When the voices from the past
the ones you thought you turned off
slowly start to seep
like a puddle of blood
ever so slowly
so heavy
no boundaries
buried in your DNA
it sweeps through your body
and hits your heart
a knock-out punch
you fall back on the ropes
and slide to the ground
reality meets the past
as you climb to your knees
and then you
REMEMBER
If you have followed this blog for a long time, then you know how hard I have worked on healing my fractured past. You also know that I have many unfinished projects just waiting in the wings to be birthed.
Over the past three months I have worked really hard to finish my card deck (IF THEN AMEN.) Right after I announced it in my last blog post, I was hit with the biggest bout of insecurity – just like a punch to the gut and it took my breath away!
I have to assume that it happened because I announced it so proudly…
All the old demons raised their heads and went to work on stealing my happiness. I wish I could say that I was able to squash them instantaneously, but I can’t. I let them bother me for a day – maybe a little longer, and then I shut it down!
I asked myself:
- Do I really think those things?
- Do I want to feel this way?
The answer to both was a resounding “NO!”
SO I STOPPED THINKING THAT WAY!
And I got back to work!
I’m happy to say that things are moving ahead, and I will send my files off to the printer TODAY (after one more proof.)
I share this post today because it is sad to me that no matter how much we heal, the abuse we suffered in our past is very real and hard to forget. I also share it because no matter what happened in our past, we control our present.
I dedicate this post to anyone who is about to accomplish a goal that means something to them. I offer my sincere congratulations and a wish that you only hear good, positive thoughts in your head. Remember who you are, and know that it is okay to be proud!
Blessitude!
Lorrie <3
09/11/2022
Right On!
Love it, John! A good flashback to the past!
Kudos on your progress with the book and not letting the past bog you down Lorrie. I often let those voices bring me down or keep me from taking action on my dreams. blessings, Brad 💕
I wish there was a way to wipe that out for everyone, Brad! I really think that it is a “practice” that we have to develop and then work on…constantly! It helped when I asked myself those two questions. Maybe you will think of that the next time and it will help! THAT would make me happy!!
Have a super week, Brad!
Thank you Lorrie. I have practiced at times, but the last few years, I’m focused more on acceptance and daily life.
Well, here’s to daily life being everything you have ever wanted it to be! Love and light, Brad!
Wonderful!!! It takes courage and a real determined effort not to get sucked back into old ways of limited and negative thinking. I’m so proud of you my friend. And you should be proud of you too. You told those voices where to go!! Go girl! Big hugs to you 💗 xx
Hehe…thanks, Miriam! And you are right…I did tell them where to go 😉😉 It amazes me how they think they can sneak back…when you least expect it and try to take over again!
Hope things are going well sorting through your belongings and deciding what to keep…and where to go! I can remember clearing out A LOT of STUFF. And then the next year I would be looking high and low for things and I would think…”no way did I get rid of that!!” But apparently, I must have!
Sending lots of good energy, love, and light 💜
Your comment made me smile Lorrie. I’m sure I’ll look back, like you, and wonder what I did with a lot of my stuff. 🤨
And yeah, I know all too well how those sneaky thoughts try to infiltrate, I’ve had a few, even in this process I’m in. I’ve started writing a blog post about it, but even that’s all over the place lol! But yes, it’s all going well, as crazy as it is. Thanks for thinking of me. Big hugs and love and all the best with your project. I’m so happy for you. 💗
Thanks, Miriam 😊 I will post about it soon…but I feel like maybe you would be interested. There is a new app that will be available in the Apple store on Friday called “DECKIBLE.” It is an app for card decks similar to what Audible is for books on tape. I remember your book you shared on your birthday…with lovely photos and beautiful sayings…this would be a perfect place for you to show your lovely work!! My card deck was approved last Friday and will be for sale digitally there…and I am printing deck also. But I think you could make BEAUTIFUL card decks if you were inclined. Check it out…Deckible.com. There are benefits to being a charter.member…which would mean to have your deck up and approved before a 42 day count down that starts this Friday.
Hang in there…you will get through this busy time and everything will be great!
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Thanks for the heads up Lorrie, that sounds interesting and something that might work for me (when I have more time!) I’ll check it out when it comes out on Friday. Thanks again! Especially for your support. 💗 xx
I knew the timing was tough for you, but hopefully the app will be successful and you may get involved some time down the road.
Have a super week, Miriam. Remember to take some time for yourself and whenever it feels like it is overwhelming, take a break in nature. 😊💜
Ahh, thank you Lorrie, I will indeed. You have a great week too. 💚🙏
Yes yes yes!!! Best message, Lorrie!!
