So I’m Not Afraid of My Power…Now What Am I Going To Do With It?

Beach-Sunset-Powerful-Energy

So many decisions

Like a child in a candy store

I sit and think of the myriad of ways

That I can execute my power

*

It’s heady stuff

I feel omnipotent

I have a million visions

And I feel like a hundred pound weight

Has come off my shoulders

*

Is this the way I came here to be

Have I lived up to the level of devotion

That rests in my soul

Have I stood my ground

On the pillar of integrity

And watched as thoughts with no merit

Flowed beneath my feet

Do I honor the gift of Creation

In a way that lifts and connects me

To the universal energy of love

The love that represents oneness 

In a sea of faces that do not

Know the separation of time

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I vow to feel the power 

That exists in my being

I promise to live in a state of awareness

And I declare I will utilize

The energy of love

Above all else!

Blessitude

Lorrie ❤

5/13/2018

It seems strange to be a 56-year-old woman and to only just recently recognize my power.

When we live a life in which we try not to feel, I guess we lose out on a lot of things. When you are in survival mode every action is treated as a threat, first and foremost, and after a while you’re just so tired from constantly being on the look out to defend yourself.

It seems I have so many options now that I’m having a little trouble deciding just how far I can take this.

So I will take my time. I will connect to the deepest, truest parts of my soul and I will listen to the voice in my heart.

I hope you all have an intimate connection with your power, and that you have for a long time. I’d love to hear about when you recognized it and what it means to you!

Sweet Blessings!

Lorrie ❤

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54 thoughts on “So I’m Not Afraid of My Power…Now What Am I Going To Do With It?

  1. Kudos Lorrie. I’m delighted and surprised to hear that you are just coming into your power. And I can relate, I’m not sure I’m really in touch with it except intellectually even now on the verge of 60. But I do feel a sense of growing trust and confidence after a long hard few years that were (like for you) all about survival. May we recognize our magnificence and thrive… Hugs and blessings.

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    1. So beautiful, Brad! You nailed it right on the head! Knowing it intellectually, and knowing it in the fiber of your being are two very different things. I’m not sure how to go from A to B, but I am trying to figure it out because there is nothing I would love more than to be able to shine a light on the process for other people to FEEL it!
      It is a shift that is most welcome and as I was in the midst of many “triggers” yesterday, I can oh so happily report that it FELT REALLY, REALLY GOOD!!! 🙂
      Here’s to standing in your power and feeling it, Brad. I just know that LOVE is at the center of it!

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  2. Lorrie, find my connection to Power comes and goes. I work at being aware and allowing my connection to spill over to others as it will. Then I forget I am connected! The human condition?

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    1. Ah! Michael, I understand! And yes, I think they do call it the human condition. And it is a good reminder for me right now because I feel so powerful I can’t imagine that I won’t always feel this way!! It is a novel emotion for me as I ‘reacted’ to my life instead of living my life!
      Thanks so much for adding your ‘awareness’ and ‘connection’ here…

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  3. Not only do i love this poem…. I have to say… there are so many things in terms of acknowledging my own power that I am still working on. Blessed choice! Thank you for your poem dear Lorrie. I think more and more that age is just a number and that no matter what we are all (hopefully) coming into places of greater and greater self love and love for all. Taking our time can be so hard when there’s so much energy and allowing that and guiding that is key. Allowing a process to move itself without judgement…

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    1. Thank you, Ka!! You bring up a very real, valid point that I think I know intuitively but have been unable to articulate.
      I feel so blessed to be stretching, and growing. And through it all, the good and the bad (I hate to use these attributes…maybe it is better to say the things that made me feel good and the things that made me feel bad!) But through it all there is an awareness that each step is necessary…and beautiful…to the whole! As you said, “Allowing a process to move itself without judgement…” yes…that is where I am and there is such an opening of Spirit!!
      Much love and Blessings, La, I am so grateful for our connection 💜💜

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      1. No tornadoes (the plural version throws in an “e”, even though it looks funny to me) in this part of Nebraska, Lorrie. But if ever I see, I’ll p-o-w-e-r it down, right after I get a pic or two. 😉 We have no basement, so I’ll do everything in my power to get those shots in a timely manner.

