The Long Night & Haiku ~ 12/16/14

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

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I stayed awake all night a few ago…No…I wasn’t reliving my teens pulling an all-nighter, partying, having fun.  I stayed awake all night, crying, and praying, and writing.

I am at a place in my life that intellectually I knew would arrive, but emotionally I never wanted to think about.

The Momma was very sick and hospitalized.  Then it seemed she lost her will to live.  It was so unlike her – she fought her whole life.  It was unbearable to me because if she could give up the fight for her life what would that mean for me?  Would it be possible that I would ever give up?

 

You look me in the eye

And you tell me you will try

But it’s all a bold faced lie

And I hang my head and cry

Because you soon will die

And I have to question why

Should I simply say goodbye?

 

I wrote the above words that night.  It was the beginning of a very personal writing that was interspersed with prayers to God and cries for help.  Not only help with the current situations I find myself in, but help with the emotional upheaval that the past three weeks resurrected in my soul’s heart.

The sun rose and suddenly there was clarity.  I understood that her failure to fight was because she was afraid.  She wanted to continue to live but she didn’t know how to do it.  And then God provided the answers which, if I had been paying attention, were right in front of my eyes the whole time.

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“For his anger lasts only a moment, but his favor lasts a lifetime; Weeping may remain for a night, but rejoicing comes in the morning.” Psalm 30:5

 

Haiku ~ 12/15/14

Oh how I rejoice

When your favor is revealed

Love for me is shown

 

Things I did not see

Standing right in front of me

Vision is restored

 

Full of Thankfulness

For blessed understanding

You show me the way

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I wish for you all to stay strong in your faith, especially during hard times.  I have found that the harder I lean into it, the faster my “vision” becomes clear…the faster my mind hears the words that are placed in my heart.  The words that are sent, the people who are put in my path, the strength that I find right when I think I have no more to give…that is what I am talking about…that is what I am so blessed and full of gratitude for…Blessitude!!!  Thank You!

❤ Lorrie

12/16/14

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Top photo courtesy of en.wikipedia.or
“The Night Sky” Mount Hood National Forest

 

 

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My healing journey on the continuum of "It's all wrong" to "It's all right!" I love art and the creative process, reading, writing, and playing tennis.

74 thoughts on “The Long Night & Haiku ~ 12/16/14

    1. Oh…your prayers can be felt and I am so grateful 🙂 It’s funny…but as hard as the time I am living in right now is, it is opening my mind…heart…and soul to so much understanding!! Thank you…and WELCOME!

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    1. Oh Maggie!! Thank you dear heart. I am so uplifted by your support ❤ Yes…that is when we need to practice faith the most!!! I agree…and I am so grateful. I hope that you had a very Merry Christmas…and I wish you so many blessings for the New Year!!! Much love ❤

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  1. Praying!!! What a beautiful evolution in clarity! I was just talking to my cousin the other day. It is a hard time of life. When we were in our teens… it was a shock to the system when people got very sick and or even died. Now it is a common. But those of us who know the Lord, Well, Joy DOES come in the morning!
    xoxo

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  2. I’m thankful Lorrie you found God’s comfort in the Storm, I lost my Mum a few years ago too, she also was a very strong woman but her strength was in the wrong foundation which let her down in the end but I was reassured by God that she would find the right door. We never walk alone and the foundation that we all need is Jesus, He is a Solid Rock.

    Isaiah 43:1-3 – Do not be afraid, for I have ransomed you. I have called you by name; you are mine. When you go through deep waters and great trouble, I will be with you. When you go through rivers of difficulty, you will not drown! When you walk through the fire of oppression, you will not be burned up; the flames will not consume you. For I am the LORD, your God, the Holy One of Israel, your Saviour.”

    Christian Love – Anne.

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    1. Anne…Thank you sooooooo much!! Your words bring such comfort and are full of reminders of hope and faith! We are all adjusting…and I am so grateful for all that I learn. This is a wonderful life so full of blessings. I know that I never walk alone 🙂 Thank you for your beautiful words ❤

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