I am not completely unscathed
Try as I may to protect my heart
The pounding insults start to leave their mark
Is this a test to see how well I am doing?
Bring back to back assaults from the original abusers to see how I would fare?
And what exactly is it
That doesn’t allow me to just cut the ties
To just walk away
And not turn back
What is their hold on me that doesn’t let me not turn into it again?
I don’t have the answers in this moment
But I do know
That I didn’t cower in a corner
For either one of them!
I lost my cool with the first
But that made me better able to deal with the second
A tag team of abuse
It is not fun
There’s a distant smell of fear
No. I’m not completely unscathed
But I’m not a victim either!
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