        I got a note from you, and I did update my subscription via monkey-mail, or whatever it’s called. 🙂 Cheerz, UT

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        1. Ah! I had a silent debate about that “e”…ugh! 😉
          Ut…I am a believer in getting the shot…but maybe not so much with a tornado!!! We stayed put for Hurricane Wilma years ago…scary mistake. I had a new video camera and was standing at a window filming the storm…not supposed to be near the windows…duh! A mini-tornado swept through the parking lot and lifted a van and tossed it…I got the film…but then you hear me screaming “get into the safe room” while the camera was flipping all around. We all had a good laugh watching it after…but it was pretty scary!!

          And thanks UT! I am happy you decided to stay on my email list 🙂 I don’t understand this stuff but apparently my little list will get smaller.

          Best wishes for a great week!

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    1. We really do, Roxanne! Let’s keep moving into the energy of love…what a fantastic journey 😊
      Hope you have a fantastic week 💜
      PS Sometimes I can’t believe I am 56!! I still think I am 32 😉

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      1. I’m right there with you in the energy of love. 😍✨ Yes, I have more energy now–I let people think I’m 38 hehe but if they ask I tell the truth because I’m proud of it!-but also I can hardly believe it either–it’s been a journey to better health and more and more vitality so I feel I’m getting younger instead of older. Have a great week 💖!

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  4. Lorrie, this is so beautiful and articulate and you have captured exactly how I have been feeling since my last birthday (55). The world just seems to have opened up and I’m feeling so grateful and yet, at times, overcome. I would like to share this with my blog followers as I think it will resonate with many of my email only subscribers. Hope that works for you! Thank you – Joan
    kindness-compassion-and-coaching.com

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  5. There are so many things I love about this post including the imagery standing your ground on the pillar of integrity watching thoughts flow beneath your feet, but hen following that with love. It no longer seems strange to me that one would recognize her power at age 56. I can relate to the process which is an ongoing one for me. The first time I remember becoming aware of my power was when I ended a stressful relationship about ten years ago. My daughter was a teenager and I had a stressful job, so I didn’t need the relationship. Since I retired from my stressful career last year, I’ve found so many options. It’s an adventure to explore the possibilities! Enjoy!

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    1. Thanks for sharing, JoAnna 😁 The thing for me has been that I have been aware of it “intellectually” for a long time; knowing perhaps what it is and why it should be there. But very recently, and I am talking only a few weeks, I CAN FEEL IT!! And I’ve used it, and guess what? All those scary things I thought would happen DID NOT!! In fact, quite the opposite 😁😁
      Thanks so much for your heartfelt connection. Sending lots of love and light💜

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  6. Lorrie. I too “vow to feel the power”! Doesn’t matter what age we are when we awaken to the reality of life on Earth and the longing for deeper meaning. It just happens at the perfect time. Anita.

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    1. I LOVE IT, Anita 😁
      Yes, and if we grow together in this incredible energy; each offering a piece that the other may need, WOW! What way to live!
      Thanks so much for adding your energy here. Have a wonderfully empowered weekend 💜

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  7. What a beautiful testimony and a power of declaration that which is, you can do anything. The world is in your hand, and vision awaits you.

    I have had moments like that in the past, and i gave myself to breath and to dream and do things, that for someone I was holding myself back from, fear I suppose, fear of failure, fear of uncertainty.

    I am struggling with my inner strength right now, but I have flickers of it, and a great fiend of mine, told me during a rather tearful conversation, that I can do anything. I simply need to reconnect to it with support and without fear.

    Thanks for the inspiration

    Much love, Harlon

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    1. Hello my friend ❤
      I am sorry that you are in a bit of a struggle right now. But I want you to know that is okay…and many times there is a huge breakthrough after such a time. So, sit in quiet solitude and believe that things will change. And it also helps to remember that everything changes…or "This too shall pass."
      Fear can be such a debilitating energy. And I think it is an evil lurker, meaning that it lies behind so many things and we so often don't even attribute our feelings to the fear. So it lurks in the background and causes damage we can't begin to imagine!
      I send you lots of love…we know that love is the antidote to fear. I have missed you and I think about you often. I do know that this is an important time for you and I want you to know that I will be a rock for you!!!
      Much love,
      ❤ ❤

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  8. Powerful poem, Lorrie! The most difficult issue for me is to remain in constant connection with this power….although I try remember to consciously reconnect every day. Much love and blessings to you ❤

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    1. Thanks, Helen 💜 I know exactly what you mean! It is a process and staying aware and in the moment is something to strive for…but oh, so difficult!
      We have had enough rain this past week to take care of any drought issues! How is your side?