I would say your previous post wasn’t proud enough! You keep on going and be very, very kind to yourself! 💗💗💗
Also thank you! Your message had reached me too 😃💗🙌🏻
Thanks my dear friend 💜 I’m busy loving myself…you can bet on it 😉 I wish old habits didn’t break through at times, but it’s so important to catch them quickly and recognize them for what they are.
I hear you and those old habits are now stepping stones! They will boost you to your next level the second you recognize them for what they are. Be glad they come! Lol but I totally understand for when I am experiencing it, I’m like—really, again? Lol 😆
Your light is bright, Lorrie!!! 💗🙌🏻💗
Thanks for seeing it…and magnifying it, Ka! You make me smile and nod with understanding. Have a super week 😊💜
Lorrie, I love this! So often we sabotage our best efforts with doubt – it certainly arises from negative past experiences.
Recently, some fantastic opportunities have come my way. I am opening my soul to abundance and trying to let everything in. I was wondering why I was doubting and dragging my feet a little – but sometimes it is those past feelings that bubble up. You are my inspiration!
Awww, Judy!!! I want to hear all about the fantastic opportunities! You are so deserving of every wonderful thing that comes your way…and to be open to it and to let it all in is just beautiful!! I can’t wait!!
And yes…doubt is a dream killer and it wouldn’t be there had it not been drummed into my young mind 😔 But that is not who I am or want to be…so I say let’s get to it!!! Let’s make all our dreams come true!! 😊💜
YES, YES, YES!!! We are dream catchers! I will share with you soon, my friend. Hope Jason is continuing to heal!
Thanks, Judy 💜 He had a few setbacks this week, but then had his best day on Friday. Healing comes in spurts and I guess it really is steps forward and back. Thank you for caring!! And I can’t wait to hear 🦻🦻
Well done Lorrie for climbing back upon your perch and shaking your tail feathers at those old demons..
You know they will always try to drag the light from us down, especially if we allow doubt to creep in… They only need a crack to prize their way in to shatter our confidence..
I am so very proud of you for stopping it in its tracks.
You now KNOW that once you set your intention and KNOW that you are in that vibration of Love and light nothing and I mean NOTHING will ever bring you back down to the place those dark shadows want us to reside..
And Once we learn to love ourselves unconditionally understanding ALL that we are, those Negative entities will have nothing to feed from.. Because we have dissolved the shadows via the light of love within ourselves..
Much love and Blessings dearest Lorrie…. Well done to you with your card deck and I know all will go well… BELIEVE it… and so it is.. <3 <3 <3
I love your answer, Sue 😄💜 It reinforces all the things I have been thinking and know to be true. It has been a journey, and as journeys go, we both know they can curve and sometimes go in circles. I am just so Blessitude that even though there was a crack in which the demons sought to pursue a takeover, I recognized it so very quickly and shut it down.
Thank you for your kind words about my cards! I literally pressed SEND last night and sent the file off to the printer!! It is a strange feeling to have “finished” something…I think I thought I would feel differently. But…I also know that “I” am not done…as I will concentrate on getting them out into the world now 😄
I like it, Sue. I worked very hard…and there were only a few times when maybe there was a glitch and I had to spend hours at a time to figure it out…where it felt like “work.” I have to say that it feels more like my purpose…and all the crazy jobs I had in my lifetime…each and every one of them prepared me to do this work!! I am beyond grateful!!
I send so much love and light. May this week ahead stoke your heart with inspiration…and peace…yes peace 🙏💜
Thank you dear Lorrie. I think when something is a pleasure to create its meant to be created.and I’m certain God and Spirit were and ate guiding you hand and they will guide you further down the road to bring them to success .
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😊😊🙏💜 Thank you, Sue. I am so grateful for your kind words!
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Good for you for fighting back! The old demons will resurface now and then, and sometimes it will seem as if they have the upper hand. But if you don’t give in, they will leave….as you discovered. I think everyone is a work in progress to some extent or another, and it helps to remember that healing is a process, not a “one and done” thing. Sending good thoughts your way!
Hi Ann…I couldn’t agree more 😊 And I think maybe it’s that old perfectionism that takes hold too, that maybe we think we ShOULD be able to heal perfectly…like you said…once and done. Thanks for understanding and for your encouraging spirit. I’m feeling pretty solid, and I like this a whole lot better 😉
Hope all is well by you!