Freak Accident ~ Broken

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I didn”t mean to hurt you…

Oh, but you did.

In fact, I didn’t know that I did.

I wondered about that as I cried through my pain.

I heard something but I didn’t think it was my place to reach out to you.  I don’t know you.

I knew you heard me cry…and I ask you…do you need to know someone to comfort them?

Well, it would have been uncomfortable.

I’m terribly sorry that offering a fellow being comfort would cause you discomfort…I am truly sorry about that.

And I am sorry that I hurt you.

Thank you.

I had a very freak accident yesterday.  I was in a public restroom and as I was closing my door with my hand around the edge of it, a woman pushed her door open harder than you could ever imagine.  The two doors were traveling towards each other…with my hand right smack in the middle of the explosive crash!

I think I made it worse because I yanked my hand back at the impact.  I know I screamed…and then I cried.  And the woman went about her business washing and drying her hands and promptly left.  She never said a word.

My hand immediately swelled and the restaurant staff got me ice.  They wanted me to see the lifeguards and make an incident report.  The lifeguards strongly suggested I get an x-ray.

I took the ice off after 20 minutes, and my hand was so grotesquely swollen I couldn’t look at it!  I did go to get an x-ray and I could not be more grateful that nothing was broken 🙂

It is very painful and very swollen.  I can’t use it so the reality of what our dominant hand does for us is very real to me.  I have thought a lot about the things I do with my hands and I am so blessed.  First I thought about the tennis match this morning that I would not be able to play for our team…then I thought about my latest art project that I was so excited to finish…then, in horror, I thought I couldn’t write!!!

It made me realize how much I take my body for granted.  It made me realize that life has the possibility of changing drastically in a millisecond.   It made me wonder how many times people hurt other people and have no idea that they did.  Worse than that, it made me wonder how many people know that they have hurt someone and are able to just walk away.

My words above were an imaginary conversation I had with the woman who must have “kicked” her stall door open.  I will always wonder who she was, what she thought, and what she might have been going through in her life.  It made me feel a little better to write about it.

I wrote the above yesterday.  Today my hand feels much better…in fact I am using it to type …not without pain…but at least it moves and the swelling has gone done some.  The photograph was taken at the beach restaurant a few months ago…I didn’t know what photo to include.  I thought about posting a photo of my hand…but it was so icky!

Blessitude

Lorrie ❤

1/21/15

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My healing journey on the continuum of "It's all wrong" to "It's all right!" I love art and the creative process, reading, writing, and playing tennis.

89 thoughts on “Freak Accident ~ Broken

  1. We can gain so much from the experience of loving someone, despite their actions. This adds to the world of love, this is in no way saying you accept their actions, rather we heal when we flow through it with compassion for ourselves and others: at the highest level for someone like you Lorrie is to embrace her in love( despite the action). You are right when you say you have no idea what has happened to her. We could say with some conviction that this type of action has been bestowed on her. This type of love for another is in the realm of unconditional, and I believe you have the capacity for this. Many think they would be a Martyr if they did not get angry. It is strength that loves more than their pain. (or our pain for that matter.) I love you Lorrie, and I know You will heal fast because you will keep your heart open and forgive. See this as an opportunity to Love even more. Not to many may agree with this and that is OK too. Sending Love and Light. Much Love Robyn

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    1. Thank you my friend, dear Heart to Heart Robyn!!!! Yes! Your words go straight to the heart of the matter…and I KNOW that this event is a huge learning opportunity. I embrace the unconditional love…and there is a piece of myself that I can see in this woman who is so obviously hurting. Hurt people hurt…that is for sure …but it could also be said that healing people heal!!! And if I can be a conduit in even the tiniest way…if I can pass the love along and help to ease even one person’s pain….I am so happy and so grateful to do it!!

      I not only forgive her, but I forgive every person who hurt me and didn’t acknowledge it…and most importantly I forgive myself! I love you too and I am so grateful for the day that we landed on the same page 😉 I wish you a beautiful weekend full of love!! ❤

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  2. aww am sorry that happened to you Lorrie but glad nothing is broken! Hope the pain is gone and you feel all better soon…It is so true all the things we take for granted until something like this happens and you begin to appreciate these wonderful things about ourself…the same thing happened after my fall on christmas day…when i busted my lip and chipped my tooth! had never given a second thought about it until then but again was grateful it wasn’t anything that could not be fixed, …Much love and thank you for sharing this beautiful reminder…<3 (PS: I do think she should have apologized to you but then again we cannot control anyone else's action apart from out own so am glad you let it out this way)

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    1. Lorrie,
      All I can say is OUCH! You made NY heart cling to yours later in your comments likening your past pain to having to ride it alone. And not EVEN being acknowledged by the one who caused it.
      And your imagery of not being able to look, well we ALL can relate.
      But that woman was a coward. I am sure she thought about it all night. But your point is a good one. I t makes us all really see with a great metaphor, how uncomfortable it is for the pain
      givers to acknowledge their actions. Great food for thought! Praying for healing of your hand.

