BERGER (Shepherd’s Star)
Looking for
my Sheperd’s Star
I noticed
there was one star
that appeared to shine brighter
than any other in the sky
that night
.
I walked
and each step brought me closer
to the light
that my soul was born of
.
miracle
out of time and space
pure sparkle
nothing
will ever dull
.
forever
this brilliance
will be accessible
sensible
sublime to the touch
.
chime of Infinitude
transcendent and worldly
at the same time
as close
as you want it
to be
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My journey cocooned
filled with a knowing
connection,
protection,
.
Celestial Grace
.
Blessitude
Lorrie & Fre’de’ric <3
7/31/15

Haiku ~ 7/25/15 Ninja Crab

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Happenstance meeting

Not sure who was more afraid

“Little Ninja Crab”

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Blessitude

Lorrie <3

7/25/15

 

I had my last injection in my knee on Tuesday.  I walked up to my door (sue me…I had my cell phone in my hand so I was not looking EXACTLY where I was going) and guess who I found at my front door?  Yes, Little Ninja Crab.  I screamed, much like my snake scream, mainly because I was startled (unlike my snake scream!)

Of course my first thought was, “I need a photo of him!”  He was content to oblige me, that is until I decided I needed to get a little closer…and WHAM!!  Ninja hands were up and ready with lightning fast speed.

I believe he is a “blue land crab.”  I think he is beautiful.  If you are interested, here is a Wikipedia link that will tell you more about him.

A friend shushed him away from the door.  I don’t know what I was thinking…I was still in the hallway (approximately a 12ft hallway).  Suddenly Ninja Crab started running right at me!!!  I turned on my newly injected knee, and ran down the hallway screaming!!  As luck would have it for my neighbor, he made a quick left turn just as she was coming around the corner.  Now all three of us were screaming!!  Well, I didn’t actually hear Ninja Crab, I just assume he was as frightened as the two of us! ;)

I looked on several sights for the meaning of being visited by a crab.  There were several interesting ideas:

The crab never takes a direct or forward path…most times it runs sideways…so it is a reminder that sometimes a problem can be solved by coming at it sideways as opposed to head on.  It is also a reminder that not all paths lead directly to a goal and that your inner voice may be trying to lead you in a different way.

And the meaning that seemed to make the most sense to me giving the events that ensued the following day, is that the crab reminds us we can wear our own protective armor when we need to.  You know the saying, “Hurt people hurt.”  I was the recipient of a loved one’s hurt, and it hurt really bad.  I visualized my pretty Ninja Crab and I duplicated an armor of blue, and I slid inside.  It didn’t take the hurt away, but it didn’t let any more in.  All in all, a very successful strategy I’d say!

I am grateful for my visit from the Blue Ninja Crab.  I am Blessitude! <3