Stretched beyond imagination
Strung so tightly
Stress to the breaking point
Plucked like a guitar string
The highest pitch possible
Hard to believe you could ever be normal again
But suddenly the tide changes
The hand wrapped around the tether that pulled so tight
Loosens the grip ever so slightly
And like a rubber band that’s been stretched and released
You find yourself
Maybe not quite back to feeling like yourself
But oh so close
And the funny thing is
That maybe this new version
The one that’s been stretched
And just a little bit looser
The one that faced the fear
And looked it right in the eyes
Looks good on you!
I am amazed at our ability to “bounce-back” from difficult situations. As I continue this healing journey, both physical and emotional, I notice that every obstacle I overcome makes me stronger and more resilient.
The stronger I become, the stronger I want to become. The more I face my fears and stare them in the eyes, the more my power rises and demands to be felt!
I recently tried to paddle board, something that I knew in my soul I had to do. I was scared to death, and if I am honest with you, I feel that same fear every single time I push off land.
Balance. There’s something about balance. You have to balance the board while you carry it; no easy feat. It is not heavy, weighing in at 28 pounds, but it is huge and awkward to maneuver. And then there’s the part where you have to actually stand on it while the ocean is rocking to and fro. Yes, there is a deep connection on any given day between my ability to feel balanced in my life and my ability to stand on the board.
And that is why I opted to enter calm waters to get acquainted with “Issy,” on my second try. The first time I put her in the water was in the ocean, and let’s just say that I learned the art of “falling” that day. Is there a lesson here?
Standing on my own two feet…on WATER!! I remember this day so well! I paddled for an hour and NEVER FELL OFF! The water was so calm, though kind of icky due to all the run-off from massive amounts of rain. It was so peaceful, until something HUGE jumped from the banks into the water about six feet to the front and left of my board. I was looking elsewhere, but screamed when I heard it and then saw the ripples in the water. I pulled the paddle close to me and tried to become invisible. I DID NOT LOOK BACK! To say I felt fear is an understatement. But then a beautiful little butterfly flew all around me, and I knew it was a message that I was safe.
Since that day I have made peace with the fact that what jumped into the water was probably an alligator. While I talk about facing your fear and staring it in the eyes, I don’t really see myself looking into a gator’s eyes! So subsequent ventures have been in the ocean…where there aren’t any scary creatures…RIGHT?
The moral to this story is that while fear lives in our head, it can take up residence in our whole being. It can paralyze us and stifle forward movement. I am only just beginning to understand how fear has impacted my life, and I always thought I was fairly brave.
The best way to break the cycle is to face your fear…AND DO IT ANYWAY! We are resilient creatures, so even if it doesn’t work out the first time, we pick ourselves up, dust ourselves off, stare fear in the eyes…and try again!
Sweet Blessings to you all <3