Fear. It possessed their souls. Maybe it has always been there, but for sure it is magnified…wearing a gown…attached to wires…holes being poked in their arms…strangers walk in…modesty walks out…no idea who will touch them…who will hurt them…what are their rights?
Nothing happens until everything does…and then they move with lightening speed and you can barely keep up…and they don’t know what is happening…but they know they are on borrowed time…and they reflect on a life…and the sadness creeps through the cracks in their skin…and they fight!
They’re not done yet…but it is inappropriate…not the right time…not the right words…maybe they didn’t hear the directions…but suddenly everything they do is wrong…and they are labeled “forgetful!”
Water is wet…but thickened by regrets of a voiceless advocate…as buttons are pushed…calls go unheard…alarms ring in the distance…roommates make terroristic threats…
and then there is silence…
you pray for silence
Blessitude
Lorrie
12/4/14
The past week and a half has been one of the most trying of my life. It started with my brother-in-law who contracted MRSA in his leg and was in danger of having it amputated. Then his father had a heart attack, on the same day my mother, “The Momma,” was admitted to the hospital with pneumonia. My brother came to visit The Momma on Thanksgiving Day, and then had a heart attack two days later.
The outcome: Brother-in-law is home and doing well with both legs intact. His father had surgery and is recovering. My brother checked himself out of the hospital after surgery, and I worry if he will follow the strict guidelines that were given to him. And The Momma was moved to an inpatient rehabilitation center, and although down and out at the moment…I expect her to rally soon and work hard to recover.
And me?…I am hanging in there. In times like this it can be so very hard to find the good…but I have an unending faith that everything happens the way it is supposed to. And the only way I got through all of this so far is to look for the things that I am grateful for. I am Blessitude!
I will not have the time to be as present here as I would love to be. I thank you all, wonderful souls, for the support you show me 🙂 I will visit you all as soon as I can. May you all walk in Love and Peace!
<3 Lorrie
((Hugs.))
🙂 Thank you….RECEIVED!! <3
Love will keep you together.
Hariod. <3
Thank you Hariod….words so true!! <3
Give yourself lots of compassion and hugs so you fill your bucket and are there for others.
Here’s a big hug from me.
(((HUG)))
Hi Val! Thank you dear heart!! Yes…love and compassion is what is needed right now! I am grateful for you <3
I walk with you in Love, my friend.
Holding hands!!! <3 Thank you!
Oh, dear! That is a lot Lorrie! I am sending you all my Love and Angel blessings and big hugs as well! You can do this Lorrie, you can be strong for all of them, the Angels will carry you. You are loved by Heaven, avd that Love will keep you comforted! <3 <3 <3 <3 I am here for you! <3
Thank you dear sweet Trini! Yes…I have felt the Angels…I would not have been able to handle this week without their love and comfort!!! I am switching my energy from fear …to love. Sometimes you don’t realize what energy you are in when you are in the midst of a crisis. I just this morning realized it…and with awareness I will pray for help with the change. Much love to you….thank you so much for your support! <3 <3
Hugs to you
<3 I can really feel the "cyber" hug!!!! Thank you Yoshiko!! Much love!
Welcome, Lorrie. Much love to you too
I did hesitate before clicking on “like”, Lady-Lorrie… bon courage, stay healthy, try to be positive and optimistic! my very best and HHH = heartfelt huge hugs… <3
Thank you dear dear Me’lanie! I feel the hug…and I am so aware of my energy right now! Thank you <3
Wow Lorrie. I felt something was amiss. Your faith is amazing and clearly strong enough to move you through this. I’m sending you BIG HUGS, smiles and prayers of healing for you and your family.
Blessings my dear, <3
Oh, Brad! Thank you <3 Yes…it has been an onslaught. I have been on auto pilot…not feeling too much. It all seemed to hit last night and this morning….but I am good. I know what I need to do…and how I need to change my energy. Thank you for the love…and the well wishes. I am truly grateful for your blessings! <3
Hang in there! Your positive attitude in such an inspiration. Hugs and more hugs for you. <3
Thank you Carol! I am so grateful for your support. It has been a hard week and I have realized that I am coming from fear instead of love….that is changing right now! Hope all is well in your world! <3
Loves and lots of hugs dear… <3 🙂 <3
You are so sweet…Thank you Maniparna! <3 We are all going to be okay! 🙂
Hugs and prayers being sent your way… <3
I’m so grateful for your support! I am so blessed and full of gratitude…Blessitude!! <3
Oh Lorrie. I’m sorry to hear this. I’m a believer in rough times strengthening us. Like gold being refined in the fire. I never would have come to my faith if it hadn’t been for how rough my life had gotten. I will pray for you, my friend.
🙂 <3
Hi Staci…Thank you dear heart! Yes…I too believe the same thing. And I am trying to make sure that I am living in the moment…and taking it all in. It is hard…but I have a very strong faith and I know I will get through this hard time. Thank you so much for your beautiful support. I hope all is well in your world! <3 <3
Oh Lorrie. Yes, I’m sure you will get through this hard time. You are in my thoughts and prayers.
As for my world, a little hectic and stressful right now. Trying to sell our house, big move in January, kids last day at school for the year. I don’t handle stress well. It makes me emotional and irritated. Poor hubby.
Blessing to you beautiful friend.
🙂 <3
I will send you prayers also for a smooth stress free transition!! Thank you dear friend <3
Awwww, thanks Lorrie. You’re a sweetie.
