Life can be so fragile.

One minute we are feeling strong and full of vitality – and the next we are knocked to our knees and every system in our body is impaired.

I once belonged to a group called, “The Picture of Health,” and my body, mind, and soul were integrated in a state of homeostasis…balance.

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In the blink of an eye, a storm cloud rolled in from the north. Without warning a repressed memory made its way to the surface of my mind as it sucker punched me in the gut.

Surrounded in fury, I watched as the darkness pushed through and eliminated all light.


Days upon days my ravaged body fought for survival. Fevers sent chills through my bones as I waged my way through the darkness in places unknown.

As above, so below…I was not sure what was part of me and what was not…what was truth and what was a lie.


As my body started to heal I could see the bridge between denial and truth and I knew that I wanted to be on the other side. So I took this new information and I had the realization that my fear of remembering was way worse than actually remembering.


All these years I kept the bad memories corralled in an attempt to protect myself from the pain. But all it did was make it manifest physically…because the pain has to go somewhere…


I packed my bags as I longed to go home. I wanted to get back to where I once belonged. A tulip bulb sleeps below the ground and when the Spring comes she bursts through the ground with her magnificent color and beauty.


And when you come through the darkness with better understanding…

When your body heals right along with your heart…

And your soul feels free…

The only thing left to do is…


Hi friends πŸ™‚ It’s been a wild month. As you can probably see from the words above, I had a terrifying repressed memory come to the surface and almost simultaneously I contracted a severe case of Covid.

Recovery has been slow and trying. But I am moving forward and healing on all fronts.

This post goes out to anyone who can relate to recognizing that sometimes our FEAR of something is much worse than the something.

I send you all love and light…and healing wherever you need it!


Lorrie <3


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    1. Hi Brad. Thanks so much for your well wishes…I am doing much better!
      I understand the journey you are beginning. I send lots of love and compassion…and I’m here if you need a friend.
      Have a great week, Brad.

  1. Wow, Lorrie – so many profound statements in your post. I wanted to highlight so many of them. I could relate so well to what you wrote. In my case, I have been dealing with my injuries and I had fever all last week. Your storm metaphors were so perfect.
    I hope you are getting your strength back since having Covid. I’m also sorry for all you must have gone through. May be both continue our healing path an find our way home! Much love to you!

    1. Thank you, Judy πŸ˜ŠπŸ’œ I know you are also coming through some darkness…and yet you looked and sounded so beautiful last night!!! I am happy I was able to pop in and share your healing energy! I am doing so much better and will continue to improve each day…as I know you will too!!
      Here’s to a wonderful week ahead…all Sweet Blessings πŸ’œ

    1. Aww…thank you, Mark 😊 I am truly amazed by so many aspects of what I have gone through. I don’t like feeling fear…and yet I have been doing it my whole life. The human brain – is a powerful mechanism, but it’s time for it to relax and let me see because I am whole…and I am ready!
      Sending love and light to you, Mark. Hope the week ahead is filled with many blessings πŸ˜ŠπŸ’œπŸ™

  2. I’m so sorry! Being sick and having to deal with a repressed memory at the same time must have been so difficult. I’m glad you’re on the road to recovery now!

    1. Thank you, Ann! 😊 It for sure felt a bit trying on all fronts…but I am much better and trying to get my strength and endurance back. The emotional part is good…I have to believe we remember when we are most capable of handling it.
      Hope things are wonderful in your world!

  3. Such a challenging time for you Lorraine, yet in the end, transformative. There is no going back, just a realization of what is precious. COVID can bring everything to a head as our body fights back. So glad you are feeling better and in a new place of love and affirmation of life once more. πŸ’πŸ™πŸ»πŸ’ž

    1. I am, Val! And it has been transformative. I am Blessitude for everything ~ though I could have done with a little less of the physical symptoms πŸ˜‰
      Hope all is well with you, and that you are able to get in the garden and enJOY communing in nature πŸ˜ŠπŸ’œ

  4. Very powerful share, Lorrie. As a dv and trauma survivor, it resonated in the very core of my being. Abundant peace and blessings to you, MW

    1. Hi Kristen 😊 Thank you πŸ™ I am feeling so much better…just working on getting my strength and endurance back.
      Hope things are good out by you!!

  5. Hi Lorrie, sounds as though you’ve weathered quite a storm in every way, physically, emotionally and metaphorically. But faith and love will always see us through my friend. Glad to hear you’re feeling better. Sending lots of love and blessings to you. πŸ’œ

    1. Thanks, Miriam. It was a triple whammy…and I am still healing. I am so grateful for all I learn, and life just gets better the more open I become. Appreciate your kind thoughts, always…

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