The dust settles
Unmoving over mountains of hurt
And the sun did indeed rise as you knew it would
The war has ended, not with a peaceful solution, but the incessant battering has abated long enough for you to catch your breath and realize that the pain in your body has lodged itself because you allowed anger and fear to take up residence again
It edges out the love and the old feelings of anger and impatience have been creeping up on you
Yes. Old habits are hard to break completely
There are ties that stay
Possibly a tiny string
But that energy mends quickly and suddenly there it is…the blood which gives it life is flowing freely and you wake up when the screaming you hear is coming from you
And you behaved exactly as he taught you to behave
And shame starts to shine from the depths of the bottomless hole where your soul used to be
Your son tries to console you and says, “But…that’s the person he made you.”
And I respond with, “But it’s not the person I MADE ME!”
And then Joel Osteen said, “You were listening to the wrong Father!”
And I said, “YES!”
Blessitude!
Lorrie <3
11/14/16
POSTS IN THE SERIES
(Links will become active after each writing is posted)
1). Consequences ~ The Fishing Expedition
2). Consequences ~ The Fallout
3). Consequences ~ The Bottom Line
4). Consequences ~ The Continuum of Light
Lorrie, this gave me goosebumps!!! Thank you for this bit of awareness today. thank you for sharing yourself.
You inspire me Kim…and you encourage me!! That’s the kind of family I want!! ♡
There is such amazing insight in this post — and series. Thank you Lorrie. <3
You are so welcome, Louise ♡ And I in turn thank you…and everyone who reads my words and offers such love and compassion in return!! I am BLESSITUDE ♡♡♡
Beautifully said.
Thanks, Marlene! Sometimes when I read my words back…they scare me a little. But they are my truth. Hope that you are super wonderful and I will be over to check you out shortly. Blessings dear friend! ♡
Oh Lorrie.. so enlightening my friend.. And you are now finding more of YOU.. Within each step and each word.. xxx Love and Blessings xx <3 xxx
Thank you , Sue! And yes…that is what it feels like 🙂 The more I take out the more room there is for me to stretch out…kick my feet up…grab a bowl of popcorn…and say ahhhhhh! 😉 Love ♡
Brilliant… 😉 Keep stretching.. xxx
Like Kim, I felt the power and truth of this post as tingles in my body. I’ve been letting the fear and anger fester a bit lately too. Time to listen to my spirit/ heart/ God/ voice of love. Let’s rise up together in love.
Here we go, Brad!!! We can grab hold of a balloon in the Thanksgiving day parade…and rise up…untethered 😉 I think there are ebbs and flows…I used to get worried when I would slide back but now I know that’s normal. Much love…many blessings ♡
Agreed about the ebbs and flows. And upward spirals when we feed the love and work together. 🙂
Yayyyy!!! Y’all..
let’s rise up together…
We’ll all hold hands! Reminds me of Bruce Springsteen’s song!
There’s so much wisdom in these words… and I love the picture in this post! It evokes lots of emotion 😊
Hi Julie 🙂 Thanks for commenting. It makes me feel good to hear you see wisdom in my words. The picture in the post will be the same photograph in all 7 posts of the series…but they will all be manipulated in a program to look different. Thanks again…hope all is super by you ♡
Ah yes…
Very moving Lorrie. 🙏
Thank you, Val…I was fairly moved when I wrote it 😉 I appreciate you and the peace you bring with you. I am finding my way back to peace…and it feels good! ♡
When our heart and soul starts to feel at ease, we know we are on the right track. 💛
I love the painting! Did you do this?
Hi Bela. I took the photograph and then played with an editing program..all the posts in the series will be different versions of the same photo. I really liked this one also…and thought it would be a cool photo. Blessings ☀
Realizing that, in a way, each of us is his or her own mother and his or her own father, that may be a secret of Wisdom! Your posts about consequences are also about responsability! Thank you for sharing such deep and touching words my dear Friend ♥
Thank you, my dearest!! When you said, “responsibility,” you brought an AHA! moment to me! I don’t think I viewed it this way and now that I think of it I wonder how I missed it! Yes…it is a responsibility…to ourselves… to learn and to grow through these trials and it is also a responsibility to share. Much love to you. Sending lots of light ♡♡
Yes Lorrie so True, there is only One Heavenly Father the rest are counterfeit but so many imagine they have made it without Him, only to find emptiness when they walk through the wrong gate along the wrong path.
Matthew 7:13-14 Enter ye in at the strait gate: for wide is the gate, and broad is the way, that leadeth to destruction and many there be which go in thereat: Because strait is the gate and narrow is the way which leadeth unto life and few there be that find it.(KJV)
Christian Love Always – Anne.
