I Remember…An Odyssey ~ Alone

This post is a part of a series of writings during a time of deep healing and transformation.  The following are links to the other writings in the series in chronological order:  Introduction & Haiku, The Funny Thing About Truth, The Journey To…, He Said I Have Anger, The Long Sleepless Night, Broken Arrow, Safe, Alone, On The Verge, Shred, The Thread, Vindication, Another Inch…Perhaps a Mile, Emancipation, Forgiveness

*Disclaimer:  Some of this subject matter is sensitive in nature.  Please read and explore in safety.

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Though we’re never truly alone

This is what I need right now

I feel a shift

I feel my soul trying to communicate with me

But there is so much noise competing for my attention

The silence I found in the canyon was truly astounding

And it made me realize that I have cluttered my life

With noise

White noise

Background noise

Ringing

Screaming

Blocking out the sounds that will tell me the secrets

Tell me truth!

My mind and body are altered

It’s true

It’s all part of healing they say

Must work through this

It is necessary

But I can’t help feel that at times I am losing my mind

And I can’t quite decide if that is a good thing…or not?

Is it not this mind that has tried to control every situation

Every person

Every hurt

Every fear?

Is it not this mind

That decided not remembering was the best road to take

It decided the pain would be too great

And I would be better off being kept in the dark

Yes…it is that mind

But I don’t like the dark

I want to be in the light

The light soothes my soul

And it caresses the broken parts of me

Should I not have the opportunity to fully heal

To banish fear

To remember what it is that I am so afraid of

So that I can see if I am actually afraid

Or should I continue to live in this limbo

In the darkness that entombs my mind

Shackles my heart

Exposes my fear

And leaves my body laying broken at the bottom of a well

Dear Angels, guides, God…hear my heart screams

Hold me safe in love’s arms

Feed me and nourish me

Use me for good

H E L P me…

I AM ready

Blessitude

Lorrie ❤

3/29/15

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My healing journey on the continuum of "It's all wrong" to "It's all right!" I love art and the creative process, reading, writing, and playing tennis.

52 thoughts on “I Remember…An Odyssey ~ Alone

  1. Lorrie, I know exactly how it feels to have noise clouding my thoughts and snuffing out peace. I even wrote a song (not sure if it’s finished yet):
    Drop your thought inside my mind
    Carve your dreams into my heart
    Whisper the words I need to hear
    They silence the screams and noise out there
    Be still at peace to my soul I speak
    Worries and tensions becoming weak
    In the light of your face and no one else
    Wholeness restored, I find myself.
    –I even pray this often when I have my quiet time in the morning. I sit there with my cup of coffee and pray to the ‘Light of the World’ these very words. He’s the one that brings light into my darkness, calms the raging seas in me, gives me peace in place of anxiety. Oh how I love that peace that passes all understanding.
    🙂 ❤

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    1. Staci…I am crying reading these words!!! Your writing is so beautiful and heartfelt!! Yes “peace that passes all understanding!” I wish that for you…I wish that for all humanity!! We can turn down the noise that is inside our mind by turning up the love that is in our soul!!! Much love my friend…I appreciate your soul ♡♡♡

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