CONSEQUENCES ~ The Bottom Line

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What is at the bottom of these feelings

When the layers are pulled back what is it that exists at the core that is causing so much pain

So much anger and animosity

The bottom line is I spent forever ignoring this truth – laying the guilt, blame, and shame on every place except for the one place that it deserves to be

All the years I felt guilty because I thought I was the one who engineered the distance

It was a fallacy I concocted so as not to accept the truth that HE is the one who created the separation

HE is the one who lets time go by

And I hardly ever enter his mind

And apparently if I do I am easily brushed aside

Just like I’ve always been

That is unless he picks up the phone to make one of three phone calls in an entire lifetime

And the motivation to do so is to celebrate…gloat…perpetuate hate…violence…and racism

To the one he knows would not agree

To the one he thinks he can continue to inflict pain upon

To the one he apparently knew was different from the start and so he worked tirelessly to beat her into submission

I get all wrapped up in what should be which only creates a chasm in dealing with what IS!

Yes.  The bottom line is that I have felt excluded my entire life and I finally realize that is a GOOD THING!

Blessitude!

Lorrie ❤

11/16/16

POSTS IN THE SERIES

(Links will become active after each writing is posted)

1). Consequences ~ The Fishing Expedition

2). Consequences ~ The Fallout

3). Consequences ~ The Bottom Line

4). Consequences ~ The Continuum of Light

5). Consequences ~ I Am Not Completely Unscathed

6). Consequences ~ Choices

7). Consequences ~ THANKSGIVING

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My healing journey on the continuum of "It's all wrong" to "It's all right!" I love art and the creative process, reading, writing, and playing tennis.

42 thoughts on “CONSEQUENCES ~ The Bottom Line

  1. Dear Lorrie, I am amazed how you continue to blossom as an artist – and I mean that in every aspect of the creative process. That last line, WOW. It stuck to me like glue:

    The bottom line is that I have felt excluded my entire life and I finally realize that is a GOOD THING!

    Indeed, that is the bottom line and INDEED that is a very good thing.

    Touched and moved, Harlon

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    1. Oh! I’m so happy you feel the power of that line dear Harlon! Isn’t it crazy..? The realization that I was actually graced to be excluded from something I thought I wanted/needed to be a part of!! Ah! It feels good to talk about it…to remember it in this moment. I wish all people could feel this simple truth. Thanks for your warm heart ♡♡♡ And may this realization lay over you like a warm blanket!

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