I Accept All That is Offered

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There is a sadness that pervades my soul

A time of energy that sits in the balance

I can’t put my mind on the cause

There is no apparent reason for this feeling

Nothing that jumps to my thoughts

I know from past experiences

That I just need to ride it out

I need to sit with it and give it

As much honor as I can

Not every thing in life has to have a reason

Not every question has to be answered

So I sit and I breathe

And I let myself feel this feeling

Open arms I welcome the sadness

I sit with a cup of tea

And quietly

No pressure

I let it know that it has the time

And the opportunity

To be what it needs to be

I let it know

That I won’t try to control it

Or change it

Or question it

I will only allow it

And, somehow

In writing these words

And feeling these feelings

I can sense a shift

One corner of my mouth turns up

As my face adopts

A knowing glance

As my heart

Pours love

Freely

I

Accept

All

That is

Offered

Blessitude

Lorrie ❀

7/14/15

Photo credit:Β  My girlfriend M

82 thoughts on “I Accept All That is Offered

  1. I feel a surge of sadness andloss sometimes Lorrie. Our subconscious holds on to emotions and memories … As does our body. When I feel like this, rather than trying to figure it out I move and tune into my senses. The ocean and nature replenishes and nourishes the place that thoughts cannot reach or heal.
    Just be with it my friend.
    Sending you a hug tonight … And hoping you have an ocean close by to listen to, smell and enjoy!

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    1. Oh, Val! Thank you so much for your beautiful reply. I truly am grateful for the beautiful wisdom…and yes I am most fortunate to be close to an ocean and will take your advice and breathe in the scent and listen to the melodic sounds of the waves!! “Just be with it my friend,” …perfect. The light in me honors the light in you! ❀

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  2. So much truth in your words. (((Hugs)))) I was just talking with my husband about “riding the wave”- how I was ready to stop trying to control something that was beyond my control. Your poem resonated with me. Love to you, sweet Lorrie!!

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    1. That really makes my heart sing, Julie!! The words help me as I write them, but to hear that they spoke to you as well is a very beautiful gift! I think we humans take a very long time learning that we need to ‘let go!’ Many blessings to you with riding your ‘wave.’ ❀

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  3. The only thing I can think to add, Lorrie, is that your beautiful acceptance, embracing and ultimately transcendence of these tugging feelings is on behalf of all beings. We too often think the work given us is for ourselves alone… We are building a great house together, and today the Master Builder has sent you to cut a few boards. You are alone cutting them… It is uncertain work… The saw feels it might shimmy apart or throw a blade, but you put every ounce of attention on cutting the boards… A few more years of this, and a whole new world will be in place…

    Today, I was roughing in the upstairs bathroom…. πŸ™‚ Ha!

    Much love, my friend–
    Michael

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    1. Thank you, dear Michael. You have a way of cutting (sawing???) to the chase (I’m not sure where that came from!). Like a laser beam directly to the source, your words hit my heart…made a tear or two fall…and then immediately made me feel better! You have a beautiful way of expressing your understanding. I am grateful for you. And I am also grateful to know that the hard work is worthwhile and will not only benefit me. It absolutely makes the journey through the briar patch, scars and all, much more meaningful. Thank you for the compassion you so freely share! ❀

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  4. Oh, I know these feelings. I imagine that most women go through this type of thing. I know I do. But attitude is everything, isn’t it? Just like you’ve decided to not control it or chase it away. But you want to learn from it.
    On another note, was that photo taken from your home?
    If so, that must be absolutely wonderful. To be able to see the sea from your home.
    Hugs and blessings Lorrie.
    πŸ™‚ ❀

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    1. Aw…Staci…thank you for your heartfelt compassion β™‘ I want to say I’m sorry you feel this way at times, but that would be like putting judgment on these feeljngs. So, I will offer a prayer that when you do feel this way that you will be able to safely navigate through it!!

      And…to your question: I WISH!! No…I do not have an ocean view from my little condo…but I can walk to see it!! That photo was taken by my girlfriend…in California (I have never been there.) She sent it to me probably 3 years ago…I knew I would use it one day. As beautiful as it is, the moment I saw it, it just felt right for this post. Much love to you β™‘β™‘β™‘

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      1. Hehehe. Well, the good thing is that you live close-by the beach. I’m sure that makes for some peaceful early morning and early evening walks. Yes? I’m sure you do that. I definitely would.
        Much love to you, my friend. And thank you so much for your empathy and care.
        πŸ™‚ ❀

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        1. Ah! Yes, Staci. I am missing those walks so much…digging my toes in the sand…waves lapping at my ankles!! I have not been able to be there due to my knee surgery…but I am very close to being able to!! And I think it may be time for a post about the ocean with lots of photos!! Soon! Hope all is super with you β™‘β™‘

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          1. Ohhhhh, I can only imagine how much you’re waiting to get out there and dig your toes into the sand. If I lived near the beach I would be making that a habit.
            Oh wow, a post of the ocean with lots of photos. Yes please. I’m on my way over to see if you’ve posted it already.
            πŸ™‚