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  9. Great poem sweet Lorrie. I am still working on my life and the changes that have come with my Shug being gone. I can say this though, for the first time ever I feel free and have much confidence in myself and the choices I make. At first I felt selfish because I am enjoying so much not having to be responsible for anyone but myself and my pets for the first time in my life. But I no longer feel guilty. I have spent my whole life carrying for others and now I feel it is my time. It seems you are doing well and I like what you have done with your blog. I am sorry I have not visited more, I have been trying to get back into blogging and other things have kept my attention. Sending you love, hugs and blessings sweet Lorrie

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    1. Oh Maggie! I can’t tell you how much you have touched my heart! I am so happy for you!! This kind of freedom is an incredible gift and I understand how you could have felt selfish in the beginning…but I am THRILLED TO MY BONES that you ditched that feeling (no need for that!!) and YOU ARE STANDING IN YOUR POWER!! Yes!
      This is beautiful…and I feel that you will continue to explore new adventures and you will blossom like a spring flower 😁
      Life is amazing. And you, beautiful soul, are a testament to how to embrace it and really live it!
      I needed your letter this morning and it will help me more than you know.
      Many sweet blessings to you…and so much love💜💜💜

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  10. Centering the connection on being in the moment….truly being in the moment, eliminates the past and the luggage it holds and keeps you from the worries, concerns and feelings of inadequacy of the luggage of the future. The challenge is staying in the present, embracing yourself and life with love, peace and happiness. Easy…no…but so worth the effort.

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    1. Ah! Yes, Kirt 😁
      Thanks for adding your energy and wisdom here. And it is such a perfect reminder for me right now. I have a few big life projects that need my attention…but a couple of life responsibilities are up in the air. It is easy to get ‘crazy’ trying to plan…but I can’t plan because a few things have to happen that rely on someone else…ugh! So I try to stay in this moment AND WAIT (patience…?) for these other things to happen. But I’m not going to lie and say that is easy😉
      Thanks, Kirt…have a great rest of the week!

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  11. Lorrie, it wasn’t until my late fifties that I had begun to experience what you are right now. It is powerful and it is something that eternally changes Everything About You. How wonderful that you are actually seeing who you are in Truth. I know the journey it took for me to get there so I understand the hard work and the struggles you have gone through in order to achieve this great gift. You need to be proud of yourself because not too many people achieve what you have done. Bless you! 🦋🦋🦋

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    1. Ah! Amy 💜💜💜
      Thanks for touching my soul, for sharing your journey in the beautiful way that you do, and for understanding!
      Life is a strange and wonderful journey that I feel so excited to be a part of. The years of lower energies had me wrapped in a cocoon where I didn’t feel much…well except physical pain. To be breaking free and learning to fly is an incredible feeling…and I am so ready!!
      Thank you my friend, for your warm heart…and your new camera lens and what you are doing with it is AMAZING!!!
      Giant hugs😁
      And lots of love 💜💜💜

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      1. Lorrie, you are ever so welcome. Coming through the hard and dark and painful years feels so freeing and liberating. I am SO excited for you …. I KNOW how you feel. And thank you about what I am doing with my camera …. I’m in LOVE. LOL Wait until I get my new camera to use my 100-400mm lens with to really get closeups of birds. Yippee!!! GIANT HUGS to YOU!!~~~!!! And of course with LOVE! 💝💝💝

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        1. Can’t wait to see, Amy!! Meanwhile, I am happy to see WHATEVER shots you take!!
          Thanks so much for validating my journey! I know we have had very similar life events and I ambgrayeful to have such a kind and loving friend 💜💜

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  12. Wonderful that you are taking your time to absorb the reality of the POWER you have always held.. And remarkable isn’t it how light we feel when we suddenly understand the Power Within..

    Take all the time you need Lorrie.. Be who you were always meant to be.. Yourself..

    Love and Blessings always..
    Sue ❤ xx

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    1. Thank you Sue. Brought tears to my eyes…
      I just recently watched as someone in my circle took over the worry…and the planning…trying to conceive of every possible event…and I recognized that as who I USED TO BE!!! This particular uocoming gathering is stressful to all, but I didn’t get into trying to “fix” and “prevent” everything. It feels so good 😁 I joked with my sister that I took the backpack off, set it down, and it feels so good! It is sad that someone else thought they needed to pick it up because I discarded it!!!
      Have a wonderful weekend, Sue…much love 💜💜
      P.S. I took you off my email list due to this GDPR. If you want to be on it you can sign up on my website…right sidebar. No worries if you don’t want to.
      Sweet blessings ☀️

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