This post is a part of a series of writings during a time of deep healing and transformation. The following are links to the other writings in the series in chronological order: Introduction & Haiku, The Funny Thing About Truth, The Journey To…, He Said I Have Anger, The Long Sleepless Night, Broken Arrow, Safe, Alone, On The Verge, Shred, The Thread, Vindication, Another Inch…Perhaps a Mile, Emancipation, Forgiveness
*Disclaimer: Some of this subject matter is sensitive in nature. Please read and explore in safety.
When all the pieces are there and the dust has settled
I am able to separate
FACT from FICTION
DARK from LIGHT
TRUTH from FANTASY
LOVE from FEAR
Yes, I am able to extract the layer of lies
That were told to me
And came from me
And I see the woman who thought it was better to hide
Who felt shame and guilt for something that was not her fault
No…not her fault at all
She was caught up in someone else’s sickness
In a mind that spent many years
KNOWING but not REMEMBERING
LOVING but not fully COMMITTING
ACCEPTING but not fully FORGIVING
I feel that I have connected
I have connected
MEANING to EVENTS
FEELINGS to THOUGHTS
HEART and SOUL to MIND
Like a lightning bolt
It all connected
From the pull
Of a tiny
THREAD
Understanding
And the fear that kept me in the dark for so long has dissipated
Into thin air
The child who couldn’t handle the memories
Doesn’t have to
Because the adult she’s become
Loves her
And will take all of the memories from here
And while I couldn’t be there to protect her THEN
I am here NOW
And I AM strong
And truth dispels fear when surrounded by love
Blessitude
Lorrie
4/4/15
See you in three weeks time Lorrie; in the meantime, stay “surrounded by love.” H <3
Thank you dear Hariod <3. I am really good. This recent healing has prepared me for the current road I am traveling. Much love…and safe travels. I hope it is a beautiful vacation ♡
I can resonate with it.
Hi Yoshiko 🙂 Thank you so much. Have a beautiful Easter ♡♡
Most welcome, Lorrie 🙂 have a beautiful Easter too
This is beautiful Lorrie!
Ah..Andy!! Thank you my friend…emancipation is a good thing. Thank you so much for your support. Have a super Easter <3
I’m delighted that you are re-connecting to love and wholeness. Sending love and light Lorrie.
blessings,
Hello my friend, Brad! Yes…it is a beautiful thing. It is a much better way to live!! Much love to you dear, Brad….Hoppy Easter ♡♡
Hoppy Easter to you too my fine fuzzy friend! XD May we rise together…
fantastic!!
I’m so happy you liked it…it is a way better feel ♡♡
Beautiful.
<3 <3 Thank you!!
Love this, Lorrie, and needed to hear it today. Thank you for sharing 🙂
Hi Laine! I’m so happy that you found these words today when you needed them!!! That warms my heart ♡ Many blessings to you!
There is something so special in these words you have shared. I will need to come back and read this again. Healing truth can be elusive at times.
Blessings,
Theresa
Oh, Theresa…I wish it wasn’t …I wish that every soul who needs to be healed find loving grace and ease of healing!! Thank you for being here throughout this journey. Your presence is felt and much appreciated ♡♡
I just had to comment again. I can remember really struggling with algebra in school. The teacher would try to explain the steps that needed to be followed to solve a problem, and sometimes actually got the idea across, and while in class I could work the problem and get the answer right. Then later at home I just couldn’t remember that crucial thing.
In life we truly need a divine perspective if we are to have peace, but like algebra I can get it for a moment, and then it’s gone.
“The child who couldn’t handle the memories
Doesn’t have to
Because the adult she’s become
Loves her
And will take all of the memories from here
And while I couldn’t be there to protect her THEN
I am here NOW
And I AM strong
And truth dispels fear when surrounded by love”
We need that adult version of ourselves to help the child in us to cope with those memories (both distant and recent), and to cope with our present issues, as well. Your words were comforting to me.
