The Screeching Wheel

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If you give me what I want because you couldn’t stand listening to me spurt my words about why I need it, should I be happy?

Happy that I eventually got what I wanted, but you only gave it to me to stop the noise – stop the confusion

Shut Up!  You got what you wanted!

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But I feel like I need you to see and to honor the reason I needed it – am I wrong?

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The squeaky wheel gets the grease – my Momma always said that – and it was funny because she was not one to let her wheels be not well oiled – her wheels very rarely squeaked – and therefore – she didn’t get what she wanted!  But that was her expectation, so one might argue she got exactly what she expected – it just might not have been what she wanted.

So I say – we should be darn sure of what we want – very clear of what our intentions are and not let our wants be confused with our expectations.

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Eventually after squeaking became screeching – I indeed got what I wanted – I think – and if that is the case then why do I feel so bad?

Oh, because what I really wanted was for you to see things my way and do things my way – to understand WHY I wanted it done that way – because of course my way is the right way….RIGHT?

Is what I really wanted was to be right?  To be acknowledged for being right?

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Confirmation came that proved my way was “right.”

But it feels a little bad.  I don’t want to be the screeching wheel – I don’t want to have to be right – and I certainly don’t want to have to be acknowledged for being right! This feels a lot like energy I grew up in – energy that I have spent so much time changing.

I think there may be some more work I need to do here!!!

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Blessitude

Lorrie

8/12/14

So, I’m a little “crunchy,” as my sister likes to say…it’s a perfect description!

And apparently, I’m a little spoiled too!  We have been without hot water for a week and 4 days.  Due to many mishandled situations from our service company this process has been prolonged, beyond my toleration point.

In the beginning it was, “Oh no! No hot water?”  Then I thought, “Come on, it’s not so bad.  You can do this for a few days.”

Then we got a call asking us to rate our experience with the service company on day 7.  My answer was, “It may be to your benefit to call back when we actually HAVE hot water…I’m sure my answers will be very different!”  The lady couldn’t get off the phone faster and it was a bit of a giggle for me – I thought I was so funny!

So after 11 days of heating water on the stove for a “bath” and 11 days of washing my hair outside…if the hose is full and you leave it in the sun you can have running water for maybe a minute…possibly a few seconds more…I am a little crunchy.  Okay, A LOT crunchy! (Not to mention what my neighbors think about my new hair care regimen!)

Well, the difference of opinion was how to handle the call to the service company today.  My way is finally what got their attention and, “Oh yes…the part just came in at 9:06 am and we will have some one out there today!”

THANK YOU!!!

❤ Lorrie

*images from free google images

*** A little update….service man is here right now…and the parts he got ARE NOT FIXING THE PROBLEM! UGH!!!

 

 

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My healing journey on the continuum of "It's all wrong" to "It's all right!" I love art and the creative process, reading, writing, and playing tennis.

38 thoughts on “The Screeching Wheel

    1. Thanks Nathalie!!! We still don’t have hot water but they are working on it!! It is fine…the hot water heater was just the tip of the proverbial iceberg (haha) Other things in life made that seem much worse. Thank you for you beautiful support!! ❤

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  1. Well shoot! I love “extra crunchy” raisin bran cereal…now after this story, maybe not so much…haha! I know this story goes a ways back, but I hadn’t read it before. Love your answer to the water/power survey lady!

    Steve 🙂

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      1. Things wear out…water heaters, a/c, heaters, etc. I’ll bet that time of being “crunchy” was awful! I see these people in other countries washing their hair in buckets and operating those suicide showers everyday. Wow, we have it good in the USA!

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          1. So it seems you are on the blog a bit more these past days. Good for you! I hope to read more of your posts in the very near future.

            Enjoy your day, Lorrie!

            Steve 🙂

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