And the truth smacks me in the face…
and the hip…
and the elbow…
and the foot…
and the wrist…
BUT THE HEART?
Like a ton of bricks dropped on my chest
all the pieces to the puzzle fell into place
The AHA! moment…
the Saturday morning that I said the words aloud,
“I think my Lyme Disease is back,”
caused such self-reproach
I could hardly breathe
Oh…that moment when realization sets in and you feel like a complete idiot for not getting there sooner!
I’ve had lots of symptoms over the years, but when it felt like I was having a heart attack I panicked (which probably explains things 😉 )
My spleen was very enlarged as it was working so hard to fight the infection. I’ve had an enlarged spleen before but never one this large. It caused many new symptoms, which I guess is a good thing because that is what eventually led to my AHA! moment.
I am being much kinder to myself than when I originally penned this poem. Thanks again to you beautiful souls, I just know your thoughts and prayers are helping!