“It Really Hurts”

Hurt-Flower

 

“Ask yourself, therefore, but one simple question:  Do I want the problem or do I want the answers?”  ~ ACIM

It really hurts.

I know it shouldn’t

or rather I know if I could just 

stop thinking the thoughts

I could make it go away

But it’s big.

It’s HUGE!

It’s standing at a crossroads

or on a precipice

And deciding to turn left

or right

Or heck to just jump…

It is the cellular make up…

the learned expression

The way to tear down the facade

holding up the truth

BUT I SEE IT!

And I know that it should not touch me

I know that I have worked so hard

to pull myself up out of the well

to honor the place inside me

where my truth has lain in wait

and I know how this truth feels

and I should never allow somebody else’s

actions and words, even if they are

The Original Assault

to cause me any doubt

to knock me off my feet

to break my beating heart

to change my mind about who I am

and/or where I am going

 

There is a time that is acceptable to mourn something you thought you had but in actuality you never did.

There is a time that is acceptable to let your pain be felt, because not feeling it doesn’t help.

And then it is time to pick yourself up and check your face in the mirror and when you lock eyes with yourself, you smile and say, “YOU GO GIRL!”

Blessitude!

Lorrie ❤

11/6/17

 

I dedicate this post to anyone who mourns something they thought they had because it was too painful to acknowledge that they didn’t;

To anyone who hurts so bad because they never had what they so desperately thought they needed.

I’m here to tell you, YOU AND YOUR TRUTH are all you need!

 

And a huge shout out to Texas and the latest senseless mass shooting.  I send love and peace to all ❤  May the tortured souls find different ways to show their pain. 

 

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My healing journey on the continuum of "It's all wrong" to "It's all right!" I love art and the creative process, reading, writing, and playing tennis.

35 thoughts on ““It Really Hurts”

  1. Inspiring post Lorrie ! I the quote too. In a word of madness, your positive and beautiful words help – You have the spiritual gift of healing ! Much love to you my dear Friend ♥♥♥

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  2. “. . . the cellular make up… the learned expression . . .” So true, Lorrie, how we are creatures of our past, our conditioning, even, to a degree, our genetic inheritance. As you rightly say, though, ‘seeing it’ (self-awareness) is key to overcoming. Only the mind can overcome the mind, I have learned. Be well and happy, dear friend. H ❤

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    1. Hi Harold!
      Ah! ‘Only the mind can overcome the mind!’ Yes, I am aware which is a good first step. I am having difficulty with this one. Intellectually I can understand what is happening, but I am having great difficulty taking my feelings out of it. Or maybe a better way to say it would be that I am having difficulty processing the hurt feelings and still act loving and kind…because that is what I want to do.
      I will figure it out!
      Great to see you Hariod. I hope that you are well and that your writing project is going well. Much love and kindness to you!! 😉
      💜

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  3. My turn to saw WOW, Lorrie, just WOW! You have described MY journey, one that I have been on for so many years and just keeps on going. I was stunned, just stunned when I read your words. You really are DOING IT, really rising above the illusion and finding YOUR TRUTH. I have so many in “family” who love to tear me down, who actually fear me because of the growth I have made. Let NO ONE steal your Truth from you. You deserve to discover your Truth and not what someone has forced you to believe. I KNOW how hard this journey is and I applaud you! OMG! I applaud you! Tears in eyes …. 💝🌈💝

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    1. Oh…Amy! Yes…the tears are rolling here as well. It is an amazing thing to connect with others who have traveled similar paths. We strengthen each other every time we stand strong in our beliefs to realize our truth. I don’t know why we were born into such families, but I always hold on to the idea that it is because we need to learn lessons and they are the best people to teach us! Please know that through your recent loss of your Mom and the strength that you show…and the freedom I feel from you…you have helped me in ways I can’t possibly begin to tell you. Sweet blessings to you…dear sister in light 💜💜💜

