Hard to express things
If I live in a bubble
Coagulation: the act of changing from a liquid into a thickened mass
Have I become a thickened mass?
Or is the clot that formed in my calf a warning…beware.
You are not allowing life to flow freely to you.
Everything that happens is meant to happen.
Every lesson you are offered is there for a reason.
Every step you take, even the steps with pain, take you closer to the realization of your soul.
It has been a trying time of late. Many changes have occurred and I realize now that even though I have weathered the storms much better than I might have four years ago, I can still see that I have a propensity to try to control life. I can almost act a bully as I hold on, squeeze, and try to reshape the events that appear like a lump of molding clay.
I have a preconceived notion of what life is “supposed” to look like, “supposed” to be. When it doesn’t fit that mold I revert to the feelings of helplessness and fear and I somehow, mistakenly believe that I have the power to change things.
As I recuperate from my knee surgery and the subsequent blood clot in my calf, and the allergic reaction to the first blood thinner I was put on, my wish is to have patience (as a very dear friend reminded me 🙂 ) and grace, and to allow life to flow unimpeded…without coagulation…and to accept whatever appears next.
*The artwork is mine 😉