I am so grateful for where I am. I commented on another blog yesterday that what I read was perfect for me…that the universe had perfect timing. Then I said I would practice what he preached this weekend because I was stranded some place that I did not want to be. The blog owner responded that the universe not only has perfect timing, but perfect placement as well…does it not? To which I thought…ABSOLUTELY!! But then he wrote back…”Wherever you go…There you are.”
I have sat in quiet solitude with that statement and I have explored the many possible reasons I was meant to hear that at this time. I am always amazed when I am shown that even though I believe I am living a conscious life, I still have more to learn.
I was reminded of a Clint Black song:
Wherever you go there you are
You can run from yourself
But you won’t get far
You can dive to the bottom of the medicine jar
But wherever you go….There you are!
My first thought about those words came from my past and this brought up memories of a time when I did whatever I could do to not have a connection with myself. Memories that are painful yet comforting because I no longer run from the things I am feeling. I no longer try to numb myself by “diving into the medicine jar!”
So the lesson I learned is that we can make a decision about how we think about things. It is up to us the spin we put on something. In this case I remembered something negative and therefore questioned this man’s motive…”Why would he say that to me? Look at all the work I’ve done and he wants to shine a light on my negative past! He wants me to know that I can’t escape who I am…can’t run away from myself!”
But what if that was not his intention at all? What if he meant, “yes…it does not matter where you are because you are there in all your beautiful glory and you can choose to see the good in every situation, in every person, in every place. Love. Just love…it does not matter where you are in the world…it matters where you are in your heart!”
I can’t say for sure what he meant, but I know for sure that given the choice of the two I choose the latter. And I am so grateful because even though there was a momentary slip and my first thought went THERE…I had the ability to recognize it very quickly and I had the vision to make the other choice! I am a work in progress…and I see progress! Yayy!!
So my original reason for not being happy about where I was “stuck” this weekend was because I had to leave beautiful, sunny, warm Florida for the northeast with temperatures in the teens and 50 mph winds. And the reason I am grateful, besides for this understanding, is I got to see these beautiful crocus’!