I can’t find you
Where have you gone?
I left you here for what seems like only a few short days
But in reality it must have been longer
I understand the circumstances were not ideal
I know that you were hurt
So hard to believe that people could be so cruel
I search inside
the walls are empty
You have sacrificed so much and I am grateful
I was not a willing party to the desecration
But as in life
It was a sin of omission
I left you there
alone and cold
hurt and bleeding
I did not seek help
Instead I ran
I ran far away
I thought the distance I created would be enough
To get the graphic images out of my mind
Get the pain, as each insult was delivered
Out of my heart
I honestly thought I could numb myself
And forget the tragedy that was so brutally displayed
I have since spent a lifetime living in a strange limbo of trying to forget, and trying to remember
The easy days are the ones when I feel you near
Feel you inside me
Like you never left at all
We are bonded
And the places we visit are familiar
I can touch you
With a mere thought
A beat of my heart
The hard days are the ones that I am left alone
To remember the isolation
To remember the lack of being present
And the abundance of neglect
It is when I remember that I turned away
Because I was afraid
The fear gripped me in places that are sacred
Places that should never be lain upon
Forgive my sins
The ones I willingly became a partner to
And the ones I found myself caught in
I wandered from the path
But I can see where the separation occurred
Where the fracture in my mind
Created the path of most resistance
On this beautiful day I recognize the beauty of the commitment
I know that no matter how grand the chasm my mind created
You were always there
I know you couldn’t provide the answers with words
I had to find them through truth
I know that I was protected by the cocoon of your magnificent, radiant, love
I know that when I thought I couldn’t find you
You were never gone
You have been the one true constant
Simply existence
I thank you for your faith in me
I will spend the second part of my life honoring our bond
Resting in perfect love
Exploring creation
Closing the divide
On this beautiful day, I am so blessed and full of gratitude – Blessitude.
4/20/14
Happy Easter to all my beautiful friends who show their love and support with incredible words from their heart. This Easter writing has many meanings for me, as most poems do I suppose. I hope you feel connected on at least one of the levels. Thank you, sincerely…Lorrie
Beautiful 🙂
Merci’ 😉
Happy Easter, Lorrie. He is risen!
Amen!! Happy Easter to you too! 🙂
Happy and Blessed Easter sweet Lorrie! Hugs
A super huge hug right back to you! Many blessings to you on this Easter Sunday 🙂
What a beautiful, heart-felt poem! Hope you are having a wonderful Easter!
Thank you Julie! I had a beautiful day…I hope your Easter was loving 🙂
This feels like a letter disguised as a poem 🙂 It is very powerful and passionate and full of emotion. I feel that it is a very honest poem, about deep feelings. I can feel that outburst of emotion in your poem. You are such an excellent writer Lorrie! You always move me with your poems! 🙂
Thank you so much Line. I always appreciate what you have to say…I really listen and I can hear you. You are so full of love and you give it away so freely. All of these writings come from my heart and soul so I am happy that you can feel the emotion. Hope your Easter day was beautiful. Much love, Lorrie
Beautifully written, Lorrie! I love the raw and vivid imagery you use, it creates such an emotional connection to you words.
~Andrea<3
Hi Andrea! Thank you 🙂 I just told my Mom how I can’t believe I didn’t write for so many years because now I HAVE to write. The emotions build up inside me and are released when my pen goes to paper. I am so happy that you connect with my words. Blessitude
What a very beautiful discovery, Lorrie! I’m so happy you discovered such an important part of yourself! That’s really inspiring. <3
Honest and humble…two wonderful Godly traits! Standing “O” for this one, Lorrie.
The True Light
I went back to read this before I commented back to you. And all I can tell you is this one hits me in my heart. I suppose I shouldn’t say that I made myself cry…but I did! Thank you for the standing “O”…for your support. ..and for understanding me! I am Blessitude!! <3 <3
Aw, shucks!…lol. Lorrie, your love of God is paying benefits to both yourself and to those who are moved by what you write.
Let God continue to use the talents He gave you to His glory. Good job, “Blessitude!”
The True Light
Thank you so much!! I am…All in!!!! 😉
That’s the only acceptable way to serve the Lord…”all in” or it means nothing…to one’s self or to God!
The True Light