Hi Anne! Thank you! When I heard that phrase I immediately had a sense of “yes!” For all the years I longed for a different human father, I now realize that I have been protected, loved, and led by the Best Father!! Hope you have a blessed week, Anne! Christian love back to you!
That’s so wonderful to hear Lorrie, yes our Abba Father is Love and all good things come from Him not bad. He never stops Loving us even when we are Yuk! but He does help us to become beautiful within, when we Ask, Seek and Knock.
I don’t know about your Childhood Lorrie, do you have some Links that you can share with me ?.
I had two earthly Dads, my first Dad died when I was 8, he had just become a Christian, his last words were to me, he said; “Be a Sunbeam for Jesus and keep Shinning” I kissed him and he went to Heaven.
My second Dad who Adopted me believed in God but my new Mum didn’t and would not let him share his faith. Dad was kind to us Children but ended up an Alcoholic, he slept most of the time and than died a very unhappy Man.
Because of Mum’s influence and wrong Teaching at School, I became an Atheist for 30 years but than Jesus rescued me and my life changed, I have inner Joy now yes I still have problems but I have the Strength to endure them and some of them have worked out for good, even Blogging came from heartache but has brought me even more Joy even though I have had trouble with hackers and unloving Bloggers but I have also met some very Special Men and Woman including you dear Lorrie that has made it one of the Best things I have ever done for the Lord.
I’m not sure Lorrie if I have shared the Scriptures God gave me to hold onto in the Storms I went through and the Song that uplifts me every time I listen to it, if so I hope you don’t mind me sharing them again.
Isaiah 43:1-3 – Do not be afraid, for I have ransomed you. I have called you by name you are mine. When you go through deep waters and great trouble I will be with you. When you go through rivers of difficulty you will not drown! When you walk through the fire of oppression you will not be burned up the flames will not consume you. For I am the LORD your God The Holy One of Israel, your Saviour.”
Jeremiah 29 :11-12 For I know the thoughts that I think toward you says the LORD, thoughts of Peace and not of evil, to give you a Future and a Hope.
Lamentations 3: 33 For God doth not afflict willingly nor grieve the Children of Men.
http://youtu.be/2DorNUsi5LE
Blessings – Anne.
Hi Anne…thank you for sharing such personal truths. I believe that I remembered God from a very young age, Anne, and as my family did not go to church or even speak about religion or the bible I know was born remembering. I asked my couisin to teach me The Lord’s Prayer and I used to ask her about church and God.
Most all of my writings speak to the pain of my dysfunctional childhood, though I don’t generally write about it specifically. And I am with you…blogging has been such a gift for me…so many wonderful individuals (yourself included) who share so selflessly and support faithfully.
I’m having technical issues…I’ve tried to respond 4 times here now…pray this one goes through!
Have a wonderful week, Anne ☀
I am so happy for you to have the realization and this healing. And I thank you for the healing it sends out into the world. “The pain in your body has lodged itself because you allowed anger and fear to take up residence again. It edges out the love and the old feelings of anger and impatience have been creeping up on you.” That’s what has been happening in me I think. Lets let the love edge out the anger and fear. Love has the power!
Hi JoAnna. Thank you so much for your loving support. Fear can cause so many things inside us that it is not surprising that it would manifest as pain in the body. I’m sorry you are experiencing similar feelings and I know from past experience that the awareness of what is going on is the first step for healing! So I wish you beautiful white healing light and so much love to edge out that fear and pain! When we heal together, we send our light into the fractured world…I just know it!!! Much love to you ♡♡
I love Joel osteen Too… he inspires me too. .
Lorrie.. we do it all the time.. edges out everything and replacing it with all the wrong feelings …
He has a way of saying exactly what I need to hear!! Thanks for your support…it is much appreciated 😉
That’s Joel for you!!!
You are so welcome lorrie
Dear Lorrie, this is powerful stuff, it’s raw, honest, earnest (do people still use that word?). For me, it captured that sense of disturbance and then the awareness that I myself, will not allow myself to be disturbed by events around me. All I can do is remain compassionate and connect to the things that are real and that I love in my life. (i.e. YOU). With heaps of respect, Harlon
Aw! Harlon…thank you 🙂 🙂 And you are also someone I love! And that is what we need to do. We have to put our energies where they will make the most positive influence. It is sometimes easier said than done and so very easy to go down the rabbit hole when nudged! I miss you 😉 and I will be over to catch up with you. Many blessings ♡