Rise to the beautiful bounty that exists inside your soul
Answer the questions God asks you
The answers contain the directions that make you whole
There are many possible routes to get where you are supposed to be
Some are better than others
Some you just wait and see
There are no wrong answers
For everything moves you in one direction or the other
But there are better roads to travel
You can take the road you want to
But don’t expect to wander freely and get to your destination in a timely fashion
You see, this is where free will steps in
Yes – there may be a plan for you
But if you take a detour and get side tracked
Then the purpose you are supposed to fulfill will be delayed
No one can say for sure how long
Or if you will even fulfill that purpose in your lifetime
And there will be consequences to your psyche
For not fulfilling the contract
Feelings of being lost
Feelings of anger
Feelings of not being satisfied
For how satisfied could you be if you are not satisfying your purpose?
In hindsight, I can’t have regrets
Because I would not have had my beautiful son
If I had not taken my detour
A rather long, convoluted detour
One that had many twists and turns
And accidents along the way
But here I am now
A little worse for wear
Probably a lot more broken
And there’s always the self-abuse I created
But the point is
I have never felt more authentically me
than perhaps when I was a young child
It’s all up to us how, when, and where we travel
The road can either be the original planned one
Or – you can take a detour
When I was 18, a woman who was dressed as a gypsy at a Halloween party read my palm. She looked me in the eye and told me she could see what I was planning and that I absolutely should not do it!
It was creepy! Because just so happens I had a HUGE thing planned. I was eloping in one month….leaving the security of family (and really…really…pissing them off!) leaving a career that I loved, and heading to a life filled with lies, drugs, anger, and abuse!
It was somewhere around Tennessee that we made the call to my parents…far enough away that my Father couldn’t get us. But the very, very, sad thing is that all I wanted was for my Father to come and get me. I knew that I was making a huge mistake and I just wanted to go home.
My Father’s reaction was so filled with hate and anger it made me dig my boots in and finally, 600 miles away I stood up to him for the first time in my life! All I really wanted was to be a little girl and go home, but this newfound bravery was so enticing I told him we were already married and there was nothing he could do about it!! Phew!! Wow! It felt really good to cause him that pain which didn’t come close to the years of horrible abuse he inflicted on our family.
In a moment life can change. In that moment, my life changed forever. I had broken free from the abuse. Or so I thought at that time. Apparently the gypsy knew that I only traded one tyrant for another. And my tyrants were always disguised in love.
Life is filled with decisions we have to make. Looking back you can see the really huge moments that irrevocably changed your path, or if you are lucky you can recognize them when they are happening. The truth about detours is they put you on roads that you otherwise would not have traveled. I wouldn’t change a thing because my son is my gift that I received in the detour. 🙂 And I know how lucky I am that my detour has finally led me back to my intended path…..Blessitude!