So it’s all up to me?
The things I think
The energy I impart to the world
It’s a choice
To see love or fear
Darkness or light
Hope and joy or despair?
IT HARDLY SEEMS FAIR…
That I didn’t realize this sooner
That I spent the better part of half a century allowing things to be less than optimal
But who am I to question the timing of things
I have also spent the better part of the last three years KNOWING that everything happens the way it is supposed to…with perfect timing!
So as I write these words
I think ahead to the strike of Midnight in two days
And I think about 2015
And what I would like for my goals
And there is knowing…
That I want to be conscious as much as is humanly possible
Of every thought that crosses my mind
I want to be aware of which side my energy lives in…in as many moments of the day as possible
I want to make sure that I am connected to ME
I want to be aware of ME every day
I no longer wish to be on auto pilot going through the motions of life
I want to be a willing participant in the creation of my days
Yes, I want to be the director
Wait…I take that back…I know that I am the director of my life
What I want to do is to be aware of the things that I think…
The tiny fleeting moments that hardly register as conscious thoughts
And yet are so very integral to the landscape of my day
In anticipation of the clock’s strike at midnight (something that is highly unlikely I will hear) this is my wish…my goal…my New Year’s resolution!
I have read so much over the last three years about how our thoughts direct the creation of our lives. I believed it almost immediately. It was a little hard to agree to the really nasty, horrible things that happened. Yet, if I am honest I can see how my thinking contributed to certain events.
Monday I drove the “lead car” on Interstate 95 in south Florida. It is not a very friendly highway. In fact, it is full of aggressive drivers who are willing to put your life at risk if you do anything at all that displeases them.
If you drive any slower than 80 MPH you are likely to be cut off and flipped the bird. I had to drive between 50-55 MPH to lead a pick-up truck that was pulling a trailer that was carrying a dresser and huge mirror to my house. Phew!
My first thought was, “Someone is going to kill me!” And then I had to laugh when my passenger pointed out that I would be the first person to admonish someone else for driving that slow on the highway. My next thought was, “Oh, no! It looks like it is raining up ahead!” I envisioned the beautiful wood being ruined by the pop up Florida downpour. I won’t even go into the thoughts I had about the dresser not being tied down or the mirror riding on top of a pile of scrap metal in the back of the pick-up!
Then I stopped my thoughts dead in their tracks. I couldn’t believe the negativity that was flowing from me. I decided to do an about face and I thought that I was perfectly safe driving at that speed. Then, even though I could see the rain pouring from the clouds in front of me, I thought the clouds would part and the sun would shine. Then I pictured in my mind what the dresser with the beautiful mirror would look like in my bedroom…safe and sound…completely intact!
And guess what? It happened exactly like I had planned…or thought. And I couldn’t have been more grateful that I stopped myself from thinking about the other scenario! Imagine it…someone cuts me off for driving so slow but not before the dresser and mirror fly off the truck and splinter into a million pieces…but not before the downpour completely soaked the wood. Now WHY in the world would I want to create THAT???
I wish you all the most beautiful blessings in life. I wish you all understanding and peace…yes…peace and grace. There is something about that word that keeps coming up for me and I pray that you feel it in your life! Happy New Year…welcome 2015!!