It screams from my mind
crawls out of every pore
I know this feeling
I have lived it before
This kind of recognition is not warm and fuzzy
Welcoming home a loved one after a long absence
This is an unwanted traveler amongst the roads of life
The hitchhiker with bad intentions
I will be having surgery this week with general anesthesia. It is not my first…but it is the first time I have felt fear prior to the surgery.
And fear is not good in any situation. Then my fear escalated to a full blown panic attack when someone told me a story about how the same operation completely ruined a person’s knee!! I know she didn’t mean to frighten me…so I had to wonder why it happened.
I realized it was a reality check for me. I had been waffling between love and fear and I knew this happened so that I could get myself in the perfect loving energy I needed before the surgery.
I completely trust my surgeon and I know that I will have the best possible outcome. I know this feeling too. It’s called love and it’s called knowing. And it’s beautiful!!
Clarity of mind
full of trust, loving kindness
ready to go forth