I Can’t Admit It.

I have red flags popping up everywhere I turn.

And I just Can’t Admit It!

No.

I already fought this war

AND I WON!

I won, I tell you.

Do you not hear my words?

Can you not hear me cry in despair?

I already fought this war.

I already felt this pain.

I already lived in a vessel that feels foreign…

feels like it belongs to someone else.

And yet, it feels suspiciously familiar.

Not the kind of nice familiar

like arriving home after a long trip,

but the kind that creeps up on you

and touches nerves

and leaves a scent

that reminds you of a time

that you would never want to go back to

not in a million years

not ever…

Because I already fought this war.

Blessitude

Lorrie ❤

2/2/17

Thank you beautiful souls!!  I feel so overwhelmed with love and compassion by the incredible support you all freely extended.

This series depicts the journey through acceptance of the relapse.  I just want you to know that I have accepted it and I am working diligently on healing ❤

The links below are listed in order.  Thanks for taking the ride 🙂  Lorrie

THE LINKS WILL BE ACTIVE AFTER EACH POST IS PUBLISHED.  ACTIVE LINKS WILL APPEAR IN RED.

1. And I Thought I Was Done With That!
2. I Already Fought This War
3. Like a Ton of Bricks
4. I Was Positive It Would Never Return
5. You Can’t Control Everything
6. Failure
7. The List
8. The Treatment
9. I’m in The Happiest Place on Earth
10. She Asked Me What It Feels Like
11. Game On!
12. A Pep Talk From An Angel