I have been many things,
held many jobs,
answered many questions,
and asked a million or two.
I have felt many feelings,
and tried not to feel,
made myself numb in ways I care to forget!
But through it all,
every step of the journey,
there has been a constant thread,
one discerning element that defines me…
I am an artist!
There…I said it…
and I mean it.
I am an artist!
I am a creator!!
As I contemplate the full power of this statement, I can feel a blossoming of beauty surge from the core of my being. The years I spent wondering what I was supposed to be doing, I now realize I have been doing all along.
I have always been happiest when I am making things. I scoffed at calling myself an artist, thinking that term was reserved for those who specialized in a medium.
I am attending a couple of glass art classes and they ask you introduce yourself in the beginning. This introduction has been hard for me as my background has been a smorgasbord of artistic expression.
I don’t know if my reluctance to call myself an artist was a self-esteem issue or rather a lack of commitment on my part. Possibly it was both. Or maybe there were so many things I tried not to see, not to remember, that I lost my ability to see myself!
Either way, as I lift the veils that shroud my eyes I feel a certain power emanating, flowing, rising to the surface of my world. I embrace it with open arms and welcome a lost lamb home.
Two very dear friends gave me the gift of their words recently. One, an incredible artist, said, “You need to know your talent.” And Dennis, from Merging Traffic, wrote, “Peace, graced artist/storyteller.”
And I said, “Ahhhhh!” I took her advice and I slipped on his words like a new pair of shoes, dispelling any fear, and understanding there can be humility in the proclamation. And I do feel “GRACED!’ And to be graced and not honor the gift would be a shame, indeed.
So many of you left me such heart warming comments on my last post where I displayed my first hand cut fused decorative glass plate. I thank you all, for each and every comment washed over me and gave me understanding, and confidence to be able to say,
I am an Artist
I am a Creator
I am BLESSITUDE!