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      1. OH how I so appreciate you, Lorrie! Doesn’t it feel wonderful to come across someone else who “gets” what you are going through? I know not why we both have the families we do but this I do know. Neither one of us deserves to be treated anything less for the unique, beautiful women that we are. We scare those who do not turn inward in order to find Truth. I thank YOU so much for saying you feel freedom from me. That is a huge clarification for me that what I am doing and what I am writing is freeing me. I cannot thank you enough for how you have touched my Heart today! Your growth lately has been astounding! You really need to be proud of YOU! Bless you and sweet (((HUGS)))!!! You ROCK and Bless my socks right off my feet! ☺️

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        1. Hahaha…giant smile and warm giggles 😁 I couldn’t agree more…you validate my work and my struggle and my walk through this life, Amy. I don’t know why we have them either…and oh boy could I tell some stories!! But I think the family we have found here at WP has been so incredibly uplifting and supportive…and it is part of the reason we heal because we now know what those qualities mean…and we know that it is just human decency to extend to our brothers and sisters. Oh!! Thank you for the love that I can FEEL from you 💜💜

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          1. Thank you for your Love, Lorrie. Agree totally about WP, FYI. It was through WP that I found my best friend who showed me what Unconditional Love truly is. For years he brought such JOY to my every day and the knowing heck yes, I deserve to be Loved for who I am! (NOT for what someone wants me to be). Stay Blessed for that is what you are. I am overjoyed to see how bright your Light has become! 🌈

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  4. I can relate to knowing that “I should never allow somebody else’s actions and words” to have such an effect on me …..” to change my mind about who I am, and/or where I am going, ‘ but still I feeling those feelings anyway. We are human. But we do learn to see things more clearly and get back on our feet with more wisdom than before, loving ourselves through all this. I’m glad you are moving forward! ❤

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    1. Hi Joanna 💗 Thank you! Some things are easier said than done, that’s for sure. The thing that amazes me most is how our minds can work to protect us by not allowing certain truths to see the light of day until we are ‘ready.’ At times I don’t feel ready, but have to have faith and trust that all happens exactly when it is supposed to…”Trust the Timing” !!!!! 😉Many good thoughts to you. I hope that you are well and creating! 💖

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  5. We all travel our journeys of pain, loss and struggle to find our “it’s all right”. You are a bright light shining, Lorrie, and your journey will be a successful one. Many blessings and hugs. You go girl ❤

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    1. Hi Helen! You have no idea how much your message meant to me 💗 Thank you! I have faith that I will walk through this dark patch…though it is perhaps the hardest one yet it is also one that is attached to so much and, therefore, will promote deep healing. I’m happy to have a friend in you and I send awesome energy to you on this Friday morning 💜💜

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  6. Wonderful to hear you say these words Lorrie… 🙂 We can not skip the wounds, for we came to learn and yes heal from them.. But we no longer need to keep picking at the scabs to make them bleed and be an open wound for ever.. So yes.. so wonderful to hear you say these words.. “I’m here to tell you, YOU AND YOUR TRUTH are all you need!”

    Love and Blessings ❤ Always xx

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    1. Thank you, Sue! Ahhh!
      It is becoming so clear. I am trying not to be consumed by the pain. It is like an archeological dig site…uncovering things I had no idea were there. The human mind (God!) is amazing…it (He/She) keeps us from pain that we are not ready to handle and then allows the site to be excavated… uncovered… when the time is right… when we are able to work with the results to realize our truth!
      I am not saying this is easy, but I know that I am on the verge of a great healing…and I am Blessitude!!
      Sweet blessings to you my friend 💗 Maybe one day we could talk about this…I’ve a feeling we have uncovered similar things.
      I hope this new week is full of light for you to see truth!! 💜💜

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      1. We have indeed dear Lorrie and they crop up in the most extraordinary places, that a small trigger often sets into motion.. This happened for me too only this year, when I had to re-look and revalue how my feelings were turned around upon a certain perspective view I had held onto.. But once I dug it out, the release was immense 🙂 So the process yes, is ongoing, but always forward and onward.. ❤

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