🙂 <3
Keeping you in loving kindness.
Oh..thank you so much! I truly appreciate your support 🙂
I am so sorry for all you are going through…I am praying for you and your family, sweet Lorrie!!
Oh Julie…it makes my heart feel good to know that a prayer will cross your lips 🙂 Thank you…so much! I am very tired…both physically and emotionally…but we will all get through this and be stronger because of it! I hope all is well in your world! <3 <3
That is a lot to deal with in such a short time. Glad everyone is recovering. Life is certainly unpredictable and yet your faith can be your strength and a constant source of hope. Much love.
Karen
Thank you Karen! I feel so rooted in my faith and for that I couldn’t be more grateful!! And yes…life is unpredictable. ..that’s for sure! Good reminder to cherish every Single moment! Thank you 🙂 I hope everything is super in your world <3
So so sorry to hear,
Dear Lorrie
that you and your family have been through the wars.
i send healing, strength and love
Always
john
Hi John…you nailed it!! It feels like a battle for sure! Thank you…I really appreciate your well wishes. I know that we will all get through these dark times. Sending you much love! ♡
You are in my thoughts and prayers. Do take care of yourself. I’m so pleased to see the our friend dedicated his post to you today. Maybe that will lift your spirits up a little. Love, N <3
Hi Natalie! Oh….you know it did!!! 🙂 Thank you…your support means more to me than I can say! Much love <3 <3
That is one heck of a week, Lorrie! I’ll keep you in my prayers for calmer waters. xx
Thank you Becky!! I hope all is great for you! <3
Oh Lorrie what a terrible time for you and family.. My heart goes out to you.. Sending you love and my thoughts and prayers are with you and yours.. xox Love Sue xxx <3
Hi Sue…Thank you so much 🙂 I am so grateful for your well wishes. We are all doing fairly well…you know that kind of zombie crisis mode…you don’t feel much..you just put one foot in front of the other. I hope all is super in your world! <3
Oh sweetie. Glad all are still recovery. Hope rehab puts the pep in your moms step.
Hi Wendy…me too!! Thank you so much…I feel we haven’t talked in a while…hope all is great in your neck of the woods!! <3
Your presence is felt here. I sent lots of love <3
Thank you dear Laurie!!! Received with gratitude! <3
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I’m sorry to hear you were going through all these troublesome things and health issues of your family. Well, we really can only hope it’s going to be better tomorrow as it was today. You are strong. It’s great everything is better already and everybody is recovering. Have a peaceful and blessed weekend!
Thank you dear Inese…I appreciate your wonderful support! Slowly but surely. <3
Lorrie, It is through trying times that we find the depth of our light. You have created a deeply moving support system here where all of us send you love and light. As a wise man once said to me, all is in perfect timing even in trying times. “We can not do for another that they are cannot step into themselves”.
Know that God surrounds you will the most powerful light you can imagine. I was suppose to see this tonight as i could not find any of my notifications when wordpress changed its format. Knowing this to is in perfect timing! Heart to Heart Robyn
Thank you dear Heart to Heart Robyn!! Yes…I believe everything you said and I am so grateful to read your words…they confirm what lives in my heart!! Thank you dear friend…it is a very trying time. The Momma has always been so strong…and so healthy. Even though I know the inevitable. ..I never seriously considered her leaving the earth plane…and now it seems unbearable to think about 🙁 Every time I see her she appears so unstable…it looks like she will recover and be able to go home (with a little more help) and then it looks like there is no way she could go back to her home. She was such an independent woman…made it through so many trying times. I release these worries into God’s hands many times per day…but not before it makes my heart cry a little. Much love to you…and thank you so much for sending your love! 🙂 <3
MY Mom has been living in my Heart for 8 years now. She passed in 2005. I HEAR you and KNOW you and Momma are in Gods hands with warm white light! Blessings my friend! As we say our deepest journey of self love has us realize we live through love, and rest in knowing this eternal truth that nothing lasts forever except the truth of eternal life through love.
“Living in your heart!” I love love love this! Thank you dear friend!! <3 <3
Wow. It’s hard to know what to say. I’m sorry to hear about your troubles. Your strength is inspiring. I hope your mother and the rest of your family make a swift recovery. <3
Hi Sarah…thank you! I understand that it is hard to know what to say…I am walking through this truly living in the moment (or at least reminding myself to) for when my mind races to trying to figure out what the future will be …I feel so out of control…and just keep repeating “I don’t know!” I must stay in Faith…and stay in the moment. Thank you so much for your words of comfort. I hope all is well with you! 🙂 <3
Thank you. We’ve been through a bit of a rough patch – son’s broken leg and daughter getting bullied – but thankfully, we’re almost through it now and lessons have been learned. These tough episodes are like being tempered in a fire, aren’t they?
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Yes, Sarah!! I’m so sorry that you and your family are going through rough times…but you are correct…it will makes us all stronger! Much love!
I’m praying for you and your family.
Thank you so much!!! We can really…REALLY use them right now <3
Dear friend I am sending you strength, love and support. xoxo Know that you are embraced by HIS Love and mine as well. xo
Oh, Yvonne….it has been so hard. I was in complete darkness….but I never lost faith!! He answers my prayers. I rest in the knowledge that EVERYTHING is going to be okay as long as love stays in my heart! I have thought of you often….I pray for you dear soul…dear friend. I send you so much love <3 <3 <3