You can’t control everything…
I certainly tried through all these years.
And what I eventually found was that
I control NOTHING!
Well, nothing but what I decide to think.
So in essence, I can do
exactly what I did last time…
and we all know that insanity
So I wouldn’t expect a different outcome
I can decide to try something different.
But all I really want to do
It is almost mind boggling how I try to repeat things I know will not help. It is mainly the feeling of helplessness because I just don’t know how to handle my life day to day. You think that you could get a bead on just how much activity was ‘enough’ activity, versus it being ‘way too much’ acitivity and it renders you bed bound for days.
I like to KNOW things. I would like to have the secret recipe for what would make me feel better…or at least not make me feel worse.
I am struggling to let that all go, but it is hard. I know I need to use my body but there is no magic formula for not doing too much. Maybe anything is too much…