Directly to my heart
the arrow of love pierces my being
the feeling is strong and overwhelming
due to its long absence
but I accept it
I caress it
I honor it
Gone are the dark days
where my first thought was one of guilt
look back on a life
and be responsible for everyone
everything
and the funny thing is that I WAS responsible
just not in the way I thought I was
Now it’s hard to believe the way I berated myself
mistreated myself
mistreated God
for how could I dishonor one of his children
it ran deep
deep in the veins of my soul
I did not even recognize the person who took over
the tyrant with a stick
to beat down anything that was beautiful
anything that was true
I can cry now
and see the wrongness of it all
and I can rejoice now
for all that is right
my heart blossoms
like a beautiful spring flower
bubbles over with love for all
with love for myself
It is new
foreign
but it is nice
and I want to hold on to it
and I want to grab it with both arms
in a death grip
with fear
so that it can never leave me again
panic rises in my throat
at the thought of losing it
at the thought of going back to the ugliness
the vile desecration
BUT THEN I STOP
Breathe!
let it go
relax
release
no fear
I look at the flower that closed so tightly
and I poke it
tap it gently
tap my heart
it’s okay
you are safe
you don’t have to protect yourself
for the act of protection is what closes you off from God
One by one
the petals of my heart loosen
and it is spring all over again
the beautiful flower blossoms
and the love flows freely
and this is where I want to be
this is where I want to stay
this is where I am meant to be
Blessitude
Lorrie
6/8/14
so inspiring and beautiful.
♡Thank you Kimberly! ! Sweet Sunday 🙂
Beautiful poem Lorrie, and amazing last stanza:
“One by one
the petals of my heart loosen
and it is spring all over again
the beautiful flower blossoms
and the love flows freely
and this is where I want to be
this is where I want to stay
this is where I am meant to be”.
I love it 🙂 Take care!
Frédéric…Thank you!! It means so much to me that you are here. I am honored that you found my words moving. Have a wonderfully blessed day! 🙂
The happiness,
The joys,
The love,
is what you & I seek,
Their presence in heart,
Make me smile,
Give me a reason to live.
A token of appreciation for your lovely thoughts.
Regards,
Krishna
Oh Krishna..Thank you for my gift!! 🙂
Reading your words gave me such happiness this morning! Have a very blessed day…I am so thankful 🙂 🙂
“Always try to be somebody’s reason to smile.”
🙂
There is enough pain in this world already, lets make it a better place. Bit by bit, brick by brick.
Lovely poetry! I like it very much.
Thank you Julie…I appreciate you 🙂
Just gorgeous! spring again! I had to read this several times it was so wonderful.
I’m so happy you enjoyed it!! Thank you for spending your time with me 🙂 Blessitude
Just beautiful Lorrie!! Thank you for sharing your loving and open hearted work with all of us. I particularly connect with the line, “One by one the petals of my heart loosen”. Brilliant!! Light & love.
Hi Lisa! Oh….Thank you. I love flowers so it was easy to equate one with my heart 🙂 I like that line too, because I could really feel my heart “opening.” Love to you ♡♡
This is so gorgeous Lorrie!! You have embraced yourself and accepted your own loveliness and worth! That is so beautiful! You know, many of us, when we love, we love so much and so intense that the love we have for someone or something outside of ourselves blinds us for the love that is inside, if that makes sense. we forget to love ourselves because we are so busy loving everyone else. But for many of us, we fail to see that a love that is not an overflow or an expansion of our soul-love, is not really true, it is a fragile love that can shatter and break, because its existence is based on something outside of ourselves, its based on a need, a need to be loved, to be accepted, to be needed, it is a love that grabs hold of something, and soak up instead of flowing over, it is like we have an empty cup and we are pleading for someone to fill it instead of having a full cup that we let spill over on another person. When we see ourselves as a soul, a manifestation of God’s Love, made of Love, a ray of the sun that can never become shadow, then we can learn to really love unconditionally from inside out without a need to receive anything back. It starts within, then it spill over to the outside, too many of us start as beggars, with an empty cup looking to get it filled by the world. These are just my thoughts Lorrie, my discoveries 🙂 I am very proud of you and so very happy for you that you have found this divine Love within, know that it can not disappear, and if you cannot find it, there are many who will be here to gently remind you of where it is, in your soul 🙂 Lots and lots of Love to you dear soulsister! 🙂
Oh Line… I am speechless. You touched my heart with your response…it is so true…so valid. This needs to be shared. This is the understanding I have come to…in fact let me quote something I wrote in the fall…and just found it on a slip of paper when I got back to my home in NJ. “If you feel like you can’t take on caring about one more person – then you are neglecting love of yourself. Because if it feels like there are ‘limits to the amount of love’ then it’s bottled up inside you and you are not loving yourself. Love flows…it is limitless!”
Line…I think you should post this comment on your blog…you explain so beautifully…so prolifically. I am so moved by your words…I think everyone should read them because it is stated in a way that makes so much sense. More people need to read this…it deserves a space of its own…where it can be seen by many.
Thank you dear friend!
Wow, your words to yourself are so beautiful! 🙂 I think you should make a post of them 🙂 I am really happy that my thoughts made sense to you. I am little scared of posting these kind of thoughts on my blog, I don’t know if what I am thinking is right, if you know what I mean, we all have different journeys with different experiences, and what makes sense to me, may not make sense to all. But I am so happy that it made sense to you!! 🙂
Yes Line…I know exactly what you mean. And I understand that you are led to post what comes from your heart. It did make so much sense to me and I got excited to think everyone would understand!! But I get it…and would never wish to make you uncomfortable. Just know how much your words spoke to me…it makes sense doesn’t it? That if we think so alike we would connect on this level! Much love to you soulsister 🙂
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My Heart Blossoms
So lyrical, making me want to dance. Beautiful pictures, too. Lovely, Lorrie.
🙂 Thanks Kim!! I am so happy I could make you want to dance! I love to dance 🙂
Especially with the flowers…fields of flowers. So free.
🙂 Another great poem…
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Thank you so much!! I really do appreciate you stopping by and commenting 🙂
My mother used to publish this style of poetry for grade school aged children. Your abilities are very familiar and dear to my heart.
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Why thank you!! I would love to read some of them!!! It is very good to have something dear to your heart!!! I am honored! <3
You are most welcome, and very deserving. I’m afraid most of my mother’s work has been lost, as she’s now in a home care facility.
However, if I can think to look for some of her work, and find anything, I’ll try to let you know.
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Thank you! Have a beautiful weekend! <3
And may you have a super weekend as well. Enjoy your worship services if you attend a church.
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