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              1. All is well here. Waiting for winter to end. Hehehe. I’m sure your ocean post will be lovely. Tons of love to you too Lorrie.
                πŸ™‚ ❀

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    1. Thank you, Tiny πŸ™‚ That is wonderful advice…and deep in my heart I knew it would help…but I was almost paralyzed…like there was some reason I had to be in that moment…had to feel it. Much love back to you β™‘β™‘

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  5. “To sit with it and give it as much honour as I can” seems to call to me. I usually worry why I’m feeling anxious or sad and end being angry with myself. Thanks for your sharing. Awesome photo. The wonders of God’s beauty captured in that moment through the eyes of the photographer.

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    1. I’m so happy that my sharing may possibly ease a little pain πŸ™‚ I always acted like you said…I would put judgment on myself and even possibly anger. I would ask myself WHY till I was blue in the face and admonish myself when there wasn’t an apparent reason. If I can help any one at all, I would beg them to be gentle and kind with themselves…to ALLOW whatever needs to be expressed to be there without question or judgment. Many blessings to you…Thank you so much for your support β™‘

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    1. Oh…Hariod! Thank you for your incredibly beautiful words. I’m not sure why I felt that way, and to date I have not had a huge revelation. But I do know that being with it rather than fighting it, somehow made me more whole. Sending you much love β™‘

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      1. Thank you Lorrie; I find your words most interesting. It seems to me that wisdom operates of its own accord, and so for you to say that you had not any ‘revelation’ concerning this matter is not entirely surprising. If one thinks of Gibran’s Prophet, then when he addresses the people of Orphalese, he sometimes does not know what to say prior to speaking; yet when he does speak, the wisdom comes out as pure gold. There are real-world accounts of this too as doubtless you are aware, and we sometimes hear spiritual teachers saying that they have no idea where their words come from; they simply appear unpremeditated. It is in you, as you, shining out purely of its own accord, and as evidenced here in your work. H ❀

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        1. Wow…Hariod…Thank you so much for your incredible words. I must confess that I have always believed that I am only an instrument used for putting symbols together to make words on a page. When it first started it was a little disconcerting and I did question it…a little. Then I had this feeling to just allow whatever would come to be birthed without question. The words come, I write them down. Very rarely do I edit them for it doesn’t feel right to do so. So yes, the expression is in me…but also from outside of me. It is similar to feeling at one with all creation. I couldn’t be more grateful that you sense this. I sometimes get bogged down in my head when I really just need to ‘be.’ And, yes, to your words of Gibran’s Prophet…you know how much I adore him;) β™‘

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  6. Its a comfort to know we can allow uncomfortable feelings to wash through us and we will remain whole and enriched after their passing. I celebrate your wisdom and courage. Hugs to you, Lorrie.

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    1. Hi JoAnne! I know…because sometimes it really feels like we won’t be okay…but we always are! This was a huge lesson for me…I used to struggle so hard with those feelings…fear took over. I just hope I can remember how to do it πŸ˜‰ β™‘β™‘

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  7. Lorrie, you are truly an empathic person – and at times I imagine that can be challenging if not chaotic, yet it is a part of you that makes you the loving and beautiful person that I see you as and feel that I am knowing you as. Love, Harlon

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    1. Hello Harlon πŸ™‚ You are so kind…Thank you!! Yes, at times it is like an emotional overload, so much so that I have been known to just shut down…sort of pull the plug to the outside world and turn completely inward to just “be” with myself. The hardest part was discerning whether the emotions were mine or someone else’s. When they talk about us all being one…sometimes I can FEEL that!! Much love to you my dear friend β™‘

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    1. My beautiful friend…I think of you often! I’m so grateful for your words this morning, they touched my heart! I know you are there, and I miss you too…but your work right now is more important than anything. And I send you beautiful prayers, always! β™‘β™‘

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  8. Loved this. I believe anyone who is socially conscious and thus aware of suffering around the world could not ethically be happy all the time. Conscience demands reverence of sadness as well as gratitude. That you feel this means you are in touch with reality and not phony happy or selfishly hedonistic.

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    1. Thank you so much for your very thoughtful reply! You words are like a permission of sorts…saying it is okay and even necessary to feel this kind of sadness…I never thought of it this way…and I really like it! Thank you so much! Many blessings β™‘

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      1. That’s exactly what I was saying and I hope you know, wisdom isn’t permanently happy it’s real and aware and compassionate. You are. Xxx

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    1. Ah! Then I pray that you have also been comforted by the incredible comments the beautiful souls of WP have left here. They have warmed my heart and deepened my understanding. Many blessings to you β™‘

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    1. Hi Sue! Here’s a giant smile just for you πŸ™‚ Thank you for the beautiful thoughts…I am working through a few things…but there is ALWAYS A reason to smile!! β™‘β™‘ I hope you are wonderful as well!

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