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      1. Thank you Di! I understand most people would not want to deal with the aftermath of causing someone pain…I suppose that is human nature. It is okay…I feel better about the whole thing now. I know it brought up some areas for me that I still need to work on 🙂

        Thank you so much for writing…I appreciate your concern…and it is good to hear from you 🙂 How is everything? How is the book? Much love to you Di. Enjoy the rest of your weekend ❤

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        1. Lorrie
          Praying for fast healing! I loved how you made an accident into a spiritual journey! For me too! I love my new job! Hoping to get back to my book soon with fresh eyes. Today is my Friday, off in an hour😊 Thank you. Enjoy your weekend as well💖

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    2. Dear Neha!! I am so sorry you fell and broke your lip and tooth!! I feel I should have known this…if you posted about it I am truly sorry I missed it!! I pray for your well being…and hope you are all fixed up 🙂

      Yes…Thank you so much for your well wishes. My hand is much better…and I am working hard to resume all of my normal activities. Thanks so much for your love it means a lot to me!! ❤

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      1. aww thank you and it’s ok I didn’t post about it …so no need to be sorry at all thank you so much for your kind wishes and am so glad your hand is better, my tooth doesn’t hurt but still waiting to see dentist to get that chip filled haha…Big hugs! ❤

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  3. Sometimes I think people just don’t have the tools to be vulnerable in the situation in which they find themselves. It is not meant to be hurtful, I don’t think. We panic… Once when I was a boy I was riding my bike through the city and a car pulled out of a parking garage right onto the sidewalk. I skidded into it and rolled the bike on its side to come to a stop. As I stood and pulled the bike up between my legs to walk it back like you would a motorcycle, she backed up, perhaps trying to help, or perhaps because she had pulled too far forward to begin with, and her tire stopped on top of my foot. I wasn’t really present, but was sort of watching myself bang on her driver side window. She promptly pulled forward, a bit too sharply, and kind of shot my foot out the back of the wheel. Then drove off… Somehow, I didn’t even have a broken bone… I could tell from her face when I was banging on the window: she just didn’t have the tools to deal with the situation in which she found herself…

    Michael

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    1. Oh, Michael…how terrible….some lady popped a wheelie off of your foot!! I bet you remember it like it was yesterday. I have to admit that the words you wrote are so true…they are just not equipped to deal with the situation. I know that I have caused my share of pain to others, and this incident really made me look back and consider what I did and how uncomfortable it made me. The most uncomfortable thing I can think of was breaking up with a boyfriend…and I did it at a wedding!!! And to be honest I would have loved to run and hide and never have to see him again…so maybe…just maybe I can understand a little of what she felt.

      Thanks for sharing, Michael 🙂 Hope the rest of your weekend is super!

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  4. I’m sending love to both your hands, as the undamaged one might have to do more work for a while. such important work is done with our hands! I’m remembering that at a college dance, almost 40 years ago, I was very upset about something (I don’t even remember what it was now) and accidentally slammed a door on someone’s finger. I was storming out of somewhere, caught up in my own drama, and didn’t know I had hurt her. Later that night, when some one told me, I was still angry, but also embarrassed. I don’t have a clear memory of apologizing. I believe I did. I sure hope I did. I still feel bad about it after all these years. I am sorry, that your hand was hurt. I feel like I’m apologizing for the woman who hurt you, though she is not me. I hope your hand heals well and quickly.

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    1. Oh, JoAnne…Thank you for your beautiful love!! I’m so sorry I made you relive that time in your life! You, apologizing…does help in a strange way 🙂 In hindsight I see that it must have been the woman’s anger at something else that created the event in the first place…and then, as you said…it is very difficult to go from full on anger to love in a millisecond (although it is my wish to be able to accomplish this!) As we are all connected your apology helps us all…and my forgiveness…which I give to you freely will also help that woman!! Thank you for helping me see beauty 🙂 ❤

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    1. For sure…most doors swing in to avoid this (I used to wonder why they did because it is so hard to get into a stall sometimes!) My hand still has healing to do…as does that woman I suppose! Thanks for stopping by and commenting 🙂

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  5. Hoi Lorrie, vielen Dank für die schöne Geschichte und deine Erkenntnisse daraus. Ja, wir Menschen gehen durch’s Leben, ohne zu wissen, wie gut wir es haben wenn wir nichts haben. ;-). Ich hoffe, deine Hand ist wieder okay.
    Liebe Grüsse. Ernst

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    1. Thank you so much, Ernest! I agree with you completely…and we should all count our blessings every day! I have some residual pain in my hand when I use it certain ways…but I know I am healing more every day! Thank you for caring…many blessings to you! 🙂

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  6. Some people can be so rude and self-absorbed! You just aren’t made that way, and thank the Lord for that! I totally forgot about your tennis matches. Are you still doing those? Let me know when you have time..

    Steve

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      1. I’ve never liked the public restrooms much. I mean I really must be in need before I go to one, even in a nice restaurant!

        🙂

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