Thank you for your kindness,
Blessings,
Theresa
Dear Theresa,
I am so grateful for your response. You give me confirmation that posting this series was the right thing to do. My thoughts all along were that I was unsure whether to expose myself (and possibly others.) But all along I thought that if by posting these words, this journey I had, it could help even ONE person…then it would all be worth the risk of being seen. My heart connects with yours and know that I send you beautiful white healing energy through that connection!!
I spent many years trying not to be seen…perhaps even by myself. But my essence was always there…and I KNOW who I am. And I am no longer afraid to live in that truth. I wish for you peace…and freedom. And I am ALWAYS here…always willing to connect and help if I can. We all have times, as you wrote, that enlightenment is elusive. I think those are the times that our batteries are being recharged…getting us ready for a huge surge of love and understanding!! Much love and many blessings to you, Theresa!! Happy Easter morning…rebirth! ♡♡♡
Beautiful words Lorrie…just beautiful… <3 🙂
♡ Thank you so much dear Maniparna! Much love to you 🙂
Yay! This is wonderful! I hope you don’t mind if I re-blog it, to save it on “Loving Me, Too,” and hopefully spread the healing love.
Thank you my dear friend ♡♡ Healing love…that is what it is all about…isn’t it, JoAnne? I am so grateful for the love I am able to feel…it just grows every day!! Happy Easter morning to you. May your day be full of love and laughter <3
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Much love to you dear JoAnne!! ♡♡♡
Dear Lorrie, I suppose on some level we don’t know each other, yet on another level I can sense or feel, I think (not sure which) that we do know each other. I feel a connection with you, that’s all I really know – I am happy to hear you express your connection to yourself. you’ve connected to someone who is real and genuine, who deserves loves, who is capable of loving; and that’s the same person who I also feel a connection to. Happy Easter and Blessitudes, Harlon
Harlon…I couldn’t agree with you more!! I “feel” it also and that kind of connection is always special! It makes me think that we have traveled together in other lifetimes! 🙂 I thank you my friend for your beautiful words. There were many years that I not only didn’t feel love for myself, but also spent much time in the abuse arena. I am so grateful for all that I have learned and it feels good to celebrate being me!! And it feels good to connect with people who feel so…”comfortable!” Thanks my friend…you brighten my day every time I see contact from you ♡♡ Happy Easter!!
Thank you for sharing in such a beautiful and striking way, what many of us have experienced or are still experiencing at some level. What a journey we are on:-)
Bernadette
Hi Bernadette 🙂 Thank you for your kind words! And yes, we each and every one of us is on a journey…and it is miraculous!! Thanks for stopping by ♡♡
“…And truth dispels fear when surrounded by love.” Fear, hatred, evil…these are all things which are dispelled by love because God is love. He can’t be in the presence of anything which isn’t pure, and so His light “shines away” all corrupted things.
We are made new in the body of Christ. Raised up from baptism, we have a guarantee of life eternal with all of the joy, peace, and comfort we can’t even begin to imagine here on earth.
So, fight on my dear! You are cleansing your soul of impurities which are now gone. Believe me, God will go before you and dispense judgment for you in that final day…
~Steve
Amen!! Thank you Steve. Some really powerful words here. And yes I am cleansing and it feels good!!
Remember, the Lord fights all battles for us as we walk with Him. He has already given us a victory over sin and Satan!
He will make all evil bow down before Him one day, and then destroy it forever. How much more justice can we ask for…
Remember, call on me if you need to!
<3
~Steve
😉 Thank you. And amen to destroying evil!!
One day we will not endure evil, but it won’t be while on this earth. That joy is reserved for heaven and God’s reward!
<3
Steve
Your words speak of empowerment and I thank you for the smile I have on my face now 🙂
And your beautiful smile put one on my face too!! Thank you Christy, I’m so happy you stopped by and told me ♡